I have a red Beta named Vincent.

Gamzee ran as fast as he could away from the book store, the world kept spinning and he kept running. The words the lady had said to him rang through his head like bells in a church and he was the sinner, driven away by the sound. He didn't mean to hurt Tavros like that, he swore. He didn't mean it…he didn't mean it.

Gamzee finally slowed when he came to a very large and very graffitied abandoned building. The gang met here. Gamzee though, was the only one who actually lived there. Everyone was older and lived with a girl, or younger and still lived with their parents, or a foster parent.

The lanky adolescent wandered into the building, his chest heaving in and out, he didn't realize until now that he had actually run that whole way. May be he was high. No he felt too much to be high. Gamzee shook his swirling head and walked through the messy area. Broken bottles, needle, cigarette butts, the smell of sick, the smell of lost. This was a horrible place. Gamzee knew it. That's why he told no one where he had hidden his space.

He stood in front of an air vent for a long while, staring at it, just looking at the graffiti around it. His eyes traveled around the colors, he didn't really care about what it was, and he just liked the colors. Finally he knelt down and crawled through the air vent.

Gamzee came out on the other side after a while, into a hidden room, more like a closet, but it was home. Little Christmas lights hung from the ceiling and a small mattress was shoved against the wall. A small bowl with a red beta fish sat by his bed, next to it sat a small bottle of fish food and a water purification serum. Gamzee sat on the mattress and stared down at the fish," hi motherfucker. How are you? Good? That's good man…yeah…my day hasn't been the best…I was really stupid ya know? I did something stupider than I normally do…what's that man? Go sober? You know I can't do that man…I'm too dependent on that shit…for him? Na man…he doesn't want to see me again…what? I'm not…what? No! Dammit motherfucker! NO! Shut up!...NO SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU BITCH!" Gamzee yelled at the tattered red beta in the bowl.

Rage flashed through Gamzee's eyes and he sunk his hand into the bowl and yanked the beta from the water, he held it in his hands. He watched it flop around and gasp for air," you like that motherfucker? You like that?" Gamzee yelled at the poor fish.

His eyes widened when he realized what he was doing. He quickly put the fish back in its bowl. Tears rolled down his cheeks as he watched the fish swim and hide behind the small fake plant in the bowl," I'm sorry bro….I'm sorry fish bro…." Gamzee picked the bowl up and hugged it close," sorry fish bro….so sorry…." That's when a thought hit Gamzee, what he had just done to the fish was what he did to Tavros. Hold him above the water and watch him gasp for air. In fact. He was still gasping for air. Gamzee looked down into the bowl at the fish and stood. He grabbed the fish food and the water purification serum and left his home.

He walked for a long time, holding the bowl tightly, making sure not to much water sloshed out of it as he walked. Gamzee walked wearily down the street until he finally got to Tavros' apartment. It was dark when he got there. He carefully set the bowl down, along with the fish food and serum. He pulled a piece of paper from his pocket and pressed it to the wall; he then retrieved a pen from his hair and scribbled on the paper.

Once he was done, he set the paper down by the fish and knocked on Tavros' door. Gamzee then turned and ran from the apartment as Tavros opened the door.

"Hello?" Tavros called from his door. The small teen looked around with creased eyebrows. He then looked down and gasped," what the….?" He knelt and picked up the bowl, he held it to the light to see what was in it. His face softened when he saw the fish," hi buddy…you lost?" He giggled and smiled at the fish. He knelt down again and gathered the paper and the fish care supplies from his doorstep.

Tavros walked back in, shutting the door behind him. He set the bowl on the coffee table and sat on his couch," your name is….Rufio….yeah…hi Rufio. How are you?" Tavros said smiling down at the bowl. The fish responded by swimming around the bowl, nibbling at the colorful rocks at the bottom.

Giggling Tavros looked at the paper that was left with the fish:

Dear Tavros,

Hey man. Yeah I doubt you actually wanted to talk in person, so I'm here leavin you a note. This is the note. But I bet you noticed that because you're readin it. Anyways I just wanted to say sorry bro. Sorry for doin what I did. I didn't know what else to do. If the gang found out I was. Gay. Theyd have my head. But yeah. That's what I am. Im gay and Im sorry I dragged you down with me. I shouldn't do that inless I know what you like. You seemd to like it though bro. So I don't know. I came to the book store today to talk to you about it. I shoulve just talke to you about it when it happened. I didn't though. Im sorry. Im an idiot an my brains all foggy. Actualy this is the first letter Ive written in my entire life. An its to you Tavros. So can ya forgive me? Please? If you do. Can you meet me tomarrow at the city park below the bridge on the far side of the park. You know, the really cool one, that you can hardly see under the bottom? That bridge. Ill make it up to you ok? Ill make up to you everythin Ive done. Gotten you beat up. Left you haging. An. I promise Ill make up to you for everything I mite do ever ok? Cuz I care about you ok? A lot. Like. A lot a lot. So yeah. Well talk about that tomarrow. If you come. Oh come around noon ok?

Love,

Gamzee