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And he waits.
Petrified.
His forehead slowly covering with sweat.
Looking intensely into Will's eyes, in a last attempt to find his strength of character back. Yes, he is a risk-taker. And he's often been victorious. And this is the biggest risk of all, he can't even fathom what it would mean for him to be rejected. But it's done and having liberated this energy that was trapped in his body everywhere is exhilarating, he feels like he's floating.
He waits.
Will takes his hand from his knee to his mouth with a loud, discordant breath. His chest inflates and he looks at Sonny with disoriented eyes. His eyelids are bright, there might be a tear there but the sun might be playing trick too. He takes his hand off, opens his mouth then shuts it. Sonny is still waiting, strangely serene. He decides to talk again " I get that you just want to be friends with me, I do, I just don't have any control over my feelings for you. And who you are, what you do, it just strengthens them, you are enchanting. Just being in your company, like now, it's incredible." Will starts answering "Sonny..." But Sonny cuts him. He wants to tell him everything before he gets a definite response. " I thought for a minute that... But I guess I was wrong and those last months, you went through so much, and I was a little bit responsible for it... I chose not to tell you so that I could still be around you. Sometimes it really hurts but it's better than nothing... I love you, Will. If you want me, I'll give you... everything... If you don't, just don't offer pity and let me stomach it." Will says faintly "... Sonny". Sonny gets up and turns his back so he won't fall apart facing him. "You can talk now."
"Sonny, turn around!" orders Will and his voice is so intransigent Sonny obeys without thinking. Will isn't embarrassed anymore, he's positively mad. "For how long ?" Sonny looks at him perplexed "A few months..." "Precisely ?" "Since about... a week after we met. Until then, it was just attraction. Then, it... evolved." Will rubs his face, eyes closed "So, for over six months, you have kept this secret from me." Sonny is ready to justify himself, then stops and looks down "Sorry." Will shakes his head irritated. He walks up to Sonny and grabs his chin "Sonny, look at me!" Sonny raises sheepish eyes "Sonny... you're a moron... And apparently you're blind, too... You never answered to any of my move, ever... Ok you affect me so d*mn much, I couldn't do much, and I had resigned myself. But I couldn't date anyone else. I just couldn't. I think about you all the time, day and night. I dream of..." His lips come closer but stop before they reach Sonny. Who gets impatient and initiates the kiss.
Sonny doesn't close his eyes right away. He wants to see Will's face. He wants to look at him over and over, see the ecstasy on his features while feeling his lips against his. His brain is disintegrating but who would choose having a brain over having Will ? He's loosing control, now, shoving Will who loses his balance. Sonny immediately re-collects and takes him in his arms, like he's done many times before for hugs, but this time with a delight that overwhelms him. Without really knowing how, they find themselves still clutching each other with Will's back pressed to the willow tree. Will makes a strangled high-pitched sound that gets Sonny to detach his lips and take a much-needed breath. In the silence that follows, when even the bird up the tree has paused its chirping, Will whispers "I love you" in Sonny's ear. Who can't help instantly recapturing the mouth of his man. His Will.
He plants repeated kisses on Will's lips who laughs and fondles Sonny's hair. The sensation is incredible and he returns the favor, getting lost in the moment, taking in Will's fingers moving down his back and caressing him tenderly, the feeling of Will's thigh, the one he was lusting after, between his legs, and he puts his hand on it and slowly goes up. Will groans and Sonny takes the hand away, thinking he's going a little fast, here. Will catches his hand and puts it back on his leg then slides his own hands to Sonny's ass. Sonny reacts to that contact by pressing his tongue to Will's mouth anxious for his lips to move apart. Will complies and tilts his head. Sonny tastes Will and his head is spinning. He wants more, he wants everything and he also wants for this instant to go on endlessly.
When he has to squint to look in the azure of Will's eyes, he becomes aware of the sun setting. They must have spent about two hours kissing and looking at each other. He whispers "Will... Is the refuge far from here ?" Will gives a start, as if taken out of a daydream and looks around him. His arm stretches "It's up there. You can see the roof near the cliff." Sonny doesn't untie from Will and looks past the arm, estimating the distance. "We should head out before it turns pitch black, I don't see any streetlights around. Where did we leave the bags ?" Will looks around again, not letting Sonny go either, and he wonders if they'll disengage at some point or if they'll become a Siamese couple. But then Will glides his hand down Sonny's shoulder and arm and takes his hand. Sonny smiles stupidly.
As they're bending over their backpacks, Sonny hears a car coming. He looks up and sees an SUV that parks next to Will's car. He spots Cam on the passenger seat and suddenly recalls their arrangement. He turns to his boyfriend to explain, but Will is looking at the car, apprehensive, and slowly pales. He clasps Sonny's hand and whispers "Sonny... This car... I've seen it before!" One second later, Sonny recognizes the nurse.