So, I'm continuing but slowly as I have a new fic going. Thanks so much for the encouragement!
Will's POV
I can't stop staring at him. Even in the car. We've let Dan borrow mine to take Mel home and Hope is driving us. Chad and Abby have disappeared extra-fast and Sonny has made a ludicrous remark about it. Well, they have a lot to catch up. Not sure Chad will come back to Common Ground soon... In fact their baristas will have to manage on their own for a while because I won't let go of my man either. I want him with me, in bed, under my surveillance. I'm aware he is out of danger but in my head, I still hear the rattling and I see Sonny's eyes. I was frightened like hell. Even when he was wounded the last time, it wasn't that bad. We hadn't lived what we've lived in between. He wasn't yet a part of me like he is now, when I can only breathe when I know that he's safe and happy. Hope drops us at home... well at his home. The mistake I just made places me in front of the obvious. No possibility of procrastination. We have to find us a home. With or without parental approval. I'll find the money. I want to build something with Sonny. Commit to something. If he was asking me to marry him now, I'd say yes. We aren't there yet, way too young, I know but I also know I love him more than life itself and I'd die for him. My hands hurt and I shiver when Sonny squeezes them too tight. I can see he's worrying. He's adorable that way. I kiss the tip of his nose. He pulls me to him and we kiss our way inside the studio. Very softly, he lays me on his bed and start undressing me "I love you, Will. I love you so much." I never tire of hearing that. I answer "Sonny come inside of me, I need to feel you, know you're alive, that this isn't a dream." He looks at me, eyes wide open, filled with tenderness and passion. The joy is making my stomach hurt. We caress each other and he penetrates me slowly, with gentleness, he always does. It's as if he was sliding on silk. And in fact, it's me.
Sonny's POV
Will is so gorgeous, so alive. So good. After staring into Adam's demented eyes, I'm drowning in the pure and ardent eyes of my beloved. I can feel he wants me, he needs me. He loves me. I focus on giving him pleasure, grinding my teeth 'cause in the state I'm in, I could lose control and hurt him. I might be crying, I'm not sure "My love, my kitten... Don't leave me, for a second..." He clutches my arm "Never again, promise..." When he orgasms, I feel better. At peace. I finish and lie next to him. He notes "We'll have to look for a spacy shower, you know." What is he talking about? He has that stubborn smile. I love that smile and always capitulate for it. "For our place..."
Sonny
It doesn't take long for the families to turn up. Soon, the studio is too small and Sonny takes everyone to Common Ground. His mother's eyes are filled with tears and she spends her time brushing his arm. For once, he lets her. Lucas doesn't let his son go. It's the third time they're hugging. Sonny weighs up pros and cons and walk to them. He pats Will's shoulder and gets a smile that makes him forget his own existence. It's a good thing Will is so righteous because he has Sonny under his thumb. He slides his hand in his and whispers "My love, I'd like to talk with your dad." Will nods and joins Sami who's crying over and over, and crouches next to his siblings. Lucas smiles at that picture then turns to Sonny. There's something new in the way he's looking at him. A glimmer of serious. It feels like respect.
"Lucas, I wanted to tell you..." He's chosen first-name basis, let them be equals. Lucas is silent. "You see, I know we don't agree on that subject, but after what has happened..." Will's dad shakes his head "Take your own decisions, guys. Will is a man, he's just proved it." He glances at his son without a trace of disappointment this time. Sonny grins.
They don't stay long. Will authoritatively and they spend their evening wound round the other, reuniting. In the middle of the night, Sonny is woken up by the sensation of a trembling body. Will is sobbing dryly and desperately. Sonny softly shakes him "Will, Will, I'm here, we're fine..." Will is quivering. Sonny feels helpless. He brushes his back and whispers some 'I love you's but to no improvement.
The next day, he lets Will shower on his own. They haven't slept much and he has to work early. He stays in the bed and when his lover comes back and sits next to him, he says "So, I'll be off. You want to come with me at the coffee-house?" Will shakes his head "No." "OK" Sonny says, disappointed. Will takes his arm "You don't get it. I don't want you to go. Not today. Find a replacement. Please." Sonny is about to make a discourse on responsibility and how seeing people and getting back to his habits will help him forget all of it. But he stops when he looks at Will's face. He nods. He's ready to do anything to get back yesterday's smiles. He knows the symptoms. Will is shutting down. And until then, all his attempts are failing. He lies back and takes his cell.