Four months was a lot of time off. Olivia wished she hadn't agreed to it now two months had passed. With nothing to do all day she just sat thinking about everything over and over. She had had her fill of travelling. She had no family to visit or friends outside of New York and she had ended up in Atlantic city of all places. She had grown tired of gambling quickly and since her first week travelling she had been alone.
Olivia had had many offers of drinks and dinners but had refused them all. Slightly sweaty business men weren't really her type.
The first week had been a different story, she had driven to the middle of nowhere. A small town in upstate New York she had once had to visit for a case. There was nothing but a motel and a bar, for the first week she had drank too much everyday. It must have been the third or fourth night, for some reason a barmaid had come home with her. She was completely wasted much like Olivia, the two of them were in fits of laughter and falling over each other the whole time.
It was getting late and the two of them started to get a bit more flirtatious. Olivia felt herself getting drawn in but before anything had happened her phone had interrupted them. She answered without thinking and was met with silence. Olivia had known who it was instantly. The conversation ended before it had begun when Alex must have overheard the woman speak. After Alex had hung up Olivia wanted to call her back and explain but quickly realised there was nothing to explain, if Alex hasn't have called she would have gone through with this.
After the call she told the woman to go. This wasn't what she was trying to get away from. Alex was still important to her; when she had shouted at her in the car park Olivia had been so mad with everything. In some ways she meant what she said but now she understood she had only said those things so Alex wouldn't follow her, Olivia was in no frame of mind to get into a serious relationship. So she ran away, never staying in one place for more than a few nights. Time had given her a certain perspective the anger had subsided but the guilt was still very raw.
So now it was two months later and she finally settled in Atlantic city. Maybe she wasn't ready to go back to her job but she had finally decided she actually wanted too. Another thing she wanted to do more than anything was call Alex, but she was terrified; scared she had broken things beyond repair. She should never have run away, it was safe to say she regretted it now.
She would take the rest of the two months off before she returned to work, cragan hadn't given her a choice in the matter on that front. But she was going to return to New York, she was always more of a face your fears kind of girl.
Olivia poured herself a drink and sat out on the motel balcony, she felt better now that she actually had made a decision about her future. The important question now was what was she going to do about Alex?
In her mind she had two options the first was do nothing, Alex probably had had enough of her bullshit. The other option was give her a ring and actual talk to her. One option required her to forget her fear and do the right thing and the other option was to do nothing. She couldn't decide right now but maybe Alex was better off without her.
The next two months would tell. But tomorrow she would head back to New York and back to reality.
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