Author Note: I would like to thank everyone for the reviews you guys have been giving me. I love you all.
Yep you are defo going to hate me for this chapter too, but I assure you that everything will get better in the end.
I don't know what to do
BPOV
Haley had her baby girl 3 hours ago. I stayed at the hospital the whole time until she was born and then I told Haley I had to get the kids home. It had been a long day. I lost my baby that morning and Haley had hers hours after and it all seemed a little too much for me. I haven't spoken to Lucas since I walked away from him. When where in the same room it seems small, when he walks pass me I get a little shiver and I don't know what that means. The kids were all asleep and I should be tired too, but I just couldn't go to my room where I lost my baby. I haven't changed the sheets yet even though I should have. I just can't and it kills me. The cramps have calmed down now and I was happy about that. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water when I heard the front door shut. I then saw Lucas walking into the living room he looked up at me and gave me a small smile "Hey"
"Hi" I replied walking into the living room sitting in the armchair holding my belly still.
"You okay" He asked
I shook my head at him "Not really" I was being honest. I wasn't okay.
"I'm sorry Brooke" I looked up at him feeling sick a little. This whole situation makes me feel sick "But I'm not cheating on you"
I turn my head back to look at him. If he seriously isn't cheating on me then where is he going at night and why is he keeping it a secret. I saw him pleading with me without saying anything. I could see it in his eyes. I didn't know what to think or what to do at this point I just felt tired of it all "When I first agreed to go on that date with you I didn't know how it was going to go" I state seeing the confusion on his face.
"Brooke wh..."
"Then you surprised me and the date was perfect like never before and I was just shocked at how much I was starting to like you and then I saw you with Britney and I felt so angry that you would do that" I interrupted him "Then we went out again and in time I fell in love with you. Then I had to leave and my heart broke. We have been through so much together Luke and my heart hurts every day not knowing what you're thinking or what you're doing" I wipe the tear away from my eye "You are hurting me and I don't even think you know it yet"
"Oh Brooke I know you're hurting" Lucas tells me running his hand through his air "I know how much I'm hurting you and how much I have been for a while now and I'm sorry for everything Brooke"
"Then tell me Lucas" I state hearing a sob threaten to come out "Just tell me" I then heard the door bell ring. I got up and walked over to the door to get it. When I opened the door I saw a lady standing there with baby boy in her arms. I was now more confused than ever "Erm... hey" I gave a little smile to the girl in front of me "May I help you"
"Yeah I think you might be able to" She nodded "I'm looking for Lucas Scott"
"And you are?" I asked as my stomach dropped even more than usual. This was all getting too much for me to bare.
"Raleigh and this is my son Dylan" Her son. Okay so maybe she's a friend of Lucas's or maybe she's a family member I never meant or maybe she's the girl Lucas had been cheating on me with. Is this where he has been with his other family.
"Raleigh" I hear Lucas say from behind me "What you doing here?"
"Dylan wanted to see you" Raleigh tells him "He was crying for you and I didn't know what to do. I tried ringing you, but you didn't answer"
"Yeah sorry my sister in law had her baby" Lucas tells the girl forgetting I was there.
"Congrats Luke" She smiled at him
"Daddy" My head snapped up to the little boy. Did I just hear correctly? Daddy... what the hell is going on "I missed you"
"I missed you too buddy" Lucas picked Dylan up when the girl put him down. I was just stunned at all this. Lucas and I were getting somewhere just now and now my life as well as my heart had been shattered.
"He called you daddy" I made my presence known "He called you daddy" I felt sick and dizzy. This was all happening too fast "You have to go" I state "You have to get out of my house and out of my life. My divorce lawyer will be in touch" I tell Lucas feeling my boy go cold and then before I knew it I was falling to the floor and everything went black.
HPOV
Lydia Brooke Scott was born 3 hours ago. She weighed in at 6lbs 7 ounces. She was the cutest baby ever since Jamie was born. I held her in my arms and I didn't want to let her go. Nathan was taking pictures and I loved my life right now. I had a great husband and two wonderful children I love so much. I handed Lydia to Nathan so I could just rest for a little while. Laying in the hospital bed watching Nathan coo at her they looked so cute.
"She's gorgeous" Nathan kept saying bouncing her lightly up and down in his arms smiling down at her.
"Yeah she is and we made her Nate" I tell him giving him a smile "She's our precious little girl"
"I love you Hales" Nathan leans down and kisses me softly on the lips
"I love you too baby"
BPOV
Waking up in a hospital bed wasn't what I wanted. I wanted to be home with my babies and have Lucas out of my life. I looked around the room and saw Lucas sitting beside me in the chair "You're awake" Lucas sat up and moved my head to look away from him "You okay?"
"No not really?" I reply "I just found out my husband had fathered someone else's baby and lied to me about it"
"Brooke I can explain" Lucas tells me trying to take my hand in his
"Don't touch me" I say taking my away from his "I don't want an explanation Lucas. I want you out my life for good this time. I want a divorce"
"We've been married for 3 months Brooke, we can't get a divorce yet" Lucas states and okay so his right.
"Then I want an annulment" I go to the next best thing.
"Brooke I love you"
"You can't love me as much as you say you do Luke" I feel tears running down my face and I wipe them away "You could have told me. I would have understand"
"I wanted to so much, but I was scared" Lucas admits "I didn't want to lose you"
"Well you have" I tell him wanting so bad to get up and walk "You have lost me Lucas"
"Please let me explain baby" Lucas pleaded and heart was telling me now, but my head was telling me to let him explain.
"Fine explain then"
"I dated Britney when you left for a couple of months and then I got with Raleigh and we were together for a while and then she left and got in contact with me about a year ago, but didn't tell me about Dylan until after our wedding" I listened to him and nodded along with him "I wanted to tell you, but I don't know how to do it. We have a beautiful family and I didn't want to lose you"
"You know what kills me the most Luke" I say to him "Not the fact you lied to me or the fact you have a son with someone else or that you forgave her faster then you did me when I kept Ally away from you, but it the fact that I lost our baby while you were playing house with someone else" I had tear run down my face "I woke up drenched in blood. The pain was unbearable and I needed my husband Luke, but you weren't there or at the hospital. Peyton tried to get hold of you, but she couldn't. I needed you to hold me and tell me everything would be fine and you didn't" I wipe the tear away and look at him through my glassy eyes "You picked to play house with someone else while you are married to me. You picked to be with her while I went through the worst thing ever and you picked her over us, so you Luke and go be with her and your son. I'm going to take the kids to Cali for a while to sort my head out and everything else" I tell him seeing him plead with his eyes.
"No Brooke" Lucas shaked his head violently "I don't want her, I want my wife and kids" He tells me, but I just don't believe him or at least I don't want to for some reason "I want you not Raleigh" Lucas takes my hand in his "Yeah I want to be in Dylan's life of course I do, but I don't want Raleigh like I want you Brooke. Your my wife and I love you more than anything" Lucas had tears running down my face now "Please don't leave me baby. Please stay"
"Broody" I mutter as I look at him wiping a tear from his cheek "I love you too, but I don't know how we can get pass this" I said honestly feeling really bad, but telling the truth "We've been through so much and now I just don't know what to do anymore"
"Exactly Pretty Girl we've been through so much together and I want us to carry on the journey as you my wife. I don't want to lose you and the kids. I don't want you leaving me and I don't want this to break us" Lucas ranted like I was going to leave this second, but to be honest if I could I would have left at the start of this conversation.
I don't want this to be the end of us really I don't and I don't want Raleigh to have him because Lucas is mine and always has been, but what else am I meant to do. How else am I meant to be strong enough to go through this with Lucas and see him play and care for his son who I didn't help him make. Why would this happen to us and why now? What else is the world going to throw at us to see if we get through it and dodge it? I know what your all thinking you want me to say that I forgive him and we can go live happily ever after like in the fairytales well I'm sorry to disappoint you, but this is reality, real life and nothing ever ends happily ever after "I'm tired Luke. I want to sleep" Lucas nodded and lay back in the chair.
"I'll be right here baby when you wake up" Lucas tells me and gives me a small smile as I close my eyes and turn my body away from him. This had become one big ass mess and I think I'm far too deep to dig myself out now.
PPOV
So this day has been really weird and crazy. Brooke lost her baby which hurt her so bad she hardly wants to talk about it. Haley then had her baby later in the day. I then saw Lucas and Brooke having a heated argument out front of the hospital where Brooke walked away and Lucas ran his hands over his face. Then I get a call from Lucas saying Brooke collapsed, so I brought the kids back to my house which didn't bother me since they were all tired and feel asleep straight away. This day had been hectic and I just hope tomorrow is much better.
"Hey baby" I hear as Owen walked into the room "Whatcha doing?"
"Oh nothing just checking my emails" I answered looking up at him and smiling
"Cool" He replied sitting beside me on the bed "Shut that thing down and come to bed baby"
"Alright, but only because you asked so nicely" I tease shutting the laptop down and putting it on the side table "Better" I question as I snuggle up to him placing my head on his chest having his arm wrapped around me.
"Much better" He kissed the top of my head and rubbed up and down my arm making a shiver go down my spine. Shit... I think I'm falling for him... Not good. Not good at all.
HPOV
"Do you think Brooke and Lucas seem happy?" I asked Nathan as he placed Lydia into her glass crib provided by the hospital.
"I don't know. I would love to say yes because I love both of them like everyone else, but I saw then having a heated argument earlier when everyone was here. Brooke walked away from him and he ran his hands over his face" Nathan replies sitting on the edge of the bed "They seemed even more in love after the wedding and then everything changed"
"Yeah Brooke was saying she thinks Lucas is cheating on her" I reveal to Nathan who looked shocked.
"Nah I don't think Luke would do that. Not to Brooke. Not after everything they've been through. Not after everything he has fought for" Nathan was shaking his head like it was a stupid accusation.
"She said he leaves in the middle of the day and doesn't come home until 7:00 in the morning or sometimes he doesn't come home at all or he'll go to and help Karen at the cafe and close up for her, but won't be home for hours after and never spends time with his kids anymore and they miss him even Brooke does" I tell Nathan "I don't know how much more Brooke and handle Nate. Yeah so she's a strong one, but Luke has put her through so much and I'm scared she's going to break and no one will be able to put her back together"
"He isn't cheating on her Hales" Nathan sounded like he knew for certain Luke hadn't cheated. Nathan sounded like he knew something.
"What do you know Nate" I sit up a little wincing at the pain a little "Tell me what you know Nathan Scott"
"Lucas isn't cheating Hales" Nathan repeated and I nod waiting for him to continue "Lucas was seeing Raleigh"
"As in ex girlfriend Raleigh?" I brought my hand to my mouth "Why?"
"They have a son together and she got in contact about coming to the wedding and she was going to, but then she had something come up" Nathan tells me "And then after the wedding she asked Lucas to go see her, so he did and found out he has a 4 year old son. Raleigh had Dylan 3 years after Brooke left and then when Brooke came back Lucas didn't feel like she needed to know, but then all this came up and he needed help so he asked me and I agreed since he is my brother and everything"
"Lucas has a son" I was shocked by all of this "Wooow I wonder if Brooke knows"
"Brooke knows now" I tell Haley "Raleigh showed up with Dylan and Brooke collapsed. She'd upstairs room 445"
"Oh god" I grasp "This hit her pretty hard" Nathan nodded "Real hard. I feel for her so much Nate. She's been through hell today. Yeah okay so it's 11:30pm now, but Brooke lost her baby earlier today and then she came to see me have mine and then has a fight with Lucas and then to top it all off she finds out he has a son with someone else and lied about it"
"Yeah I know everything sucks for her, but Brooke's strong. They'll get through this and everything will be okay" Nathan tried to assure me and I nodded agreeing with him, but not believing it.
BPOV
"Brooke" I hear my name being called "Brooke" I hear it again waking up seeing Haley sitting in a wheelchair looking up at me "Hey tigger"
"Hey tutor mom" I replied giving her a small smile "How's Lydia doing?"
"She's fine thanks" Haley answers "But how are you doing Brooke?" Haley asked me and my smile dropped. Great she knew too.
"I'm doing good thanks" I lied and I knew she knew I was lying, but I really was tired of talking about it. About everything.
"No you're not Brooke so stop lying to me and talk to me" Haley pushes me
"Haley he has a son, lied to me about it and snuck around behind my back. What else is there to talk about" I shrug like it's nothing
"Brooke" Haley sounded like she felt sorry for me "You can get through this"
I shrug looking at her and thinking at the same time "I don't know about that Hales, I've tried so many times and I married him and this is what he does. I don't know if we'll ever be able to get through this"
I was being honest with her I don't know if I can get through this and I don't know what I'm meant to do. Was I meant to forgive Lucas again or was this meant to be the end of us for good. My mind is so confused and racing like crazy. I just don't know yet and it bothers me so much.
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