Will's POV
… the new year after my coming-out. I had already kissed Neil a few month prior and we had laughed it out, remaining good friends. After that I had let things cool off. I'm not an Adonis and guys weren't queuing up for me. There were the five or six, or more, depending, highly drunk ones that would come up with such dirty proposals I just had to laugh. But the great men, the interesting ones, funny, handsome… Those didn't see me, as if I was transparent. At most, some of them would chat and find out I didn't have much to say… Anyway, that night, Rafe, Mom and I headed for the Salem's New Year's Eve Party down at the town hall. Dad was already there and the tension instantly built up, especially between him and Rafe who can't stand him. I slipped away and as I did so walking backward, I bumped in someone. Who was talking to Brian, whom I knew by sight. The other guy was stunning (Well he was to me at the time. I hadn't met Sonny yet. He's eclipsing every other guy. And he's here, watching me with eyes full of love, gently pressing my hand and I dream of cuddling with him and forget everything, but he's right I have to explain.) He said his name was Jim and shook hands. When I took his hand, he pulled me to him and asked if I wanted to dance. I couldn't believe it. He seemed confident and a nice guy. He kept whispering funny stuff all along until the song stopped, then he took me to the bar and we talked. He was still holding my hand and I though that, after all, I had to give things a try one day. Fun times for a few days with such a cool man, no commitment was needed. So, I flirted back a little. Jim got exited and I thought, wow ! I'm attractive at last. We were laughing and talking and I didn't notice at first he had cornered me to the back door. We stepped out and he kissed me without warning and began caressing my back and groping and it was going way too fast for me. I pushed him away and tried to explain it was all brand new for me and he snickered, then he did it again. My muscles were unresponsive, I couldn't shake him off. After a while, he got frustrated and yelled "Let yourself go, damn it! You'll have to go through it eventually! I need at least a quickie blowjob right now. There's no one around!" This horrified me in finding my strength back and I slapped his arm and bit him. He howled and started to growl "Little shit! I just want to have five minutes of fun and then I'll let you go your way. Were you expecting grand romantic declarations ?" My chest hurt when I heard that and I was weeping and mumbling as I was justifying myself and the guy mocked me for being too incomprehensible. All of a sudden,his face froze and I saw my dad behind him, holding his shoulders. He hissed "If you touch one of my son's hair again, you are in big troubles, you hear me ?" I had never seen him like that and he frightened me. Apparently Jim was afraid too. He ducked out. I quickly went inside so my father wouldn't feel like making a scene in front of everyone.
Even now, I don't tell Sonny everything. I'm too ashamed. I don't tell him Brian's despising smile. Nor my insecurities about my appearance. Nor how much I cried afterwards and how I swore, next time I would wait to know the guy and be sure of his values before I tried again. Like I did one night, sitting next to Sonny on a bench. Chad had just left and Sonny had proven himself a genuinely good person. After I talked, he looked at me kindly and just offered to drive me home.
Of course, I know now, that this is the exact moment he fell in love with me and it's a great feeling. I'm almost glad we waited so long to be together, we've learned to know and value each other. In a way he pacified me. I was able and heal, so that I could give myself to him.
Sonny
Sonny can't resist any longer and slowly takes Will in his arms, being careful to hold him as softly as possible to communicate him all of his warmth and his emotions. He'd like to protect him from everything, what hurts, those who wounded him. He'd like to create a world just for Will where all would be at his liking. He'd like to beat that guy to a pulp. He's furious at Lucas for ever comparing him to that piece of slime. They stay there, intertwined a long time. Then, Sonny hears footstep on the gravel and looks up, without letting Will go. Sami is looking at him with an embarrassed grin. She gestures to the car and Sonny nods and smiles back. Lucas walks past them in a quick pace and go lock himself in the car. Sonny focuses back on Will. In the recess of his mind, he registers the noise of an engine starting but he doesn't move. If they have to stay there all night, no problems. Only Will matters.