Monday came too quickly for Alex. The weekend had been spent in its usual fashion, making excuses to George about why she can't go to the next step in their relationship. Mostly she tried to busy herself with work trying to keep her mind from Olivia and George.

Monday morning started in a promising way, there was no need for her to go into the precinct. It soon became afternoon and she thought she might be able to get away with it, her hopes were dashed when her phone rang. To her relief it was Elliot.

"Hey Alex, we have a witness that wants a deal. Could you come down and hear what he has to say?", she couldn't exactly say no; it was her job after all.

She tried to put it off as long as possible. Dragging her heels out to catch a cab and taking her time paying the driver. But soon she was standing in the svu squad room but luckily Olivia was nowhere to be seen. She caught sight of Elliot waving her over and she quickly joined him in the observation room. The witness was sat at the table and the door opened, Olivia entered; she looked exactly like her old self.

She was captivated as Olivia interrogated the man, he was clueless to her manipulating information out of him; it really was a sight she had missed and she couldn't help but smile.

"She has missed you you know", Elliot's comments made her jump she had been so focused on Olivia.

"I missed her too Elliot but that doesn't make anything better", she didn't want to reveal her feelings for Olivia; she wasn't sure how much he knew.

"I hear you've got a boyfriend", she wasn't sure if he was asking as a friend or to get information out of her.

"And who told you that?", she wasn't giving anything up that easy.

"Well Olivia was coming to see you and she might have seen you with him", Elliot seemed awkward asking her personal questions so she guessed it must have been for Olivia.

"I am seeing someone. Did she happen to mention why she was coming to see me?", she tried to be aloof and seem more focused on the interrogation but she wanted to know how much he knew.

"She didn't tell me exactly but she did say she wanted to apologise", he obviously wasn't aware of all the details. "What happened between you two anyway?", she wasn't sure how to answer to be honest. It was a story she didn't really have time to tell.

"She said some things that I can't quite forgive just yet", the short version would have to suffice.

"Surely it was nothing worth ruining a friendship over", she observed him for a moment he was right but it wasn't just a friendship at stake.

She returned her attention back to the interrogation room. Olivia was finishing up and heading her way. Alex gathered her things ready to make a quick exit.

Olivia appeared round the corner and for a second couldn't take her eyes off Alex who also just stood there. Elliot took it as a cue to break the silence.

"What do you think alex?", she bearly Heard him but tore her attention from Olivia.

"Tell him ill knock five years off his sentence if he testifies against his partner", she was done here and made for the door hoping no one would follow her.

She reached it to the elevator and down to the ground floor before the doors opened and Olivia was standing there out of breath. Alex went to walk round her but Olivia got in her way.

"Will you please just hear me out?", Olivia was genuinely pleading and this definitely made Alex feel a hint of sympathy.

"You have till I can catch a cab", Alex made sure everything happened on her own terms. She was not going to be made a fool of again.

"Okay look, I'm sorry for leaving. I should have called you but I was all over the place, drinking every night and day when I wasnt gambling in Atlantic city. I was not myself but I am better now and I'm ready for us to be together like we should be", Alex was silent for a moment; she felt an argument boiling up inside of her and she knew she was going to let it come out.

"Oh you're ready now. Well I better just drop everything then it's not like you gave me a choice four months ago so why should I get a say in our relationship now. You got to escape and run away like a coward but I was stuck here working trying to deal with the fact that I was betrayed by my best friend", she wasn't finished but she had to stop for air. "I trusted you and I thought you felt the same way but you turned on me the second things got rough claiming you needed time, obviously you didn't need that much time because you were shacked up with my replacement a few days later", she could tell her words were hurting Olivia and she started to feel bad; especially when Liv wasn't fighting back. She decided to continue. "I had to move on, I was so miserable. I make no apologies for that", she finally ran out of steam and felt slightly better.

"Does he make you feel like I did?", Olivia finally spoke but at a whisper. Alex flagged a cab, she couldn't stand here and look at the expression on Olivia's face. She had one last thing to say before she left.

"How could you possibly know how I feel when you didn't stay around to find out", she didn't wait for a response before she left Olivia on the kerb.

Now on her own in the cab she actually cried, just a few tears. Mainly because of finally getting some of the things that had been weighing on her mind out in the open. She did feel incredibly guilty for leaving Olivia on the side of the road but this wasn't something that was going to be fixed over night if at all. She really wasn't in the mood for dinner with George tonight but she couldn't give him yet another excuse.

Olivia remained on the kerb for a while thinking about what just happened. The realisation dawned on her that She might have hurt Alex too much to hope for forgiveness. But maybe she was hurting so much because she still loved her, at this point she really couldn't tell.

Her resolve came back when she realised something else, she was not going to give up. Alex new 'boyfriend' was certainly in for a fight.

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