Author Note: I would like to thank everyone for the reviews you guys have been giving me. I love you all.
So yeah I get you guys hate me for doing this to Brucas and I got a review saying all this stuff about what I've done to Brucas and everything and I'm sorry, but I had to out some drama in there otherwise it would get boring. It's getting better though I promise. Anyway I hope you like this chapter. Much love
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BPOV
It has been 4 weeks since I found out about Lucas and his secret child. Raleigh has been dropping Dylan off every Friday until Monday so Lucas can spend time with him which doesn't bother me as much because I will not be jealous of a 6 year old boy. Ally knows about Dylan since Lucas told her the day I came home from the hospital and she didn't take it well and still refuses to believe Dylan is her half brother. I feel for my baby girl. She's mine and I love her and the twins so much and Lucas hurt us all by lying about this.
Flash back
"Ally baby can daddy talk to you for a second" Lucas asks as he walks into Ally's room while she was watching a Disney DVD.
"Okay daddy" Ally sat up in her bean bag as Lucas paused the DVD for her
"So baby girl you know I haven't been around for a little while" Lucas starts
Ally nods her head "You been gone a lot daddy" That statement hurt Ally and I could see that when I stood at the door leaning on the frame with my arms crossed waiting for him to tell her he has a son.
"Yeah I know princess and I'm sorry" Lucas kisses her forehead as Ally sits in his lap "Well daddy has been away to see a little boy called Dylan"
Ally looked at Lucas confused. She tilted her head and then looked pass him at me and ii saw all the confusion on her face "Why daddy?"
"Because you see princess daddy has another child" My heart always sunk when I heard those words come out of his mouth every time. I hate them and I should hate him, but I just can't and I hate that "Dylan is my son baby girl"
"No" Ally shook her little head looking angry. She shook her head violently and I wanted to just break in and take her in my arms to calm her down "We your children daddy"
"Yes princess I know, but Dylan is also my child" Lucas says it again and I feel sick hearing it all the fricking time "Dylan is your brother"
"No" Ally jumped up so fast it knocked Lucas back a little "No I have one brother and that's all" Ally stomped her two little feet as she ran to me at the door "Mommy" She flung her arms around me and buried her face into me "Mommy" I hear her sob.
"Great Luke, just fucking great" I shake my head at him as I pick Ally up and she puts her hands around my neck "Wanna make anyone else, but me and Ally cry?" I then turn and walk away from him "Come on pumpkin everything will be okay"
End of Flashback
"Mommy" Ally came running in through the front door "Mommy" I hear her scream again
"In here pumpkin" I shout back as I hear her little feet come running to me
"Look what I got" She holds up a new bag "Aunt Peyton bought it for me"
"Wow it's very pretty" I smile at her "How was school?"
"Fun" She mutters unzipping her bag "I made this" She brought out a photo frame
"That's real pretty pumpkin" I took it from her "I'll keep it safe for you"
"Okay mommy" Ally kissed my cheek
"How about you take the twins, Rory and Becky in the garden while I talk to Auntie Peyton" Peyton picked the kids up today taking my 8 seater I had in the garage for days like this.
"Okay" Ally swayed her hips away. Yep she was definitely my child
"You didn't have to get her that Peyt"
"Nah it's okay, I wanted to brighten her day" Peyton replies "She seems so down lately and I like her smiling"
"Yeah so do I" I say as I look over at her and the twins playing smiling and laughing "I like that Ally" I nod over to where she is "Not the one Lucas put her into"
"Yeah tell me about it" Peyton agrees "She seems happier today then yesterday"
"Yeah she does, but I think that's because Dylan won't be round for 2 weeks since Raleigh is taking him to go see her parents in Rome" I was a little happy about that too because yeah okay so I haven't left Lucas yet, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt because it does a lot.
"Oh right okay" Peyton nods watching Rebecca "She doesn't seem that happy that her dad has abandoned her"
"Who?" I question following Peyton's gaze "His what?" I realise what she was saying.
"He hasn't seen her since your wedding and that was months ago Brooke" Peyton turns to look at me and I feel for her. She's one of my bestfriends and I love her just as much as Haley.
"Oh god Peyt I'm so sorry" I rub her knee assuring her I was here "I'll sort that out for if you want?"
Peyton shakes her head "I know I should fight for him to see her because she misses him and I know that and yeah I have Owen know and everything and that's all great, but he is her father and I'm being selfish not fighting for him to see her, but he doesn't want to because he has this new baby which is due real soon"
"What an ass" I mutter feeling my blood boil "What do they think they are fucking doing?" I shake my head "They make me feel sick"
"Yeah tell me about it" Peyton gives a dry laugh "Have you spoken to Rachel lately?"
"Nah not really" I shake my head "She sent me a picture of the scan she went to last week"
"Oh how nice of her" Peyton said disgusted at the thought
"Yeah I guess" I nod thinking back to the whole Luke and I situation and how I'm dealing with it might not be the best way, but I don't know what else to do "Luke and I haven't shared a bed in weeks" I reveal to Peyton needing to get it off my chest.
"How many weeks?" Peyton asked giving me a questionable look
"4" I mumble and seeing the worried look she gives me "Don't look at me like that Peyt" I tell her and she tries to change the look, but doesn't succeed "His the one with the love child not me"
"Brooke" Peyton sounds like she's about to give me a speech about how Lucas loves me and he didn't mean to hurt me and blah blah blah. The same speech Nathan, Haley and Owen have given me the past 4 weeks.
"No Peyton" I shake my head at her getting up out of the chair opposite her "Do not give me that speech how Lucas loves me and the bullshit you guys have been trying to tell me" I walk around the chair and into the kitchen knowing Peyton is following me "I'm doing the best I can okay" I say pretending to clean the side trying to get myself busy not wanting to break down about it all and sounding so weak "I haven't kicked him out, his staying in my house even though he lied to me and snuck around. I haven't decided on what I'm going to do about our marriage because I love him" I smash a plate on the floor "For fuck sake" I curse as I bend down on the floor to clean the mess up Peyton helping me "No Peyt it's okay I've got it" I say picking up the broken pieces and placing them on the counter above me.
"Let me help you Brooke" Peyton replies picking pieces up too
"No I've got it" I shake my head feeling the burning in my eyes "I've got it" Tears then feel down my face and I sat on the floor as Peyton pulls me into a hug "I'm trying so hard Peyt" I sob into her feeling her top get wet by my tears "I don't know what else I'm meant to do" I feel as she strokes my hair as holds me tighter "I love him so much, but when I let him in again he breaks my heart all over again and I can't handle anymore heart break"
"I know B" Peyton says softly as we began to rock "Everything will be okay" I stopped crying and pulled away from her getting up and looking down at her.
"No everything will not be okay Peyt" I shake my head violently "Lucas and I might be over for good. How is that okay?" I then look away and walk out of the kitchen.
HPOV
"Have you spoken to Luke lately?" I asked Nathan as he settled Lydia into her swinging chair "Because Brooke hasn't picked up my calls since I went to see her in the hospital 4 weeks ago"
"Yeah I saw Luke yesterday" Nathan tells me walking over to the couch and plonking himself down next to me "He brought Cameron and Dylan to the park, so Lydia and I joined him"
"Oh that's where you guys went"
"Yeah we needed some air anyway and I didn't want to wake you" Nathan rubs my leg
"Oh right okay" I say "How is he?"
"His not too bad, he could be better, but Brooke hasn't forgiven him for lying and sneaking around, but he says that she's being civil" Nathan sounded so upset for his brother "At least she's talking to him I guess"
I nod at him knowing his right. So Brooke didn't chuck him out and leave him. She let him stay and I know it's for the kids even though she loves him so much its unreal. I haven't seen so much love in my life "She loves him a lot and we all know it"
"Yeah I get that Hales I do and I get Brooke has been through a lot that Lucas has put her through and I get she is hurting more and more every time she sees Dylan and Lucas together or when Raleigh brings him around, but Lucas is hurting just as much as Brooke is" Nathan says.
I turned my head and looked at him shaking my head. Was he being serious? Has he not been present these past months "No Nate" I stand up and look down at him "Brooke is hurting way more than Lucas could ever hurt" I then turn and go to walk away.
"Hales where you going?" Nathan asks as he gets up and follows me "Haley stop"
"You and Lucas make me laugh Nathan" I stop and turn to face him "You will never understand how much Brooke is hurting and maybe I don't either because you haven't put me through what Lucas has put her through" I shrug my shoulders "So you can defend Lucas all you like, but I know you know that Lucas is in the wrong and always has been"
"I'm not defending him Hales, I was just saying" Nathan tries to assure me
"If that's what you want to believe then okay believe that" I then walked into our room shutting the door behind me.
RPOV
"Jake" I shout through the house as I waddle in from shopping "Jake"
"Yes babe" Jake says as he walked through the kitchen and to me at the front door
"Take these please" Jake nods and picks up the bags giving me a small kiss before turning around and taking them into the kitchen for me "I bought this for Austin" I held up a blue and white all in one with tigger written down one arm. Jake and I found out the sex of our baby last week and I was so excited I went out and bought everything we needed and now I'm just buying bits and bobs here and there and then yesterday we agreed on Austin.
"That's so cute baby" Jake smiled at me "I ordered the cot today and it should come within 2 weeks and we've decided on blue and green for his room right?"
I nod at him holding up another thing for him "And I bought this too" Jake took the blanket from me "Yeah it has Austin written on it. I had it made today"
"Your awesome you know that right" Jake brings me into kiss him "I love you"
"I love you too baby" I whisper back as I fold up the blanket Jake gives back to me and put it back in the bag.
LPOV
"I love her Raleigh" I say as we sit on the bench "So much"
"I know you do. I can see it in your eyes Luke" She rubs my back I guess trying to assure me things will be okay again.
"Why doesn't she know that?" I question more to myself then to her "I've given her everything I can. My heart and soul. We've got three kids together and we lost one and I don't know what else to do"
"Here's a suggestion" Raleigh looks at me and I turn to face her "You've got to stop lying to her Luke. You married her for a reason. You said vows that you shouldn't break and lying to her is something you shouldn't do. Trust is the main thing Lucas and if Brooke can't trust you then it won't work"
Okay so maybe Raleigh has made a massive point there. If Brooke can't trust me then what we have and what where doing will not work and I want it to work. I love My Pretty Girl too much for me to make it work. I marry Brooke for a reason, I married her because she is the only girl I have ever truly loved, she is the only girl I want to spend the rest of my life with, she is the only girl who has made me truly happy and she is the only girl that looks at me the way she does "Your right" I say looking at Dylan playing on the jungle gym "Your right I need to stop lying to her" I say standing up getting a confused look from Raleigh.
"Luke where you going?" Raleigh asks standing up also "Luke"
"I need to fix this Raleigh" I reply walking away from her "I need to fix my marriage. I need Brooke to know how sorry I am. I need for her to listen to me" I then turn and run to my car.
I need Brooke to listen. I need her to forgive me. I need her to look at me the way she did when we first got together back in high school. I need Brooke to love me like she used to. I need our family back the way we created it. I need Brooke want me like I want her again. I just need my Pretty girl back and I won't stop until I get her back.
BPOV
"Brooke" I hear my name being called "Brooke baby where are you?" I'm sitting on the hammock in the garden when I see Lucas walk through the sliding doors "There you are"
"Here I am" I say sarcastically as I look back down at my book. Yep I started reading when I found out Lucas had a son and I came out of the hospital. At the moment I'm reading The Hunger Games since apparently the film is meant to be really good.
"I've been trying to call you" Lucas tells me which I know since I've been avoiding them.
"Yeah I know" I admit not looking at him "And I guess you didn't get the message"
"You haven't answered my text messages either" Lucas ignores my last comment
"Nope that I haven't sweet heart" I look up at him and give me a smirk then I sip on my glass of red wine "Was there something you wanted?"
"I need to talk to you"
"Talk away"
"I miss you Brooke" I hear him state firstly
"You see me everyday Luke, there's nothing to miss" I shrug at him and see the frustration in his eyes, so I say nothing more.
"No Brooke you don't get it" Lucas throws his hands in the air walking towards me a little more "I miss the old Brooke. I miss the way you used to touch me, talk to me, kiss me, and the way you look at me. I miss that Brooke" Lucas stops for a moment and I think he was trying to read my reaction from the expression on my face, but when I said nothing he carried on talking "I need you Brooke"
"Lucas" I whisper feeling my throat getting dry and it making it harder to swallow. The cockiness I had towards him quickly left me and I felt vulnerable again. Damn Lucas and the wall he crumbles around me "Please don't"
"I need you Brooke" Lucas says again walking closer to me "I need you to kiss me the way you used to, to love me the way you used to, to touch me the way you used to. Brooke I just need and want My Pretty Girl back"
"I do love you Luke. I love you so damn much that it's hurting me to feel like this. It's hurting me to pretend every weekend that it doesn't hurt to see you and Dylan in my house having fun knowing his not my son and never will be. You don't get how much it hurts for me to feel the way I do" I tell him feeling the tears burning in my eyes not wanting them to fall, but I know they will "I want you so bad Luke, but I'm scared"
"I haven't got any more lies Brooke" He tells me and I look down feeling a tear roll down my cheek "I've told you everything. Dylan is my son, Raleigh is just a friend, I haven't heard from Britney since our wedding and I don't plan on it either and that's it. Nothing else. No more lies ever" I can hear the truth in that behind the cracks in his voice. I just feel so tired of all the fighting and the lying and me finding out by someone else or somehow else.
"I love you Luke" I didn't know what else to say. I just know I love him too damn much to let me trail out of my life for good "I just want us again"
"I do too baby girl" I stood up and he took my hand holding my chin up and kissing me lightly on the lips "I don't want to lose you Brooke"
"Then stop lying to me Luke and we'll be okay" I state looking away from him "The kids are playing upstairs. I ordered a pizza it should be here soon" I tell him walking pass him and into the living room.
"Are we okay now then Brooke?" Lucas asked following me
I stop for a second and turn to look at him as he stopped too "I think you know the answer to that Luke. I think the moment I found out about Dylan and Raleigh you knew we would never be the same again, but as of right now where okay, not the same, but okay"
Lucas nodded at me "I can work with that"
I gave him a small smile turning around and walking through the living room and up the stairs when the door bell rang "Luke will you get that, it should be the pizza. I'm coming with the money" I went and got the moment running down the stairs "How much is tha..." I froze on the last step looking at the person standing in the door frame.
"Hello Brooke" The person spoke and my heart stopped. I haven't seen him in months nor have I heard from him and now his standing in my door frame smiling back at me. His eyes glistening from the light. I stopped the thoughts running through my head and I stepped from the last step.
"Julian" I then smiled and jumped into his arms "I missed you"
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