AN: I have re-posted this chapter after realizing that I made a grave mistake with making Lori hurt Lena physically. As ever, I listen to what my readers have to say to try and help me steer this story in the right direction. And as asked for this very chapter, I have re-done it and found a way around the things that were previously done.
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Whilst at lunch, Lori was sat reading a book, 'Shakespeare's sonnets.' She loved English class, and recently after reading King Lear Lori decided that she would start reading even more books. The page turned Lori read a particular sonnet that seemed to speak to her in a way.
Sonnet 116.
"Let me not the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with remover to remove.
O no! It is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me prov'd,
I never writ, nor no man ever lov'd."
Lori chewed on a fork full of chicken pie, and briefly reflected on the sonnet itself. She guessed that it was about love and how lovers came to find each other on their own accord, but then she thought about Lena and Robert when they first started out. They understood each other. Robert knew her background but he never used it against her. They had true love and understanding from the day they had eyes on each other.
She then thought about Lena and Kara.
Kara lied about who she really was to Lena for years and yet here they were in love, but the trouble was wherever Kara was trouble always followed. She shook off her thoughts with a simple rationalization that not everyone is perfect.
The little Luthor was shook abruptly out of her thoughts when her book was ripped from her hands. Her heart was in her stomach. She stood up, and in front of her was her enemy.
Josie Smythe.
"You just don't leave alone do you?" Lori hissed at her.
Josie held the book above her head, out of Lori's reach, her hair was tied up in a bun, while her shirt was tucked in. At one point Lori really liked this girl, but now she knew better than to trust feelings.
Lori snarled, "Screw you."
Josie laughed, "Luthor, ever the nerd."
"It's called wanting a real education. Educating myself on real things that actually matter." Lori retorted.
"Shakespeare?!" Smyth laughed in her face, "And what can a dead guy teach you?"
"The beauty of words, and imagination. You wouldn't have a clue because you spend most of your time choosing to bully people. What do you get out of this Josie? This isn't cool, it's not clever, it's just mean." Lori snapped.
"Seriously bookworm, you're not helping yourself." Josie sneered at her,
"Get your head out of your ass and stop being a spoiled brat."
"Says the girl with a billionaire mother." Josie laughed.
"Money doesn't matter. It never has to me. I could be in a very poor family and still be grateful for everything that I have." Lori snapped as a group began forming around them. She sighed heavily.
"Money will never be a problem for you. You have mommy and...Kara to pick up the pieces and give you all the money that you want." Josie was being so smug that it was pissing Lori off so much.
Lori adjusted the glasses on her face, "Again, my mom provides me with what I need, and never anything more."
"Whatever." Josie sneered, before pushing Lori onto the table, "Don't cross me. Don't even backchat me. I have more dirt on you than you think and I could tell your grandma everything that I know."
Lori frowned, "What could you possibly have on me?"
Josie let her go, "Catch you later nerd." She said, throwing her book back at her.
Lori straightened her back, "Hey Josie...Your mom, she is..." The girl was winding Josie up on purpose. She was happy it was having an effect as a smirk graced her features.
"My mom is what?!" Josie sneered, marching back over to Lori, "Go on, tell me."
"Alright." Lori smirked as she leaned in to her enemy. There was a moment of silence before Lori punched Josie in the face. Lori then grabbed her collar, pulling her right up to her face, "Your mom raised a spoiled brat. If I was spoiled, I wouldn't be as humbled as I am to have the pocket money I get every month, to have the mother I have and most importantly I wouldn't feel the need to go around bullying vulnerable people. Believe me, that is a thing only truly spoiled brats do because you think that you are better than everyone else. Me?" She laughed, "I see everyone as an individual. Their own person. And Josie, if you bully anyone on my turf and I catch you, you better pray that your mommy has medical insurance."
Josie swallowed the lump in her throat as Lori let her go.
"Oh and Josie, one more thing." Lori sneered, before punching her, "That's for bullying me. From today, you don't bully anyone ever again. Have a nice day."
"This so isn't over." Josie sneered, holding back tears. She then walked away.
Lori shook her fist heavily, and she held back tears. She didn't like doing that at all. Lori knew she wasn't the person who would normally go around hurting people. But she knew that Josie truly asked for it.
On her way back home, Lori decided to take the back roads home. It was Lena's turn to look after her today, but for some reason she refused to get a lift from her very concerned mother.
The strap of her bag was pulled tighter over her shoulder as she walked. Up above the clouds began to swell, and she knew that there was a storm coming. The air was heavy and Lori did not feel very good about herself. She actually harmed someone today, physically.
Yes, she may have asked for it but that didn't make the teen feel any better about herself.
About half an hour into her journey on foot she heard great, loud rumbles of thunder and then the rain hit. The ground that was saturated now appeared to be drowning as all of the water that fell from the sky ended up in the cracks and it began to overflow once it totally filled them.
Lori ended up soaking wet, not just by the rain, but also the surface water that was sprayed by cars passing by her. She wanted so badly to just jump in the air and fly but knew if she did that, it would be a great risk to her own safety.
She pulled her denim jacket around herself as she began to get cooler from the rain that was beating down on her. Colder and colder she grew and that's when she began to think. She began to question her whole life.
What if National City's Supergirl wasn't biologically her mother? Would that make her feel better about herself?
If she never knew the truth about her own biology, would she have the dark Luthor side that Lena has mentioned a few times before?
The last thought struck like a lightning bolt above her head.
Would she truly be able to kill and have no mercy should she be pushed to it?
The fist that she used to hit Josie with earlier opened and closed as she thought of such things.
She was startled out of her day-dream when a car honked it's horn at her.
"Lori!" Lena shouted out of the window. Rain battered the car making it hard for Lena to hear anything. She knew Lori could hear everything clearly and so she found it strange when Lori just carried on walking, ignoring her.
Lena frowned heavily with concern and followed Lori in the car at a steady speed, "Honey, what's wrong? Why won't you stop walking? Lori, talk to me."
Her words fell on deaf ears as Lori continued to walk, clenching her bag straps until her knuckles turned white. The worried mom kept on following her daughter in the car, but kept quiet, examining he daughter's behaviour.
"Lori, get in the car please honey." Lena asked her using the softest voice that she could muster while trying not to make her concern sound too dominant.
Lena gave up. She stopped the car, parking it in the side of the road. She watched Lori take a few more steps before deciding to get out and follow her by foot.
Eventually Lena caught up and was soaking wet by the rain by the time she reached her daughter.
Lena grabbed the girl's arm, making her stop in her walk.
"Lori. Tell me what's up please." Lena practically begged.
Finally, Lori turned around and as she did, Lena took her hand away from her arm, "What's wrong?"
"You don't get to ask me that." Lori snapped out of the blue. Her walls were up and Lena could see it.
"You don't get to ask me anything." Lori carried on, "You aren't my mother, so don't ask me anything."
Lena did not like her attitude at all, "I know Kara and I told you to embrace your powers young lady but that does not give you the right to disrespect me. Not ever." This was the first time in years that Lena had actually used her stern tone on Lori but she had every right to and she knew it.
"Get your ass in the car now or you're grounded." Lena sneered, "You have five seconds."
"Or what Lena?!" Lori snapped at her, before laughing in her face, "You don't have any hold over me at all so get lost!"
"I have raised you for the past fourteen years, you do not ever! Get to talk to me like that." Lena sneered, "Now get in the God damned car!"
Lori scoffed, "Call my mother."
"You're such a spoiled brat." Lena snarled at her, "I give you everything, I have given you everything and this is how you treat me."
"It's funny, that's what I called Josie right before my fist slipped and hit her face earlier."Lori said smugly, "The difference is, she's spoiled and I'm not. You're just a Luthor and no one likes you."
"You disrespectful cow." Lena said to her. Her voice shook as she spoke, she was hurt and she felt it. She never imagined that Lori would turn on her. Not like this.
"I'm only doing what you did to me that night. Or don't you remember because you were too drunk?!" Lori snapped. She was so done with hurt, now she was ready for the anger, little did she know that she would regret it after.
She began walking in a field, and Lena followed her. She followed because she was worried, she didn't want Lori to get hurt despite everything that she was saying to hurt in ways that her daughter could never imagine.
"Don't bother following me!" Lori growled at Lena.
Mud began to climb it's way up both of their legs, the further down the field that they walked. The rain had slowed ever so slightly but the lightning kept on striking.
"I get it Lori. I hurt you and this is you getting back at me. I get it and I'm sorry. You know I am." Lena gasped as tears began to fall down her cheeks, "Just please come home and we can talk about everything and we can find a way around it."
Lori was not budging. She did stop walking however.
Lena looked Lori in the eye as she turned to face her, "Lori, I love you so much and you know I do."
"You don't strangle your own kid! Or is that just a Luthor thing?"
Lena glared at her once more, "You know I didn't mean that."
"There must have been some truth behind those actions!" Lori snapped, "Just leave me alone before one of us gets hurt."
"And where are you going?"
"Does it matter Lena?"
"It's mom to you." Lena sneered.
Lori began to walk away again, before her anger got the better of her. She super-sped straight back up to Lena and got in her face, "You are not my mother! You're not worth being my mother!" She snapped.
Lena was so stunned that she couldn't understand what just happened. Just as she thought Lori was done, a fresh wave of anger overcame her.
"I won't kill you." Lori sneered, "Today I hit someone that I really didn't like. On my way home I began questioning my own pathetic life and you know what I realized? I am just as much a Luthor as I am a Super but the only problem is, you're the runt of the litter. I'm half human-half God, while you...You're half a Luthor."
At that, the young Kryptonian jumped into the sky, leaving Lena on her own. Lena felt so hurt that in that moment, she didn't know if she could forgive Lori at all.
On the other side, Lori was her daughter and she knew it. She knew that Lori just needed time and space.
Later that evening, after taking a nap, Lena woke up at 7pm. It was still raining outside, with gail-force winds. It took a moment for the evening's events to come back to her. The Luthor sat on the side of the bed with her head in her hands.
Kara walked in and sat beside Lena dressed in her civilian clothes, "She came to see me. Lori told me what happened. She regrets every single word. Lori had a lot going on beneath the surface that none of us picked up on. You just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time..."
"She said some awful things to me Kara." The Luthor gasped, now shaking, "Really terrible things. I never knew how much she was hurting and then-"
"She lashed out, you were her target because you were the only one in front of her that she could let it out on. She was walking home because she was going to let off a hell of a lot of pent-up emotion." Kara sighed, "That's not an excuse for what she said to you."
"Can you look after her for a while? At least until I'm ready to have her on my own again. Some of the things she said were right. I'm not her mother, I really am a Luthor. She's a God, like you and I'm not. I'm just a stupid-"
"No Lena, no. Whatever she said to you wasn't true. You are better than whatever she called you, you know that." Kara said with urgency in her voice, "She was just so angry, and like I said. Wrong place, wrong time."
"Can you leave me alone for a little while please?" Lena asked Kara softly.
"Sure, take all the time you need." Kara smiled shyly. She kissed Lena on the cheek gently. Lena grabbed Kara's wrist and pulled her in to a passionate kiss. Kara knelt on the bed beside Lena and put her hands on her cheeks as she pulled the Luthor closer to her.
"Where is Lori now?" Lena asked Kara.
"She's in the lounge...You could talk to her while I'm here if you want." Kara said softly.
Lena merely nodded slowly, "If you could please."
Kara slowly let go of her hand before going to get Lori.
Lena composed herself, and turned when Lori walked in. The teen looked exhausted as she walked in. She was nervous, Lena could tell with how the teen held herself. She was closed in on herself.
Kara stood behind Lori as she walked in and gently put her hands on her shoulders, "Your mom just wants to talk to you, okay?"
The older Luthor took a deep breath, "Honey, look-"
"I said some mean things to you. Really mean things. I wish to Rao that I could take them back because I didn't mean any of it." Lori choked back tears.
Lena sighed heavily. She climbed to her feet and walked over to her broken daughter, "What you said to me Lori really hurt. You're still grounded, but after that outburst we know that there is a lot going on, on the inside and we are going to work together to make it better."
"I really am sorry mom." Lori gasped, leaping forward to hug Lena.
Lena wrapped her arms around her, "I know you are honey, I know and we will work on it together. Me, you and Kara. We are all a family, and we can just talk. If you even want we can get you some counselling to help with the grief…"
"I still have nightmares about everything. I can't even remember the last time I slept properly." Lori spoke into Lena's shoulder. Both Kara and Lena locked eyes with each other. They were glad that their daughter was now talking, they just hated that the brunt of her anger was directed at Lena herself. Lori didn't mean it, Lena knew it, she just wished she had known sooner how much Lori had going on beneath the surface.
"You're my mom and I never want you to hate me for the things I've said to you. You're not like the other Luthor's in the family. You're kind and selfless."
Lena held Lori tighter as she felt a lump forming in her throat, "I know you didn't mean any of it honey, I know. You're forgiven okay? We can move past this. It'll all be okay."
Kara watched the two and felt something pinch inside of her. She had never been prouder of Lena. The fact that her, Lena and Lori were now a proper family, it surprised her everyday. Mostly, she couldn't believe what a remarkable young girl Lena had raised. Deep down, she wished that she could have been there for all of those firsts but that was on her because she chose not to be there.
It got to 11pm and both Lori and Lena fell asleep on the sofa after dinner. Lena had a protective arm around Lori while Lori was perfectly snuggled into her mother's front.
As Kara finished her late night supper, she watched the two on the sofa and wondered if both Lori and Lena did that while she was growing up. She sighed contently as she watched the pair sleep. Eventually, she stood up and walked over to the kitchen and deposited her plate into the sink. She then returned to the sofa and carried both Lori and Lena to bed, tucking them in. She then went to the sofa herself, and watched some TV before finally going to sleep herself.
