Once out of the hospital, Gamzee combed the grounds for Tavros. It looked as if he had gone home by himself. He did seem angry with Gamzee when he left Vriska's hospital room. May be Tavros was trying to make a point? May be Tavros didn't want to hang out with him anymore…be in a relationship with him anymore. Gamzee's eyes widened and he started to pace in front of the hospital. His mind reeling.

He finally turned, mid pace and strode down the street. A dark look on his painted face. Fine. Obviously he wasn't meant to have a relationship. He was just some fucked up kid. Undeserving of happiness due to everything he'd done.

Gamzee slowed and stopped in front of a large reflective window. His blue eyes searching his reflection. For something. Anything. They grazed over his smudged, painted face. He looked tired. Drained. Beaten.

His hair was matted again, blood speckled it. Vriska's blood. He was a mess. May be he had scared Tavros? No. Who the hell was he kidding? Gamzee grit his teeth as he stared at himself," what the fuck are you looking at motherfucker?" Gamzee hissed out, his hand shooting into his pocket. He tugged four small pieces of paper from his pocket and stuck them in his mouth. Still staring at himself, he let the paper dissolve and he watched his world spin, his reflection morph and the landscape around him fade.

"W, what the motherfuck ARE YOU FUCKING LOOKING AT?" Gamzee yelled at his reflection as his brain fogged over, silencing his better judgment. In one swift motion Gamzee lashed out, smashing the window. He quickly turned on his heal and took off down the street.

He cried out as his world spun and everywhere he could see the sky, the clouds, the street, the building walls, eyes appeared. All scared and blue, looking at him. Judging him. Scared for him.

"Why did you do this? I thought you were getting off of this stuff! Gamzee! What did you do! Why did you do it! GAMZEE! ARE YOU OK? What the hell is wrong with you? You're pathetic."

The words rung through Gamzee's head and before he realized what had happened, he had fallen down into the small stream in the park where he and Tavros had gotten together. Gamzee scrambled under the bridge, his breath heavy as he rocked back and forth, staring at the blinking eyes and the swirling world. The words rang louder and the whispers deepened.

Gamzee felt as if his head was going to explode. He pressed his hands to his ears and shut his eyes tight as he screamed. Trying to blot out the eyes and the sounds," don't look at me! Don't mother fucking look at me!" Gamzee yelled, lashing back, smacking his head into the stone of the bridge wall, trying to bang the images out, he stopped though when a small, white haired boy jumped down and grabbed his shoulders.

"GAMZEE FUCKING STOP IT! SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF IT!" Karkat. Karkat was close friends with Gamzee. He'd been for a long time. No one could really fathom why, but the two kept each other in check. When Karkat started cutting, Gamzee was there to smack him out of it. When Gamzee had a bad trip, Karkat was almost always there to snap him out of it as well. They were unlikely friends, but friends none the less.

Karkat pulled Gamzee up and slapped him hard," SNAP OUT OF IT!" The albino snarled, holding Gamzee steady.

Gamzee blinked and looked down at the short male," wha…" He wobbled again, but Karkat kept his sturdy grip on him.

"DON'T WHAT ME ASSHOLE. Come on. You can stay with me tonight ok? I'll sober your ass up and you get to go to school tomorrow. Ok? So deal."

Gamzee just stared down at Karkat and nodded, leaning on him a little.

Karkat rolled his lavender eyes and put an arm around Gamzee's thin waist, hauling him out of the ditch he was in. He dragged the high gangster down the street, talking to him every now and then about nothing really, just to keep him awake. Finally he led Gamzee to a nice looking high rise apartment complex. He took him up the elevator and to his apartment; he knocked on the door with his foot and yelled," SOLLUX OPEN THE GOD DAMNED DOOR!"

Almost immediately Sollux swung the door open and let Karkat drag Gamzee inside," jeez kk what did the cat drag in thith time?" He asked raising his eyebrows at the scene before him. The blonde shut the door and locked it, following Karkat and Gamzee," kk don't put him on the couch! He'th filthy! Take him to the thower!"

"Oh my fucking god Sollux shut the hell up! Stop your bitching about your stupid couch!" But Karkat obeyed the fussing blonde and dragged Gamzee to the bathroom. He helped the lanky teen into the bathtub and turned the shower on," You ok Gamzee?" Karkat asked as he started tugging Gamzee's clothes off," Sollux can you wash these?"

Sollux wrinkled his nose and held out a plastic bag for Karkat to put the clothes in.

"DAMMIT SOLLUX WILL YOU FUCKING CHILL WITH YOUR OCD FOR TWO SECONDS TO HELP OUR FRIEND?" Karkat snarled throwing the clothes at him.

Sollux yelped and stuffed the clothes into the bag," ok ok! Jeez!" He turned and hurried out of the bathroom, leaving the two alone.

"Gamzee what the hell is wrong with you. You told me last week you were getting off this shit." Karkat said as he washed Gamzee's hair.

Gamzee shut his eyes and sighed," dunno.."

Karkat rolled his eyes and cleaned his friend up, trying to snap him out of his high. Once he was clean Karkat turned the water off and drained the tub, drying Gamzee off," you're a fuckass you know. You make me worry too much."

Gamzee let out a long sigh as Karkat dried his skinny form," msorry…"

"Don't fucking apologize to me. Get your god damned act together. For you. For that whimpery kid. I had to do it for my health remember? And you're such a selfish fucker that you broke our pact." Karkat sighed and slumped to his knees," you promised me man…that you'd clean up when I cleaned up…" Karkat looked down and glared at the floor," you fucking made me a promise. So…if not for me. For that kid." Karkat snarled, standing again, tears streaking down his pail face," JUST FUCKING DO IT OK?" The albino yelled at the sedated teen in the bathtub.

Sollux hurried into the bathroom and pulled Karkat into a hug," thhhhh. Ith ok." He looked down at Gamzee and sighed a little. In the back of his mind he knew Gamzee was a lost cause. He knew he would never change, and here Karkat was; ready to rip himself to shreds over this worthless hunk of flesh.

Karkat pulled from Sollux and looked down at Gamzee," stop being a douche you hear me? FOR THE PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT YOU! Why the fuck do you even think we all helped you with Vriska? Not because we all hate her. Well we kinda do. But we love you more. You're our friend. Our friend who may be high off his god damned rocker. But we love him none the less because he's always happy. Always there for all of us! You pulled me out of a fog. Let us do the same with you. Please?"

Gamzee looked up at the small teen, then at Sollux. His eyes narrowed when he saw the disdain in Sollux's eyes. Almost disgust. So he stood and got out of the tub. Walking across the apartment. He saw his clothes in the bag; he dumped them on the floor, which received a yelp from Sollux. He smirked at this and tugged the wet clothing on.

"Gamzee? What the hell are you doing? Gamzee!" Karkat yelled at him as Gamzee strode out of the apartment. He cared about his friend but he couldn't be around those two. He didn't want help. He didn't want to be sober. He wanted to see Tavros. He wanted to ask him what the fuck was wrong with him and why the hell he left him hanging.

Gamzee walked out of the nice neighborhood, as the sun set over his world. Darkening the streets and leaving Gamzee with nothing but bad thoughts.