Alex felt safe with the Cullen's, and although she still missed her mother terribly and although there was still an overpowering hole in her heart that her mother used to fill Alex felt as if she belonged with the Cullen's. That she had always belonged with them. They were her family, a family in which loved and cared for her. Alaska was home to her now, the differences to New York she found were a nice change. From skyscrapers to mountains that reached towards the sky with the determination of gods. From the foggy polluted skies that hung over the city to fresh air that cleansed anything it brushed against. There were forests filled with animals that talked all through the day and well into the night, it was the most beautiful place Alex had ever been. Although that wasn't saying much considering she had never even left New York before the untimely death of her mother. This was her home, and Alex loved every rock, creak and tree that littered the landscape, she loved the snow-covered mountains and the freshness of the air that seemed to fall from them. This was where she belonged. But that was all about to change.

Alex's was shocked to say the least, Carlisle couldn't mean what he just said, it was all a joke just some family fun. Right? "W-what did you just say?" She asked her voice quivering as she started to play with the hem of her shirt, trying to stay as calm and collected as possible. Carlisle frowned at her looking around at the others in the room, everyone had gathered for a special announcement but it seemed as if Alex was the only one shocked by it all.

"We're moving" Carlisle repeated. "To Forks, it's a small town in Washington"

Alex shook her head in disbelief. "No way! We can't move!" she argued. "We have no reason to leave!" to say she was angry was an understatement, Alex was infuriated she had already moved from one side of the country to the other. She had only been in Alaska a few years and now she was expected to pack up and leave just like that?

"Alex, I know it's sudden" Esme reasoned moving to stand next to her adoptive daughter. "But it's not as bad as it seems." Alex shook her head, clenching her fists at her sides. She didn't want to leave; they couldn't make her. She liked it here too much to just pack up and go. "Alex we will still be together, that is what's important" Esme concluded. Alex couldn't argue with that, as long as she had her family she would be okay. But that didn't make the situation any less difficult in the present moment.

"When do we leave?" she breathed out.

"A month." Carlisle replied. "Not long, but long enough to get everything packed." Alex nodded sucking in a deep breath and moving over to sit on the couch between Alice and Rose.

"Okay" she nodded. "Whatever" folding her arms she leaned back in her seat listening to the rest pf the family discussing the move.

"Where will we be living exactly?" Rose questioned. "Because if I have to live with every human in town- "

"We've been building a house just outside the town border, just like last time" Carlisle explained.

"The same house?" Edward questioned. "There is no way it can still be- "

"We have built a new house." Esme interrupted. "We've been planning this move for quite some time." She explained.

Alex knew the family had lived there before she and Jasper had come into the picture. Back in the 40's is the last time the Cullen Clan lived in forks before coming to Alaska. When there were five instead of seven. Craning her neck slightly Alex glanced at the Texan vampire seated just across the room, surprised to find he was already watching her their eyes locking in a moment pure serenity. A hot blush painted itself onto her face as she quickly took her eyes off his. Sinking even further into the coach. Closing her eyes Alex pictured that suspenseful moment in her mind, only being broken away at the sound of Edwards voice.

"Alice?" he said. "What do you see?" Jolting up Alex sat straight and looked beside her watching Alice stare off into space. "Alice?" Edward tried again. "What do you see?" Shaking her head Alice broke away from her entranced state and smiled.

"We are going to love Forks." She sang giddily before jumping from her seat and skipping out of the room. Everyone sat silently for a few moments before Emmet started laughing.

"Well, if that doesn't provide motivation I don't know what does." He laughed, Rosalie shaking her head in embarrassment. Sighing Alex got up and left the room. She needed to think.

The sun had gone to bed and no light but that of the moon filtered through the trees painting the snow covered floor in its blue rays. A soul crushing silence had washed itself over the forest, the only sound to be heard was the crunching of boots in the snow as Alex wandered, arms wrapped around herself to keep warm, through the night time forest. She hadn't told anyone where she was going or when she would come back, everyone was oblivious to her activities. Unless Alice had seen it and told the others. But somehow Alex doubted she would. Alice was smart enough to know that Alex needed time alone, and she knew she was being over dramatic but when it came to situations like this, situations that caused Alex to go into an emotional drive. She was never good at self-control.

Alex had neglected to grab a coat on the way out of the house and therefore had only her own arms to warm her, the clothes she wore no protection against the cold. Even so, she continued on, trudging through the moonlit forest. Alex wasn't used to handling her problems with anyone but herself. When she lived in New York she would always find herself walking through dimly lit streets in the early hours of the morning to clear her head. And although her mother would try to help Alex never found her advice useful. She loved her mother to pieces but when it came to emotional support Alex was better off alone. She could smell everything, the trees, the snow, the blood. The forest was full of animals to feed off, and even though it tempted her Alex refused to feed. Even though she had been living with the Cullen's for five years the difficulty of drinking from and animal instead of a human was still present. At first Alex was unable to keep the blood down, her body not used to anything but the blood of a human. And sometimes she still struggled with it, regurgitating every drop of animal blood in her stomach. No one knew of course, she didn't want anyone to worry, especially not Esme.

Alex's phone vibrated in her pocket breaking her away from her mind and back into a painful reality. Jumping at the sudden ping radiating from her pocket. There was a text from Alice.

Alice: You need to get home. Now.

Alex: No.

Alice: Esme is worried.

Alex: You shouldn't have told anyone I was gone.

Alice: I didn't. Everyone has been looking for you

Alex: Tell them to stop

Alice: Jasper and Rose are already out looking for you

Alex: What? Why?

Alice: We are worried

Alex: Fine…I'll be home soon

Placing her phone back in her pocket and wrapping her arms securely around her middle Alex turned to go home. A frightened gasp escaped her lips when she turned and crashed into something, or rather someone. Stepping back Alex looked up into the eyes of Jasper, a brief glimpse of the last time they locked eyes flashing before her. Thank goodness it was dark; Jasper would be unable to see the embarrassed blush that painted her cheeks. "Jasper?" she breathed.

"You shouldn't be out here." He calmly stated.

Alex scoffed, rubbing her arms to keep herself warm. "Like you care" She chuckled, pushing herself past the blonde vampire in front of her.

"Why would you say that?" Alex stopped at his comment, turning back to glare at him. Jasper only stood and watched her intently.

"Why wouldn't I say that Jasper" She replied in a way that would challenge the cold snow that lay on the ground. "You've never cared before."

"Why would you say that?"

Yet again Alex scoffed at his comment and couldn't help the laugh that broke past her chapped lips. "Because you hate me" she said. "Don't try to deny it, you put effort into avoiding me"

"Alex-" he tried to reason but was once again cut off by the now angered Alex.

"Would you just leave me alone!" she snapped. "God, just leave." She glared at Jasper challenging him. She wanted him to say something, anything. But instead he took her advice and left, in the snap of a finger he was gone. And Alex was left alone once more. Tears stinging at her eyes, ashamed at what she had just done.

All she wanted was for Jasper to trust her, to let her in like he did with the rest of the family. And now she was pushing him away.

"Dammit" she scolded herself, turning and walking back to the house.

As soon as she stepped door through the door Alex was engulfed in the arms of her adoptive mother. Without hesitation Alex welcomed the hug crying into Esme's shoulder. "Alex, I've been worried" Esme whispered into her hair. "Are you alright." Alex shook her head, continuing to cry. "Is it about the move?" Esme questioned. Alex shook her head.

"I said something stupid." Alex cried. "I pushed him away." Esme nodded in understanding and Alex knew she understood who she was talking about. "I feel so stupid"

"Alex, I am sure it's fine." Alex shook her head. "Sweetheart, go to bed. Sleep on it and don't worry." Esme cooed rubbing circles on Alex's back.

"I'm sorry for worrying you." Alex sniffled pulling away to look Esme in the eye. "I really am."

Esme smiled at her adoptive daughter, bringing her into another tight hug. "I know, everything is going to be okay." She whispered.

"I promise."