Author Note: I would like to thank everyone for the reviews you guys have been giving me. I love you all.

Well you guys are going to hate me even more after you read this chapter. I know you want Brucas to be okay and happy, but when is there never any drama in their lives. Anyway I hope you like the chapter even though your going to hate me for writing it. Much Love Roch xxx

The pain I didn't want

BPOV

I felt the covers soaking wet. I brought my hand up and saw a liquid substance. I leaned over and saw blood everywhere. The bed was covered in it. I turned to my side and didn't see Lucas there. the clock said 4:00 in the morning and Lucas was no one to be seen. I then started to feel cramps. I held onto my stomach as I tried to pull through it. Tears were streaming down my face as the pain got worse. I grabbed my phone and rang Peyton. Peyton was at my house within 20 minutes. I tried to move out of the bed, but the pain was too much. When Peyton got to the house she came in and her eyes went wide by the amount of blood she saw. Peyton called an ambulance on her way. I saw Peyton looking around and knew who she was looking for "Where's Luke?"

I shrugged actually not knowing where my husband is as I'm soaked in blood. There was knock at the door and I knew that was the ambulance. I was shocked at how fast they had got here "Hey Miss My Name is Jeremy" He told me as I was still trying to breathe through the pain. It was like nothing else and I've been through labour pain. This pain was uncontrollable. It felt like my insides where dying. It felt like I was being tortured and killed "What's your name?"

"It's Mrs" I say through each breathe "Brooke Scott" I mutter trying to keep my eyes open. I was getting rather tired and the pain was just too much to bare.

"Okay Brooke stay with me" I could hear Jeremy tell me "Open those eyes darling"

"My baby" I started to say remembering I have a baby inside me "My Baby"

"Brooke are you pregnant?" Jeremy sounded really worried I could hear it in his voice. I nodded my head slowly "How long far you are you Brooke?"

"3 months" I tell him seeing the look I didn't want to see. I felt just like he was looking at me. I'm losing my baby. I can feel it.

"Okay Brooke where going to get you to the hospital ASAP" I nodded as they lifted me onto a stretcher. My clothes were soaked in blood. They were sticking to me and I felt gross having them on me and my beloved husband was nowhere to be found. Peyton tried calling him, his phone was turned off. Wherever that bastard is, he will regret this.

Once I got to the hospital I was rushed into see a nurse in a private room. They laid me on the hospital bed after I changed into a gown. I didn't want those clothes I had on earlier they just terrify me. the nurse walked into the room with my notes "Hey there Mrs Scott" I see her name badge said Nancy.

"Call me Brooke" I tell Nancy as she stands beside me "Brooke..."

Nancy sounded like she was about to give me the worse news an expecting women is afraid to hear. I looked up at her with tears in my eyes. I shut my eyes as I could still feel her looking down at me "My baby" I whisper knowing she can just about hear me and then I open my eyes again feeling hot tears rolling down my cheeks "Have I lost my baby?"

Nancy looked away and at the papers. I already knew her answer, but I didn't want to believe I couldn't believe it "Brooke there was a lot of blood" Nancy started to say and I could literally feel my heart stop beating for a minute or so. My words were caught in my throat and I couldn't form any. I've lost my baby. Nancy didn't say that, but there was a lot of blood and I mean a lot. If vampires were real they would have had a feast with the amount of blood I lost. I just knew my baby wasn't there anymore; let's just say it's a mother's instinct "I'll do a scan just to see" I gave a little nod wanting to fight against that idea, but I didn't and I don't know why. All I knew is that I wanted Lucas with me right now, holding my hand and assuring me that everything will be okay, but he isn't here and I don't know where he could be at 4:45 in the morning. Nancy turned the ultra sound machine on and lifted my gown to my belly covering my legs with another gown. She placed the cold jelly on my stomach and then brought the stick down to move the jelly around my stomach and I could tell on her face that my baby is gone. There is no baby in their anymore "I'm sorry Brooke" Nancy began to say "You've had a miscarriage"

"No" I cried. I could have sworn my heart stopped beating again. I went cold. I felt sick. This couldn't be happening to me "Please try again. My baby has to be there" I whimper

"I'm really sorry Brooke" I could see the tears forming in Nancy's eyes too as she turned away from me "You baby isn't there anymore"

"I've lost my baby" I cry "It's gone" Nancy then wiped the jelly from my stomach and fills out some more paper work before discharging me.

"Anyone you want us to call?" Nancy asked as I sat up like a robot

"Peyton sawyer"

"Okay I'll call her for you now" Nancy replied "Brooke I'm very sorry for your loss"

"Yeah so am I" I respond still holding my stomach even though nothing's in there anymore.

"Brooke you're still going through the miscarriage so you'll be expected to get cramps now and again. You'll be expected to have a little more bleeding like a period and if there's any further problems please call me" Nancy gave me her card as I nod at her as she leaves the room.

Owen came and got me while Peyton stayed with the children at her house. Owen asked where I wanted to go so I told him to take me home and tell Peyton to bring Ally and the twins back later today and Owen nodded. He dropped me off making sure I was okay first. When I told him I'm fine he stayed for 10 minutes and then I told him to go back home. Owen agreed and left me alone in my house. I looked at the clock and noticed it was 7:00. I was in the hospital for a while and I still got nothing from Lucas yet. I don't know where he is and right now I couldn't give a rat ass.

The front door opened and I heard Lucas come in. He was trying to be quiet, but I was already awake. I was sat on the couch with my legs up to my chest sitting in the dark. The lights were off the curtains where shut. I had tears running down my cheeks as my head was buried into my knees my hair everywhere. Nancy gave me my clothes before I left in a bag that was placed on the coffee in front of me.

"Brooke" Lucas said quietly "What happened?"

"I lost our baby" I cry as I sense him walking over to me. I shot my head up when I felt him pulled me into him. I jumped up from the couch and out of his arms "Don't touch me" I spit at him as I walk pass him and up to our room that I knew looked a mess with the amount of blood still up there. Lucas followed me. I stopped at the door way of our room and looked at the amount of blood on our bed. The sheets were soaked the covers were red and my heart was broken.

"OMG" I heard Lucas grasp. Tears were rolling down my eyes and he pulled me into him. I wanted to fight him off so bad, but I just couldn't. I needed him right now, but I just had to push away from him "Brooke..."

"No Lucas" I shake my head at him turning to look at him "Don't touch me. I just..." I Cross my hands over my chest "I had a miscarriage Lucas and you wasn't around at all nowhere to be found" I throw at him "I went through so much pain wanting you to hold me and tell me everything will be okay, but instead you're out somewhere that you won't tell me where" The tears were blurring my vision and I wiped them away.

"Brooke I'm sorry" Lucas apologises thinking that say sorry was going to make this alright, but it isn't and it won't.

"If your cheating on me Lucas then just go because I'm hurting so much more then I should be" I tell him not wanting to suppress this anymore then I already have and the I felt a cramp "Oww" I bent myself over holding onto my stomach trying to stop it "OH GOD" Fuck it hurts like shit. Lucas walked over to me and I back away from him a little not wanting him anywhere near me let alone touching me "Don't"

"Brooke are you okay? What can I do?" Lucas asks

"It's called a miscarriage Lucas" I say like his stupid or something "You know what I had when you wasn't here"

"Brooke..." Lucas says again

"Stop Lucas" I say shaking my head "Just please stop" And then the cramp passed and I felt okay again "Please just sop otherwise my heart will completely shatter and I don't think it will be able to heal this time"

"I'm sorry" He says again and I was really sick and tired of him saying that.

"Yeah so you keep saying it Luke" I put my hand son my hips and look at him "I'm tired of your 'I'm sorry's'

"I don't know what else to day?" Lucas looks defeated and I just feel it.

"How about the truth Luke?" I bark at him "How about you tell me where you've been the past three months or so?"

"I want to so bad baby" He tells me "So bad"

"Then just do it because I seriously can't go around acting like nothing has happened anymore" I rub my head closing my eyes taking a deep breath.

"I love you"

"Yeah and I love you too, but I'm scared Lucas" I admit "This marriage is going downhill and I'm scared"

"It will get better very soon" Lucas assures me wiping away the tear that feel down my face

"It won't getting any better until you tell me where you have been going" I'm being honest, it won't get any better if he doesn't tell me the truth "I mean it Luke"

"Just trust me Pretty Girl please" Lucas takes a hold of my hand "Trust me"

"Okay fine Luke" I cave "I'll trust you"

HPOV

I was rushed to the hospital as my water just broke. I was walking back to bed from the toilet when my water broke. Nathan was running around after me as I laughed at how scared he was again. I was laying in a hospital bed when Brooke walked in "Hey Hales" She smiled at me even though I know what had happened earlier. Peyton had told me, she rang me as soon as Brooke was in the ambulance trying to get a hold of Lucas.

"Hey tigger" I smiled back at her "How are you?"

"You're going to be a Mom again soon" Brooke ignored the question and changed the subject "I'm really excited to meet baby Scott real soon"

"Brooke..." I look at her with sympathy and I can tell she hates it

"Don't look at me like that Haley" She sounds defensive and I hate how she just bottles it all up.

"I'm sorry" I apologise "Really sorry"

"Don't worry about it" And then a cramp hot me again "Oww" That one hurt more then the last one 4 hours ago "OH FUCK" I double over in pain as I sit in teh chair beside Haley.

"OMG Brooke you okay?" I hear Peyton ask as in walks into the room.

Brooke nodded her head trying not to cry, I could see it on her face "Yeah that a cramp"

"Cramps don't hurt like that?" Peyton sounded really scared

"Miscarriage cramps do" Brooke breath's out as she tries to breathe through it "OH GOD"

"You sure you're okay?" I piped in

Brooke nods my head again "I'm fine" She looks up at us "I promise I'm fine" Then the cramp passed as I was fine again "See I'm fine guys"

"You scared us Brooke" I pointed out "God"

"Sorry" She gave us a small smile "Nancy said I'll get cramps real bad for a few days and then they'll stop"

"Okay"

"So Hales you ready to be a Mom again?" Brooke asked changing the subject from herself and her loss. I let it drop because I could see the pain in her eyes.

I nodded at her and I put my hand on my tummy so excited to see my little girl real soon and the smile played on my lips for ages "Yeah I'm so excited"

"I can see it" Brooke gives me a small smile fighting through then pain of the loss she went through earlier "Hales I'm gonna go for a walk, but I'll be back real soon"

"You want me to go with you B" Peyton asked and I saw Brooke shake her head

"Nah I just need some air" Brooke replied walking out of the room.

BPOV

"Hey Pretty Girl" I heard Lucas say as he sat beside me outside the hospital

"Hi" I replied not looking at him, but at the pond in front of me.

"You okay?" He asked

"I lost my baby Luke, so no I'm not okay" I say like he forgot what happened hours before

"I'm sorry Brooke" Lucas said rubbing my leg "I..."

"You forgot" I snap my head to look at him and moved from his grasp "You forgot that I miscarried" I shook my head at him not believing this was happening "You weren't there and left me alone to deal with it and then I trust you like you asked me to and then you tell me you forgot about it"

"No Brooke I didn't forget" Lucas defends himself "I didn't want to bring it up in case it upset you"

"You not being there with me Luke upset me. You leaving and then coming home in the night upset me. You not spending time with your kids upsets me" I tell him as I feel a tear fall down my cheeks "This miscarriage upsets me yeah, but don't act like you care"

"I do care Brooke" Lucas stood up standing in front of me "How can you say I don't"

"Because you don't show it Luke, not anymore and I don't know why since you won't tell me" I tell him feeling sick thinking that Lucas could possibly be cheating on me.

"I've asked you to trust me Brooke" Lucas said calmly "You're meant to trust me"

"How am I meant to trust you if your cheating on me" I shot back at him as my hands flung up over my mouth and I gave a quick grasp. Yeah I said it before, but this time it sounded real.

Lucas looked at me like I had just shot him down "I'm not having this conversation with you" Lucas says turning around looking back at the pond "I'm not"

"No Lucas" I yelled wanting him to look at me "Look at me"

"Brooke I can't have this conversation" Lucas said again "I just can't"

"Why?" I push wanting to know why my husband is lying to me and why he won't talk to me "Tell me why Luke"

"Because" Lucas stated

"Because what?"

"I'm not cheating on you Brooke and I don't believe you would believe that" Lucas doesn't look at me. He looks everywhere, but at me.

"If you're not cheating Luke then where you been?" I questioned not understand any of this. His confusing me.

"It doesn't matter" Lucas tries to brush it off, but I wasn't having that. This is ruining us and I don't want that to happen not after everything we've been through together.

"Yes it does matter Lucas" I throw my hands up feeling so frustrated with him and the whole situation "For fuck sake can you wake up please" I tell him and I grab hold of him and turning him to look at me "Wake up and smell the fire that is burning us apart"

Lucas then finally looked at me and I saw hurt flash through his eyes. Why was he hurt when his the one who made this mess. I should be hurt and I am hurt, so hurt "Stop Brooke okay" Lucas tells me and my heart dropped. Is that all he has to say. He tells me to fucking stop. This husband of mine is a fucking douche bag.

"That's all you fucking have to say is stop Brooke?" I beckon at him "You know what Luke, I'm done" I'm putting a done deal on this marriage. His lying to me. His keeping secrets from me and I'm just not bothered. I just can't do it anymore. Any of it.

"What do you mean you're done?" Lucas asked finally waking up after smelling the fire taking my hand and placing it on his heart "That I always your Brooke. No one else will ever have my heart like you have it and by walking away from me your gonna kill me"

I take his hand and bring it to my heart "And you have mine Luke and always will" I tell his seeing the tears finally burning in his eyes. He is finally seeing what is going on and it took him to see me walking away "But I seriously can't do this anymore Lucas. I lost my baby and you weren't there. I put the kids to bed every night and you're never there"

"Correction Brooke you lost our baby" Lucas tells me "And you'll find out in time what's going on"

"I haven't got time Luke" I reply "We haven't got time" I turn to look at the ducks swimming in the pond "This marriage hasn't got time"

"You have to trust me Pretty Girl"

"I'm trying Luke, I really am"

"Don't walk away from me Brooke" Lucas pleaded running his hands through his hair

"I have to go see the kids" I tell Lucas walking back wards "I have to go" I then turned around and literally ran from the scene I just walked away from. Was I leaving Lucas? Was it for good this time? Is this marriage over even though it's just begun? I walked away not from him, but from what I was feeling. I'm running from the truth even though I don't actually know what the truth is.

Could please review just so I know if you are reading it or not. I would appreciate it a lot. Thanks. Roch xxx