thank all of you for reading! this story is far from over.

"If I only could...make a deal with god, to get him to swap our places..." Karkat said through clenched teeth, holding Sollux's hand tightly in his," just...wake up. I need you. I just...really really need you."

Gamzee didn't say anything, he couldn't say anything. All he did was rub Karkat's back. Giving him the little strand of comfort he could during this time.

For the next few hours, days, doctors came and left, checking vitals, refilling IV's. Karkat hardly left. At some points Gamzee had to take him home to clean himself, but besides those little times, Karkat stayed, gripping his lovers hand, praying to a faceless god he didn't believe in.

Finally, something changed.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Sollux's heart stopped. No reason. No signs of anything dropping it just stopped. Karkat raised his tear-stained face, shock in his eyes, his mouth slightly agape in shock, what else could he do.

Quickly he was pulled away by Gamzee as nurses and doctors came in with the defibrillator machine.

BUNP.

Once.

BUNP.

Twice.

BUNP.

Thrice.

Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep.

Sollux's eyes flew open gasping and clawing at the tube down his throat. The doctors removed any an all feeding or air devices, spare the IV.

The blonde gasped, panted even, holding his chest, his eyes wide and his heart beat sky rocketing as it came back to life. The nurses and doctors took vitals then finally left the room with a pitying gaze towards Karkat.

Karkat exchanged the look then stood, fists clenched, big tears sitting on the edge of his eyes, staring, glaring at his lover. He made no noise, the only thing he did was slightly shake as he stared through the gloss of the tears. Slowly he blinked, letting the tears roll down his marble cheeks.

Sollux let his hand fall to the bed as his panting subsided. Almost mechanically he turned his head to look at Karkat, he looked tired, though he had slept for days. His eyes pleaded for Karkat, begging him to forgive him.

The exchange went straight over Gamzee's head. All he saw were two people looking at each other.

Though the exchange was so much more. It was as if their souls spoke to each other, both pleading, yet neither of them could move. Finally, Karkat moved first, lunging forward as gently as he could to hug Sollux as tight as he could without hurting him.

"I'm thorry. I'm tho tho thorry." Sollux gasped out.

"Just shut the fuck up." Karkat barked out as he leaned back and kissed Sollux's face.

Gamzee watched the exchange finally realizing what it all meant and all he could think of was Tavros. The sweet look the mohawked teen had given him, the kind look that made Gamzee's heart skip and his head feel light. Quickly he strode out of the hospital, running as fast as he could to Tavros' house.

Rosa jumped a little as Gamzee threw the door open, the bell above the door jingling spastically from its rought treatment.

Rosa opened her mouth to say something, but was to slow as Gamzee ran back into Tavros' room, which he burst into in the same manner he did the book store.

He stood in the doorway for a moment, his chest heaving as he looked at the shocked and very confused Tavros.

"Uuuuh...Gamzee? What the hell?" Tavros asked as he shut the book he was reading.

"Never leave me man...please don't fuckin go...I don't think I could deal with that shit..." Gamzee fell to his knees, practically crawling to Tavros to lay his head in his lap as his panting dissolved into sobbing.

Tavros was dumbfounded, he didn't know what he'd done or what hat happened so all he could do was run his fingers through Gamzee's dreaded and matted hair," what happened?" His face furrowed into worry at the though of what could have happened.

"Sollux...he up and fell into some shitty coma...I don't fuckin know...but man me and Karkat just fuckin sat there for days waiting for that fucker to wake up! Then he fucking had to die on us! The docs fucking shocked him back to life thank fucking god...I just...shit I'm scared...that coulda been you, that coulda been me...fuck I though I learned a lesson from Eridan...no..fuck man, watching someone die quick in front of you is one thing, but fuck watching them die slowly...I don't want to do that with you man..I'm so god damn sorry for what happened to you, I'm so sorry that you're in pain every day, I'm just really sorry..." He sputtered out the last words, his arms wrapping around Tavros' waist as he spoke.

Tavros blinked and stared down at him with sympathy and confusion," I'm...not going anywhere? Gamzee should we go back to the hospital? It sounds like they need more support than that? Cuz like, Aradia should know, her and Sollux are really tight remember?"

Gamzee nodded," can you call her man? On the way to the hospital? I'll push you."

"Ok!" Tavros spun his chair around and grabbed his phone and a couple books," me and Aradia are pretty tight too, she doesn't talk much but she told me she's gotten better after seeing her doctor! She said he might be able to help any of our group. Um...whats his name...uuuh, Doctor Scratch! Yeah!"

"Ok bro well I don't fuckin care about no doctor right now cept for Sollux's" Gamzee stated bluntly as he rolled Tavros out of the shop, giving Tavros only seconds to explain to Rosa where he was going and what he was doing.

As the two rocketed down the street Tavros exchanged calls with Aradia, who agreed to meet them at the hospital. Tavros hung up and looked up at Gamzee," ok she'll meet us there, she sounds like she's in a good mood today too!"

"Good. We'll fuckin need someone with a cheery attitude where we're going." Gamzee mumbled to himself.