just little somehitng before I go out in the big world. dependign on stuff (skiing) I may not come back in one piece. and depending on my comrades, i might end up burned. but I hope for the best. which is quick end. of the camp, naturlicht. enjoy if you will.

Chapter 6

Tala was celebrating with his friends. They had studied hard for a test, and they all had passed, and with adequate grades. Now they were in a bar drinking and dancing. Ian was dancing with some girl, and he wished them good luck with a toast, then ordering a new beer from the bartender.

"You guys seem to have a party of your own" the middle ages bartender said with a smile while handing him fresh and cool bottle. He nodded and smiled back.

"You can say that again." said Spencer who put an arm around his shoulder, took a good hold and ruffled his hair. "We worked our asses off and this little genius here scored nearly perfect" he laughed and escaped from the clutch.

"You didn't do bad yourself." Spencer shrugged with a grin

"Yeah, but that wasn't a miracle, unlike yours" Spencer grabbed his bottle and while going to talk to some chicks, called after him "I haven't been walking in clouds for the last few weeks like some, not paying attention to anything around them." he raised a fist and shook it at Spencer, laughing. Sure, Kai had occupied his mind a lot, even though it wasn't only good. He never got truths out of Kai, everything was so mysterious and full of lies and secrets. In the cafe, he was so preoccupied by the kiss, it was only later at home when he recalled what they had been talking before Kai had blown his mind away. So there was uncertainty eating inside him. Was Kai serious with him, was it an accident that they met, and what was Kai really after? How could he know so much. He sighed, and ordered a new drink instead of the one Spencer had stolen. Then he shook the thoughts away. Tonight was about having fun, not causing him a headache by thinking about bad things. He grabbed the beer and turned to go to Spencer and chitchat with chicks. Damn, he was apparently a bit drunk already, because that sounded funny to him. Chitchat with chicks. He tried to stifle his laugh, he was not that wasted yet. Then he froze there, in the middle of the tables. Because, at the door, he saw Kai with two beautiful girls. The girls were smiling and laughing clearly enjoying themselves. What was even worse, was that Kai didn't look withdrawn either, he looked relaxed and had a little smile on his face. It felt like his heart was turn apart. For a moment, he feared he would die in the spot, it felt so bad. He felt his eyes prickle up, and he didn't want to let that happen. So his friends had been right, Kai was a bad apple after all, just playing with him. He sobbed a bit, turned away, lifted the bottle to his mouth and drank. He drank the whole bottle, and gripping it hard returned to the counter.

"Another" he ordered, the bartender glancing him, and without any word, brought him another.

He wasn't sure how many he had drank, when both Spencer and Connor came to him. Pretty many probably, because he felt really tired, maybe a bit sick, but all and all really good. The pain was gone at least.

"Tala, what happened? We were meant to have fun, and now you are like the last man on earth. What happened?" he sniffed

"I wish I was the last man on earth" he muttered. Connor, who was the soberest in the bunch, sighed and came next to him, putting a hand to his shoulder.

"If you don't want to talk, that's okay, we can wait til you are ready. But drinking is not the answer to anything, you know that" he looked up at Connor's eyes

"But it helps."

"How?" asked Spencer. He shook his head, but it made him feel a bit sicker. He closed his eyes, both so the world would stop spinning, and that the tears wouldn't start flowing.

"It took the pain away" he whispered, then biting his lips that were about to start trembling. He heard Spencer sigh and say gently

"Are you sure? Are you really sure that you don't hurt anymore, or are you just lying to yourself?" he couldn't stop the hot tears seeping between his eyelids.

"It doesn't matter. At least I would know it is a lie rather than being ion oblivion about it"

"What are you talking about?". All the questions, the increasing sickness made him snap

"Shut up! it is none of your business, I don't want to hear it from you!" he shouted, and by their looks, he could tell they were stunned. But he didn't care, he wanted to get away, to be alone and cry his heart out, right now he couldn't take them, telling that they warned him, that they had been right from the beginning. Hot tears running down his cheeks, he pushed away from the counter, dashed between his friends and started running towards the door. Kai was still there, only thing different was that now there was a man too, around same age as the girls and Kai. He slowed down a bit.

"Bastard" he spat at Kai, before rushing out of the bar and starting to run blindly down the street. He was out of breath and felt really sick, so he staggered to a halt, taking support from the wall. He was crying, wheezing and coughing. He felt his knees starting to give in, and he struggled to stay up. Then hands wrapped around him, holding him up.

"Take it easy" said a voice that made his heart bleed. He loved it, and now it also made him sick. He struggled and swatted so Kai would let him go

"Leave me alone!" he screamed

"No I won't" Kai said calmly and strengthened his hold. For a short moment, he tried to resist, but then he run out of steam. He would have flopped down into a pile, if it weren't for Kai's arms around him. He cried helplessly, but that got him sicker.

"I feel sick.." he mumbled.

"Let's get you somewhere warm.." Kai helped him to stood up, but his legs didn't carry. Kai hold him up for a moment, then hoisted him up in his arms, carrying him in bridal style. He started fighting again.

"Don't touch me, put me down!" he whined, voice weaker because he was feeling really sad. He must have drunk really much.

"I told you already, I won't". as his last resort, he slapped Kai on the cheek. Kai, who had already started walking, stopped mid step. The red eyes stared into space, face blank. He hadn't meant to hit Kai so hard.

"Kai, I'm...sorry" he said. When hearing his voice, Kai blinked, eyes focused again and he gave him a stern look.

"Just shut up"

"I.."

"Quiet". Kai seemed upset, so he really shut up. He felt really awkward, but the nausea was starting to win over it. Besides, falling would only hurt, and despite everything Kai's arms were still as warm and ensuring as before. He closed his eyes, staying still, tears still leaking from his closed lids.

He must have fallen asleep, since the next thing he knew was that he was laying in a bed that wasn't his, all sweaty and tongue clued to his mouth. He groaned and tried to get up, just having his head nearly splitting up. He gasped and flopped back down, fearing his head would explode

"Are you finally back to your senses?" the voice was colder than normal, and it took a moment to recall why. He turned his head to look at Kai, who was standing in the doorway.

"I wish I wasn't.." he said, his own voice sounding creaky and broken. He watched how Kai shook his head and turned away. After a little moment, Kai reappeared with a glass and a pill.

"Whether you believe it or not, it is just aspirin" he glanced at the red eyes, that were darker than earlier, no sign of sparks there. He nodded, took the glass and pill, swallowed it and flushed it down with the water.

"Thanks" he looked around "where are we?" Kai looked around too.

"At my place" he said reluctantly.

"Damn.." he muttered. The red eyes shot to his right away

"What?" he sighed

"It's just, if I would feel better, I would be really curious to look around more" Kai lifted an eyebrow.

"Doubt it. After all, you just called me a bastard and run away crying." he felt his face heat up ,and that made him feel sicker. Kai took the glass and went away again. He sighed again and pressed his face into the pillow. He felt like a moron. Not only had he yelled at Kai, he had also hit him. He could see painstakingly clearly Kai's look after the blow. Just like some old wound would have been torn open.

"I'm sorry" he mumbled, eyes closed. Right after that, he felt a cool and went cloth being laid to his head. He moved a bit, and Kai put the cloth properly so it eased his headache. "Thanks" Kai shook his head and sat at the edge of the bed.

"I don't need apologizes or thanks. What I would like to know is what pissed you off in the first place." he closed his eyes again, but he knew that if he wouldn't explain, it might be all over between him and Kai

"Because I don't still know if you are serious with me. I mean, if it wasn't an accident that we met, you could have planned god knows what. And last night, I saw you there with pretty girls and..." Kai smirked a little

"And you got jealous."

"Yeah" he said quietly. He heard Kai breath out then get up from the bed.

"If you don't believe me, I have no way to make you trust me. It wouldn't make difference what I say, if you don't trust my words"

"I want to trust you. It's just...my friends keep warning me about you, and you are so secretive." he was glad that the cloth was over his eyes, he couldn't dare to look Kai now, and it was easier to talk without eye contact, the red eyes were so intoxicating.

"If you can't handle not knowing everything, this will never work"

"I don't...I don't mind secrets. But can you promise they aren't bad ones?" there was a silence. Then the cloth was lifted from his eyes, and he stared into the beautiful red eyes that had that little glow in them again.

"I can promise you that. Whatever it is that I am not telling, it is nothing that could hurt you." Kai gave him a soft kiss on the lips before straightening up "you better rest now, I bet after all the throwing up you are pretty weak." just the mentioning of vomit made him feel worse. And the thought that he had puked in front of Kai was too embarrassing to deal right now. So he just nodded. Kai smirked at him, and went to the door. Before closing it after him, Kai turned to look at him "Just to say, and so you know, you are the first one who has been in my apartment. And those girls were my cousins, visiting me from Russia" then Kai shut the door, leaving him alone with the info. Damn, he thought before falling back asleep. If I would be okay, I would ask about that, and I could think about it some more. But he could do that later, now he just wanted to sleep.

*cough* my reason for this is that I wanted to give my precious met something. and the level of this is because I am feeling a bit disoriented. thanks for reading XD