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It's said that if two people are meant to be together, they are linked by a red string tied to their pinkies. The string can stretch and shrink, it may become thin or even brittle, but it will never break. For two people that are meant to be together, never really leave each other.

It felt like a century until Gamzee finally responded to Tavros' small voice. He himself couldn't speak. Instead he slowly stood from the bed and took a step towards the small, quivering boy.

The gloss in Gamzee's eyes was obvious as he fought back tears," m, may I?" Gamzee asked in probably the most formal manner Tavros had ever heard from the other boy. As Gamzee asked, he raised a hand gingerly gesturing to Tavros.

Tavros nodded, almost leaning up towards the other male, encouraging advancement.

The juggalo leaned down, gently lifting Tavros' chin as he closed the gap between the two.

Both of their breath caught in their throats as their lips met after such a long time waiting. In that second, the world stood still. The kiss filled their heads and ears and left nothing but quick heart beats and shallow breaths.

It surrounded them both in a red, velvet ribbon of warmth and comfort and only drew them closer together.

Gamzee's hand drifted from Tavros' chin and brushed over the soft fuzz on the side of Tavros' mohawked head. His other hand pressed flat against the seat of the wheelchair, supporting his leaned over body from falling.

The smaller boy nuzzled against his hand as his own smaller digits gripped onto Gamzee's shirt, tugging him down a little more.

As the kiss came to an end Gamzee pulled back and looked down at his lover.

Tavros' eyes were still shut, his eyelids fluttering lightly. His hands still were raised as if he was still gripping Gamzee's shirt, and his pierced lips were still puckered.

Gamzee grinned down at the little mohawked boy," you're really motherfucking cute right now."

Tavros blinked, looking down quickly then back up at Gamzee, a light blush spreading across his lightly tanned cheeks," I…um…I missed hearing stuff like that…"

"I up and missed kissin that cute face of yours." The lanky boy purred as he sat back down on the bed.

Tavros bit his lip a little, and then scooted closer to the bed; he put both hands on the bed and hoisted himself onto the bed. As he landed he let out a small squeak of pain, rubbing his hips once he was settled on the bed.

"You ok bro?"

"Yeah…it's just every now and then, when I hit my hips really hard it hurts really bad…" Tavros explained as Gamzee reached over and began to run his fingers over Tavros' hips.

A thought hit Gamzee's mind. He felt terrible for it, but it still hit him. Could the both of them even make love anymore? Or would it hurt Tavros to much?

Tavros examined Gamzee's face, a curious expression on his own," you ok? You look…sick?"

Gamzee shook his head quickly and kissed Tavros' forehead," I just….I don't know man…are…are you able to like….have sex anymore?"

Tavros' expression fell," oh…I…never asked my doctor….I…um…didn't...uh…feel it was that important."

Gamzee swallowed, he could feel his ears and cheeks burn. He felt embarrassed and humiliated, why did he bring that up? How could he bring that up!?

"Is…is that all our relationship is?...just….sex?" Tavros lowered his head. He watched the tears cloud his vision. The flash back hit him hard as he thought of what Gamzee did. All he wanted was to have Gamzee hold him. That's all! Sex would be nice…but…that's not all Tavros wanted. He just wanted a good relationship, a loving relationship. A partner…

Gamzee's heart fell into his stomach. He wasn't going to let this go wrong again. Why did he keep fucking up though? He always fucked up…it was as if that was all he could do.

The juggalo thought little about the next move he made. All he wanted was to do something right, so he acted. Instead of over thinking, he threw his arms around Tavros and held him as close as he could," no. No, no no….Tavros that is not what I want with our relationship! I just don't want you to be in motherfucking pain! It hurts me to see you hurting! I just…all I want is for you to feel good…just...let me let you feel good…may be not now. I know I up and went back on my motherfuckin words…last time…but…fuck I want to make up for that. I want you to tell me when and where. Shit man I'd do it anywhere anytime with you! As long as I can make you feel good. Not hurtin. Ok?"

Tavros nodded a little as he pressed his face into Gamzee's chest, finally the tears came," thank you….please….please don't do those things to me ever again…please…I just want to love you…"

"Don't beg. You deserve so much more…so motherfuckin more. You deserve to be showered in affections and good karma and everything…Eridan…Eridan dyin right in front of my motherfuckin eyes….well….opened them. It shoulda hit me when you were hit. But….fuck…it didn't…I don't know why. It just….finally hit me…life….life is fragile."

Tavros raised his head from Gamzee's chest and looked up at him," thank you."

Gamzee nodded and kissed Tavros' forehead once more before he carefully let him go, standing," I better up an get goin. I need to talk to my bro Karkat. Ok? I'll come and visit you tomorrow." He smiled and started heading to the door.

"O, ok! Um…thanks for coming by. I'm really happy you did."

Gamzee nodded and quickly left the bookstore, trying to avoid Rosa at all costs. He felt good though. He felt like he had just swum though a sea of sharks, and made it out alive.

He breathed easily as he walked back to Karkat's, his hands, instead of being stuffed in his baggy pants, swung freely by his sides. His normally drooping head and shoulders, drooped a little less, and instead of staring at the ground, he looked forward. He almost hummed as he walked.

As the juggalo rounded into the apartment complex, he blinked a little, surprised at the presence of an ambulance.

It's lights flickered round and round in front of the large building. A small group of people that lived in the complex were outside; watching, worried or curious expressions were exchanged as they spoke to each other.

Gamzee approached them, and asked," what happened?"

"You know that computer genius? Apparently he had a seizure!"

The doors of the ambulance slammed shut and it began to drive away; the sound made Gamzee's head turn and his eyes widen as it began to depart.

"WAIT! KARKAT! SOLLUX! WHAT THE FUCK?!" Gamzee yelled and began to run after the ambulance. Even if it didn't stop, he knew what hospital it would be going to, he'd get there. He'd make sure his family was ok.

Why couldn't things just be right for once?