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Gamzee walked at a quick pace down the winding streets to Tavros' home. His thoughts plaguing him worse than usual as his high started to wear off. To remedy this he took two more papers from his pocket and let them dissolve in his mouth. He stopped for a second and leaned on a fence, heaving. Nothing came up though. He hadn't eaten in a long while.

His body shook as he straightened up once more and continued his pace down the street. His eyes darting back and forth as he tried to tell himself that trees don't insult you.

He finally rounded the bend and entered Tavros apartment complex. He stomped up the stairs to Tavros' apartment and pounded on the door, waiting for the small teen to answer.

Tavros answered quickly and smiled up at the grim looking male," Gamzee! There you are! I was worried."

"You didn't wait for me."

"W, what?"

"You. Didn't…motherfucking wait for me. At the hospital." Gamzee hissed out, pushing past him.

Tavros looked a little nervous as he shut the door," I'm sorry. I had to get home and do homework! I had to feed Rufio! I didn't know you wanted to walk me home!" Tavros said walking over to him. He reached a hand out and pressed it to Gamzee's shoulder.

Gamzee grabbed Tavros wrist and in a second, slammed him to the wall," of course I fucking wanted to walk you home! You're my fucking boyfriend! I'm supposed to take care of you!" Gamzee snarled as he pressed his leg roughly between Tavros' legs.

Tavros' eyes widened, he felt sick, he didn't know what to do or what Gamzee was even doing, he just gripped the larger male's shirt and tried to push him away.

"You don't fucking kiss me! You're sputtering all the time! I feel more like your god damned baby sitter! Fucking act like my boyfriend!" Gamzee snarled.

"W, we haven't been going out that long! Gamzee you're hurting me! I've never been in a relationship like this!" Tavros whimpered trying to pull away," please stop!"

Gamzee didn't listen though. He slammed Tavros to the wall," What the fuck is wrong with you! Do you even care? So what if we haven't been dating for long? I've fucking loved you for years! I fell in love with you the second I saw you! Show me you love me! I need you to show it!"

Tavros started to sob as he tried to push Gamzee away," I love you! Isn't that enough! OW! Gamzee!"

The large teen leaned in and kissed Tavros roughly, biting his lip ring, his hands wandering lower to Tavros hips," show me motherfucker!"

Tavros' eyes widened and his tears came faster," is…is this the only way…I can show you I love you?" Tavros hiccupped into the kiss, shutting his eyes and gripping Gamzee's shirt.

"Yes now get on the fucking bed! NOW! STOP FUCKING SNIVVELING!" Gamzee snarled pushing Tavros to the bed.

Tavros never thought that this would happen. He wanted things to be sweet. To be gentle and kind. Full of love. This wasn't love. This was some stupid high Gamzee was in. Tavros was terrified so he obeyed the gangster at every turn. Giving himself to him fully. No matter how much it hurt.

He bit back tears left and right, shut his eyes and pretended the Gamzee he knew was over him. Loving him. Taking care of him. Making him feel good. Every sharp jolt of pain reminded him though that that was just a dream and that here and now was what was real.

He felt the other male orgasm in him. He then watched Gamzee leave without a word. Just a slam of his front door.

Tavros felt his heart break and he slowly stood, his legs shaking as he wobbled to the bathroom. He turned the shower on and sat at the bottom of it like he always did when he was sad. He turned his head to the kitten and said in a very soft voice," h, hang in there lil guy…you'll be able to make it through this."

He rested his head to the tile and shook, tears mixing with the shower water," god this really is all there is…"