The two teens just held each other like that for a long time. There tears were gone and only silence remained. They listened to each other breath, to their quick heart beats. It was as if the two were begging some unknown, invisible force to bind their bodies together. To be forever comforted by the unconditional warmth that the two produced in the embrace.

Gamzee was the first to let go. He looked at Tavros with glossy blue eyes rimmed in red, from tears long gone. He smiled a little and cupped Tavros' cheek," I'm….I'm gonna do it right this time man." Gamzee said softly as he pressed his forehead to Tavros' own.

Tavros nodded and glanced down, blinked away a couple stray tears," what…are you?"

Before he could finish Gamzee cut him off by pressing their lips together in a deep kiss. The gangster had never felt this way before. He felt…loved. He felt like no matter what happened the smaller teen would be there to hold him up.

Years ago he felt as if he fell tired as a child. Stopped hanging on, stopped walking. Now. Now he felt like walking again, but he was no longer that child that stood in awkward silence, ready to shoot anyone that looked at him funny. No. Now he was strong. He had someone to protect. He had someone to protect him.

His head felt light, but his heart felt lighter and before he realized it, the kiss was over. Tavros pulled back and smiled at Gamzee, a deep blush rested on his freckled cheeks, he two felt light. He knew love. He knew comfort. He lost it. Though now it was back in some strange form of this boy who seemed to fill some empty space Tavros had no idea he had. He felt complete.

He couldn't speak though. His heart pounded in his throat and his face felt hot. How could he tell Gamzee how he really felt about all of this? This wasn't love….it couldn't be love. That's impossible for someone to fall in love so fast. No…more like it was improbable. So, the impossible came to light and Tavros, almost without thinking, practically yelled," I LOVE YOU."

There was a long silence and the two of them just stared into each other's eyes, Gamzee trying to figure out what to say and Tavros cursing himself and begging someone to take it back. He didn't want Gamzee to run again, he couldn't handle it.

What happened next caught Tavros off guard. Gamzee slowly reached out and plucked the blue flower from his ear and smelled it lightly, he then turned and set it on the coffee table. His eyes rose from the flower and slowly to Tavros' eyes. Once locked in gaze again, that crooked smile spread across Gamzee's face and he said in a very soft, very low tone," I love you too Tav."

Tavros stared at Gamzee with wide eyes and then, it clicked. The two felt as if they knew exactly what each other wanted to say all along, that no words needed to be spoken the rest of the night.

The rest of the night the two cuddled against each other on the small couch, they ended up watching Beauty and the Beast. Turned out Gamzee loved the stupid Disney movies as much as Tavros.

Once the movie was over, Tavros quickly changed into his pajamas and stood by his bed, looking at Gamzee," you can fit in my bed with me…its small but it's not that small." He said with a small smile.

The lanky teen stood and smiled, walking over to Tavros. He towered over him when he stood in front of the small boy. He carefully leaned down and pecked Tavros' lips, letting his hands wander to Tavros' hips, the butt.

Quickly, Tavros grabbed his hands and looked up at Gamzee," no. Not yet. I'm…I'm scared…" He said softly as he looked away.

Gamzee smiled kindly and removed his hands," sorry bro. Didn't mean no harm. Ok then. I'll make you a deal, an…an I'll tell you a secret. K?" Gamzee said as he brushed past Tavros to sit on his bed. His long arms reached out and pulled Tavros onto his lap, with a little bit of squirming and protesting from the other male.

Once Tavros calmed down he let out a long sigh and nodded," ok Gamzee….what's the deal? And…what's your secret?"

"After bein….molested as a kid. I…I've never slept with a soul since then. Actually. I still consider myself a virgin. So. My deal is…I won't initiate nothin with you sexual wise, ok bro? In exchange. When you're ready. You have to start this train. Cuz if I could have it my way, I'd make you feel better than you ever felt, right here, right now. But I don't wanna rush you bro. That's the last thing I wanna do. So. You tell me when. Ok? We'll give each other somethin special when the time comes. I give you my trust an the thing that I can only give out once. An you gimme yours." Gamzee said smiling at Tavros.

Tavros was silent though. He didn't say a word, until finally he mumbled something almost inaudible," I'm not a virgin…."

Gamzee blinked and leaned forward a little so that he could look at Tavros better," what?" The larger teen was dumbfounded, and really, really surprised. Tavros was really antisocial, how could he have had sex?

Tavros ran his fingers through his hair and he let out a long sigh," I'm not proud of it…at all…you…you know Vriska? Well…it was my Sophomore year….she…actually kinda forced herself on me….I…I was…well…she said that if I wanted anyone to like me…that I'd do what she said. So I did….she…got me high behind the bleachers and we fucked…we didn't make love. She fucked me. I ended up skipping a month of school and crying on Rosa for that month…guess…that's when I really questioned the…sexuality thing….Vriska mostly leaves me alone now….cept for when…she puts dead things in my locker…but yeah…"

Gamzee grinned and ruffled his hair," you got me worried bro! I thought you meant you had sex with a dude. No no no don't worry bro. You're still pure in one part a ya." Gamzee said bobbing his eyebrows.

This gained a flush from the teen on his lap," UM…UH….O…OK….um…y…you…uh….you're…top…" Tavros sputtered out in almost a statement.

"Yeah bro. Is that cool? I..I don't think I can stand anythin else up my ass….ya dig?" Gamzee said holding Tavros tightly.

Tavros smiled and leaned back, nuzzling him a little," o…of course….I…don't mind…I..heheh think I'd like it…" Once the words left his mouth, he slapped his hands over it and whimpered a little, his cheeks burning red. He couldn't believe he said that!

The blond smirked and kissed the side of his head," it's cool bro. I like it when you talk like that. Don't be embarrassed to tell me what you like an don't like. Ok?" Gamzee said softly as he rubbed Tavros' chest a little.

Tavros just blushed harder and nodded," o, ok…can…can we sleep now? And…cuddle more?" He asked smiling at Gamzee.

"Hahaha of course lil bro!" Gamzee said hugging him tightly before pulling back the covers. He crawled under them and pulled Tavros with him. The smaller's back to the larger's front. Gamzee gently pressed his nose into Tavros' hair and sighed softly," gnight bro. I love you."

"I love you too Gamzee." Tavros mumbled as he scooted his back closer to Gamzee's front, also sighing contently as Gamzee wrapped his arms around him. For once in a very long while, Tavros felt safe and warm.