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A/N: I do not have a Beta and I'm too lazy to read over my work. So, sorry in advance for what I'm sure will be numerous grammatical mistakes and probably some missing/wrong words in several places.
My last day as a human was the best day I had ever had. I was sure that I might regret not being able to do anything outside of the house, but at the time, it was the best thing ever. I had spent all day lounging in my pajamas while cuddling with the three Denali blondes.
I couldn't call them the Denali sisters anymore, not since I was starting to feel so strongly for them. I knew that they didn't mind being called sisters. In fact, they actually liked it because to them it meant that others saw them as a real family. At least, that's how the used to think when they had first started to be called sisters when Sasha was still alive. Since Sasha's death though, the blondes see being called sisters as a sort of memorial to their 'mother'; hence why they didn't mind. Being called sisters reminded them of being with Sasha and they liked it. They wouldn't admit it because they weren't very fond of talking about Sasha, but I knew that was the reason.
Carmen and Eleazar had spent some time with us, but they had mostly left the blondes and me alone. I had invited them to stay and watch a movie with us a couple times, but they only stayed for a little bit saying that the time before I was changed should be spent with my mates and that after I'm changed, I can bond with the Spanish couple.
Instead of eating some extravagant foods that I would eat on special occasions like for my birthday or something, I ate all junk food. I decided not to eat a single healthy thing. I had chips, candy, soda, pizza, cookies and lots of other things that would have made me feel really guilty eating but since I was going to be changed soon, I didn't care. I didn't eat a lot, but I definitely ate unhealthy and I loved it.
By the time it was time for bed, I was feeling content and even a little excited for the following day. Don't get me wrong, I was still terrified about the pain I would soon be facing. But after spending time with the blondes, I found I really wanted to be changed. I wanted to be a vampire so that it would finally be assured that I wouldn't die from old age. I knew it was a silly thing to fear, but that fear had still carried over from being with Edward. It wasn't nearly as strong as from when I had been with Edward, but until I was changed, the thought was still in the back of my mind.
"Do you still want to change after you wake up?" Kate asked as I slipped into the bed upstairs. I would sleep in our real room tonight and then tomorrow morning, after I had woken up, I would move to the room downstairs.
"Yeah." I said as I made myself comfortable on the bed. Irina and Tanya were making themselves busy with making sure everything was ready. They knew it was, but they were antsy and I had requested just Kate being with me for my last night. I was hoping her goofy attitude would help keep my nerves down. "If I wait after I'm awake I'm afraid I'll start to be too afraid to be changed even though I basically have no choice." I admitted.
"You don't want to be changed?" Kate asked as she stood on the side of my bed. I grabbed her hand and pulled her into bed with me so that I could cuddle with her. I figured since I've been cuddling with them all day, it wouldn't be any different to cuddle with them at night. Plus, it was my last night as a human, I wanted to know what it felt like to sleep next to someone all night and then wake up to them in the morning.
"I do." I quickly said. "I really do. I'm just afraid of how much it will hurt." I said as Kate wrapped her arms around me and spooned me.
"I'm afraid there's nothing I could say that would make that better." Kate said as she pulled me tightly against her. "But, I can tell you that while you're a newborn you'll be the strongest one around here and for once it will be you that will have to watch their strength."
"Will I really be that much stronger?" I asked.
"Oh yeah." Kate said. "It's going to make sex a rough experience; but our vampire side tends to like that. At least, we like it."
Feeling my face flush made me more excited to be changed so that I will never blush again.
"I can't wait till I can't blush anymore." I said in a wishful voice.
"I don't." Kate said. "I like seeing you blush; it amuses me."
"Of course it would amuse you." I retorted. "You're a bully." I said in a near whisper. I was getting tired and having Kate cuddling me made me very relaxed and helped to get me to fall asleep. With Kate behind me, I could finally understand why so many people loved to fall asleep with their partner. It was amazing.
"I'm your personal bully." Kate said, lowering her voice to match mine but not dropping her teasing tone. "Feel free to punish me in any way fit."
"I should kick you out of my bed." I mumbled with a smile. I knew having Kate with me on my last night was a good idea.
"The jokes on you Bella." Kate said. "I bought the bed, so its' mine and you can't kick me out of it."
"Wouldn't dream of it."
Kate didn't say anything else after that and I didn't bother to say anything either. It didn't take much longer for me to fall asleep after that.
I woke up next to Kate and I could almost feel tears in my eyes. It was the first and last morning that I would ever wake up in one of their arms. I was almost tempted to ask for a few more days before I'm changed so that I could feel waking up in Tanya and Irina's arms as well. But, if I started to procrastinate I could end up procrastinating so much that the Volturi may visit before I'm changed. I couldn't risk that.
"Good morning." Kate said as soon as I was awake.
"Morning."
"Are you ready?" She asked as she held me just a bit tighter.
"As read as I'll ever be."
"We'll just keep to your plans then." Kate said as she got out of the bed and started to walk to my side of the bed. "I'll meet you downstairs after you've changed." Without hesitating, Kate walked up to me, leaned down and gave me a quick kiss. It wasn't meant to be anything but reassuring and it worked. With a small smile, she walked out of the room.
I had decided that since all of the Denali's had warned that it was a high possibly that the first set of clothes I woke up in would end up being destroyed, I decided to change into clothes that would be okay if they were destroyed. I ended up with a shirt and yoga pants from Irina that she said she was planning on giving away anyways so it would be okay for me to wear and then probably destroy.
I climbed out of bed and got ready for my change. As much as I could at least. It took about a half hour before I finally managed to make my way to the room I would be in for the foreseeable future while I was a newborn and still learning to control my strength. Before I got to what would be my new bedroom, I found Carmen and Eleazar waiting outside the room.
"Hi guys." I awkwardly greeted, more than nervous about what was about to happen. Carmen immediately went up to me and wrapped me into a hug.
"You'll be fine Bella." Carmen said into my ear. "Once it's over, you'll never have to go through pain like that again. You'll have eternity with us. Just do your best to keep that in mind." Carmen let me go just as tears started to come to my eyes. Eleazar was quick to wrap me into his arms as well.
"It will be hard, but before you are changed and as the change is starting, stay focused on your mates." Eleazar recommended. "Scream as loud as you can and don't feel afraid to fight the fire. Your mates will be there to fight with you and make sure you come out on top."
"Thank you." I said with strong emotion.
I already knew that screaming would help as a release. It would be a way to vent my pain. We both knew there was no way to fight the fire; the fire would do what it wanted to do and wouldn't listen to me. What Eleazar was telling me was that it was okay to do anything I thought would help me with dealing with the fire. There really wasn't anything I could do, but there was some. I was told that I may end up flailing around in vain attempts to stop the fire. Because of that, my mates would keep me still so that I wouldn't hurt myself or break anything prematurely. They were hoping to have nothing break before I woke up as a newborn. He was basically telling me to do whatever I thought would help me and my mates would be by my side to make sure nothing bad happened.
"We'll see you when you wake up." Carmen said as Eleazar released me from the hug. Without glancing at the two again, I walked into the room and closed the door.
The plan was to keep the door leading into the rest of the house closed and the door leading outside open. That was done in hopes that I would run outside if I felt the need to run instead of into the house and possible, or probably, destroy something in the house. The goal when I first woke up was to minimize the possible destruction as much as possible.
"I'm glad I didn't throw those clothes away." Irina said when I walked into the bare room. "You look good in my clothes." She said with a smile that was probably a bit more predatory than the situation called for.
"Any last moment requests?" Tanya said as she walked over to me and wrapped her arm around my shoulders. She led me to the bed because even though she had asked if I wanted anything, she knew I wouldn't ask for anything. I didn't want to procrastinate.
"No." I said as Tanya unnecessarily helped me lay down on the bed.
It had previously been decided who would bite where. Irina, who hadn't changed anyone, would bite me in the coveted area above my heart. Tanya, who had bit Kate above her heart, and Kate, who had bit Irina above her heart, would bite my wrists. That was something the three had worked out because I honestly hadn't cared too much; all I wanted was to have all three of them bite me.
"Are you ready dear?" Tanya asked once I was laying down and the blondes were surrounding me.
"Yes." I said, my voice wavering in slight fear.
Irina, who was closest to my head, cupped my cheek and leaned in just a little closer to me.
"We'll be here the whole time." Irina promised. "Don't be afraid to reach out for us."
I only nodded my head in response as the women prepared to bite me. My wrists were already bare, but Irina had to lower the t-shirt I was wearing. Thankfully it was a really big with a large neckline, so it wasn't too difficult to move. Irina also had no problem tearing it to move it out of her way. It had been recommended to not wear a bra so that Irina could be a little less evasive as she prepared to bite me. I wasn't sure if I was regretting that or not.
Once all three had their spots were clear and ready to be bitten, the each took one last look at me and I made eye contact with each of them before they bent down and bit in me.
The first thing I felt was their teeth smoothly going into me. It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would, but it definitely still caused my instincts to kick in and try to pull away. Of course, when I did try to pull away, I didn't move at all. In fact, since I only tried to move my hands away, Tanya and Kate had given what could only have been a warning growl to let me know not to move away. Not long after I heard them growl, I could feel their venom start to go into effect. I could feel the burning sensation as the venom crawled further into my body.
I wasn't sure how long it took for them to stop filing my body with their venom, but I could tell when they released me because it felt a small relief from them releasing their grips. The small relief though, was quickly taken over by the burning sensation that was taking over my body.
Subconsciously I knew that it had only been three days of being burned alive. I knew it couldn't have been the years I had thought it had been. By the time I felt the fire receding from my limbs and focusing on my heart, I was sure decades had gone by. I wasn't sure why I thought of it, but I started to focus on anything but the fire that was focusing on my heart. I don't recall my hand moving, but when I thought of clutching my chest, my hand was instantly there. The faster my heart beat, the louder the beating became, the harder I clutched at my chest to make it stop.
Within minutes of clutching my chest, my heart was beating so hard that I thought it was a humming birds' wings beating instead of my heart. No sooner did I make that comparison did I hear my heat beat its' last.
After my hearts final beat, I stopped clutching my chest but didn't move my hand away from my chest. I froze in my spot and took in my surroundings. With my eyes closed, I could still make out my surroundings. I could hear sounds that sounded miles away. I could hear the wind and the insects' wings beating. I could hear an animal, an elk I believe, eating. It was hearing that creature eating that made me open my eyes. I couldn't smell it, but just hearing it made my throat burn in threat of overtaking me. I felt an overwhelming need to find the eating elk and cure my burning throat.
I opened my eyes so I could move to get the elk that held so much promise. The first thing I saw was a plain white ceiling. I tilted my head as a feeling of something missing over took me. I sat up, much faster than I had intended, and made eye contact with three females. I couldn't recall who they were, but I knew they were much stronger and older than they appeared.
Without telling my body to do it, I was up and crouching in the corner of the room that was next to the bed I had been in. I moved my hand to the wall to brace myself and felt the wall crumble under my fingertips. I felt myself snarl in warning at the three women. I wasn't sure what I was warning them against, but I did.
The middle blonde took a step forward and I growled at her specifically. She had an air of authority about her that I didn't like.
"You do not growl at us Bella." The woman ordered, which I didn't like. So I growled again. "You need to calm down Bella. You know who we are." She took another step forward and I growled again.
"Bella, look at us." One of the other blondes said. "You know who we are."
I looked closer at the three women and I couldn't place who they were, but I figured one thing: they were mine. There was no question in my mind that they were mine. All three of them were mine. I felt my snarled mouth move into a predatory smirk.
"That look seems promising." The final blonde said with a smirk.
"Mine." I nearly yelled as I bolted faster than I thought I would towards the blonde that had taken a few steps closer to me. Because I was expecting to move as fast as I did, when I collided into her, it was more like I had tripped into her. I saw a moment of shock cross her face because she caught me in mid trip. I took advantage of that and tackled her onto the ground where I could straddle her.
I felt the other two blonds move as if to get me off the blonde, off of Tanya, but Tanya stopped them.
"It's fine." She quickly said, not breaking eye contact from me. "What are you thinking Bella?"
"Tanya." I said with a growl as I felt my hips thrust forward at finally realizing my mates name and from having her willing underneath me. "Mine."
"Yes yours." Tanya said as she licked her lips.
My mind recognized that action as an invitation to move in. So with speed that once again surprised me, I moved to attach my lips to hers. Thoughts raced through my mind of what I was intending to do to Tanya. There were so many things that I wanted to do and I knew that it take a long time to do it all. I was more than willing to take as much time as I needed to do what I wanted and I was confident that Tanya didn't mind me taking control of her body.
When my mouth was just a breath away from hers, a smell immediately caught my attention. The smell made me pause and I couldn't help but focus all my attention on what it was I smelled. Even Tanya closing the small gap between us couldn't fully take my attention away from the smell. Because I didn't want my mate to think I was ignoring her, I greedily attacked her lips and held nothing back. But, the smell was getting stronger and I couldn't keep away from it anymore.
I bolted from Tanya, not bothering to even give her a regretful look as I ran off. I hadn't thought it at the time, but I was thankful that the door was open and I was fortunate enough to run through it. Unfortunately I wasn't right on par with my speed and accidently hit the edge of the door and knocked it off. I didn't pay it any heed as I chased after the delicious smell.
"I knew she'd hit it." Kate yelled as the three women chased me.
I was torn between rounding back on them because I didn't want to be chased, I wanted to chase them because I knew I was faster and stronger than them, but the smell was getting more and more enticing as I got closer to it. It took just another minute or two before the elk was in sight.
"It would be better and less messy if you attack from the side." Irina suggested as we ran.
"It's mine." I responded as I pounced on the elk head on. True to what Irina said, I ended up biting at an awkward angle. It wasn't until I was done draining it that I realized she was right and I had gotten blood over me. I didn't bother paying too much thought into it because I could smell more prey. My throat was still burning and I had to quench it.
After I had taken out several other animals, my throat still burned but it was something that I could at least try to ignore. Plus, with my memories back, I knew that my mates were waiting to see how I would react to them. I had sensed them following me the entire time I had hunted. They hadn't gotten too close in case I thought they might have been trying to take my kill from me, but there were always within sight. Since I was done eating though, I had an overwhelming need to mark my mates. I had to mark them; make sure they knew they were mine. It was an overwhelming primal need to mark them and now that I wasn't being overtaken by thirst for blood, I wanted to mark them. I turned to face them and gave them a feral grin.
"What, now that you're not hungry you expect us to just drop our pants for you?" Kate asked in a teasing tone.
I didn't bother to answer, instead I used my speed and strength to my advantage. I moved as fast as I could and tackled Kate to the ground. Because I wasn't used to my speed or strength yet, I accidently knocked her through a tree before I got us to the ground with Kate on her back.
"You don't need to drop anything." I remarked as I started to rip her clothes off. I barely registered that the clothes she had been wearing, that all three of them had been wearing, were clothes that had seen better days and were probably close to being given or thrown away.
"No, no I don't." She agreed just before I greedily attached my lips to hers.
"Mine." I growled as I started to kiss down her throat.
"All yours." Kate moaned as my head continued to descend down her body.
I felt Kate's fingernails scratch my back and effectively tear my shirt. At the same time, I roughly grabbed Kate's chest in a very possessive manner and growled when Kate moaned at the contact. My mouth had just gotten to the top of Kate's pants and I was about to tear them off, when I felt Tanya and Irina kneel down next to me.
"Remember my dear, you have three mates." Tanya purred. "Not just one."
"You have to divide your attention." Irina purred into my other ear. "And we would love to teach you how."
I felt Tanya and Irina both rip my clothes off of me and the last thought I remember having prior to my instincts taking over was that I was going to make them mine.
A/N: Just a heads up, there's only going to be one, maybe, but not likely, two more chapters before this story is finished.