At the crack of dawn Diana woke up and stretched out. She got up and rubbed her head yawning before she got up and set out her scrubs. A shower and quick breakfast with a kiss to her cat sent her on her way.

The bus was a chore and as usual no seats.

Once at the hospital she began emptying bed pans, caring for the infirm, and helping the nurses with non medical tasks. One old man was shakily laying in bed. He called out her name several times though she wasn't able to get anything more from him. One of the nurses explained that the old man was dying and though Diana was his daughter. She was told to go about her business and ignore him.

She finished her business and then set by the old man's bed talking to him holding his hand and basically giving a peaceful presence as he died. His last word to her was " Angel " and Diana had been forced to go to the loo and dry her eyes before she got back to work taking care of people. At lunch she sat with some of the other medical staff and listened rather wistfully to them.

" My little Brian is crawling already! Three months ahead of schedule!"
" Then my husband said ' well if that's the way you feel about my shopping.."
" My boyfriend and I are talking about moving in together and we've been.."
" Having a girls night out.."
" He asked for my phone number..."
" Diana?"
Diana started slightly. She glanced around setting her sandwich down. " I'm sorry? "

" I was just saying my sister getting ready to get married and my brother needs a date."

Diana blushed " Uh well...depending on the day..."

" My sister Alison can go." Another aide said smoothly giving Diana a small smirk.
" She can buy whatever type of dress your sister needs for her wedding."

They were looking at her. Diana crumbled up her wrappings. " Thank you. I wouldn't be able to make it anyway. Please excuse me."

As she made her way to the trash she heard the nurse say " My brother's a real hunk but you know how it is too many women too much drama..."

Diana nibbled on her lip sitting down to go over the charts.

Is this really my life? She wondered. Nothing will ever happen to me and I'm going to die alone with no one but my cat to miss me assuming I outlive him. She leaned on her hand wistfully her eyes going to two crows sitting on a wire. Wouldn't it be nice to belong with someone ? To have sweaty rolling around in the middle of the day sex? Maybe babies? A life that wasn't a life alone? Let's face it since she was laying it all out...an exciting life?

The crows let out sharp cries and flew off to do whatever it was crows did.

Diana stared at the empty place for a moment then sighed leaning over her chart to get back to work.