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« Sh*t » say Sonny, too dumbstruck to say anything else. Will nods with this disillusioned smile he sometimes have. His eyes glimmer from unshed tears. Sonny burns with the desire to touch his hair, hug him, tell him it's OK to cry. Will talks again, erratically. "The worse in this, is, you know... I don't know what I should feel... He's my father and I love him... I like Rafe a lot, but it's different... Allie and I have the same dad, but Sydney and Johnny are Rafe's... They'll go through the same stuff I did... Sydney is so small... " He wipes his eyelid furtively but it's too late now. His tears are flowing freely "And also... I shouldn't be thinking this... but it"s true... My mom isn't... I'm not sure that... Even if she goes back to my dad... That it would last... And then..." Sonny can see little Sydney's face in his mind. What a waste ! He feels powerless and a little angry. With whom ? Nobody is allowed to make Will cry. Ever. "Will, your siblings are so lucky to have you at their side. You'll be a great help through all this, I'm sure of this. And, you know what, look at you! Your parents split up and you turned out so strong... and attentive... and generous..." Will's lip quaver, turning the smile into a shy pout "You say that ? You're ten times stronger than I'll ever be. And I've f*cked up quite a bit those last years. I wasn't easy to deal with as a teen. It's a little bit my fault if..." Sonny's brow does a somersault "No, no, no, Will, don't think like that. You're not at fault here. It's your mother who is a sl..." F*ck...Shuddup ! He prays Will hasn't heard him.
The rigidity in Will's eyes as he looks up provides the answer. He did hear. Sonny wants the last five minutes back, he wants to hit his head on the wall, he wants to cut his tongue... Sh*t ! Will frees his hand from Sonny's, who wasn't aware he was holding it, and gets up slowly. "Will, I'm sorry... I... I didn't mean it that way... I got... I lost it... I was so angry..." Will stays silent and Sonny, his gut all messed up, looks at him walk away. His heart is physically aching. He's mad at himself. It's destabilizing. Promising himself to be there for Will and then, this. He slaps his forehead with both hands. D*che!
Sonny is seating at the family table. His mother glances at him discretely, letting him get ready to begin. He feels a little better for coming here. But he can't divulge Will's secret. It's too private. And his mother already dislikes Sami. He opens his mouth "I'm not great, right now. I needed to talk. Is it OK ?" His mother's smile cheers him up. "I was discussing some friend's problem with it and he confided in me something awful. I got so worked up and, you know me... I can be hurtful at times like this. I said something... He took it bad. And it really wasn't a good time..." Adrienne reflects for a moment then asks "Did you apologize ?" "Mom..." answers an irked Sonny. " What did he say to you ?" "Nothing, he just left.". His mother nods "That's to be expected." "What ? " "Well, what did you think ? That excuses would suffice ? He might forgive you with time, but not now. He has a right to it." Sonny sighs. " I know that... It still hurts." Adrienne raises her eyebrows. She carefully asks "This young man, You care about him a lot ?" Sonny nods, silently. " Is he the one that came and pick you up the other day ? Brian ?" Sonny stares, uncomprehending. Then he remembers. Brian, yes. To think he was looking down at his lack of attentiveness... "No, that's not him... I can't tell you more. Don't be mad." Adrienne lets out a laugh. She strokes her son's hair. "It's strange, you know. You're so appreciative of other people's feelings. You must have been really outraged." Sonny acquiesces. " I wanted to protect him. Good job." "Maybe he doesn't need protecting... How old is he ?" "A little younger than me." " If he's an adult, well, he can deal and take it all in. Including what you said. Nobody's made of glass." Sonny breathes out loudly and grabs Adrienne's fingers. "Thanks, mom. You always know what to say." "Thank you Sonny. Just being your mom. By the way, I'd love to meet him someday... " Sonny says his voice faltering "If he still wants me around..."