A/N : English is not my native language, I'm sorry for grammatical error.
Cristina trying to sleep, but she can't, her mind went to Seattle, she miss Meredith and Owen so much, she wonder if she overreact of this all occasion, Owen mother just died, Meredith lost her funding, she suppose to be there for them not leaving them this way, but they hurt her is so much, she so confuse, tears just fall from her eyes, then Izzie suddenly comes, "Cristina", she give her a tissue, "what happen with you? Tell me".
Cristina took the tissue, Cristina start sobbing, "I miss Owen and Meredith", "if you miss them so much, why you leave them in first place?".
"because they want me to disappear from their life, they say my existence only make their life worst". "what? I don't get it, you have to tell me from the beginning Cristina". "just few month after I married with Owen two years ago, I got pregnant, I didn't want to have a child, but he did, I make appointment to terminate the baby without his consent, he so upset, but he keep accompany me when I terminate the baby, he still can't accept that I kill his baby, he cheat on me, then the plane crashes happen, I leave him to mayo, but after my mentor die I come back to Seattle, then we get divorce, our relationship get better after that, but then I realize I never good enough for him, he want a child, that something I can't give him, so I let him free, he date another woman, he so happy with her, they perfect for each other, I can't lie, that's hurt me because I love him so much, I can accept that all, as long Owen happy, I'm happy for him, but then last week his mom admit to hospital she got brain hemorrhage, she didn't survive, then Owen shout me, he said that I ruin him, I ruin his life, he want me to disappear from his life and then Meredith, since she have bailey, her second child, she being different, its start when I say she lack in focus being surgeon because she have to take care two baby, she start being competitive with me, until she lost his research funding, I try my best to be supportive friend, but she only say, seeing me make her feeling worst about herself". Cristina continue her sobbing, "they both are two most important people my life Izzie, but now for them I'm nothing".
"Okay, stop it Cristina, enough with the cry, they don't deserve your tears, don't you realize, you don't have anything left there, you even not in their life anymore, you look pathetic crying for them like this".
Cristina shock hearing Izzie word, "Cristina yang I know, is not like this, you are the most heartless and mean person I have ever met, come on Cristina you are better than this, for this long I hate seeing your arrogant and mean attitude, but now, I realize I hate you more when I see you whine like this, you are amazing doctor, the youngest doctor have ever win Harper Avery, you have bright future ahead, besides you are not alone anymore, you have me now, so this is will be the last time I saw you cry for them, okay".
Cristina smile hearing Izzie word, "okay I promise, Izzie would you accompany me sleep just for tonight?, she give space for Izzie to sleep beside her, "okay, I'll be your Meredith 2.0 only for tonight" Izzie chuckling, then sleep beside Cristina, she hold Izzie arm, then in fifteen minute she fall asleep.
Izzie get from the bed, then she take cristina phone from the drawer, she take her phone out from the room, then turn it on, she has 49 voice mail, Izzie delete all of them, she knew what she did is wrong, but she knew, it all for Cristina courtesy, after that she return her phone to drawer.
Meredith sitting by herself in her bed room, tears keeps falls from her eyes, her heart full with regret, she lose part of herself, she keep trying to call Cristina, but she only get voice mail, then Derek comes, after put bailey and Zola on the bed, Derek pull her on his chest, he try to comfort her, she start sobbing again "I'm really horrible person, I'm the one who make her leaves, last word I said to her is seeing her make me feel worst about myself, I really hurt her Derek, what I have done, I'm so worry about her Derek". "There nothing we can do anymore Meredith, maybe it's better for her to leave, she being outcast for this long, even you are not comfortable with her anymore lately, just let her leave Meredith". Hearing Derek word make Meredith want to punch his face, she out from the bed, then went to kitchen, she need tequila, while drink she realize, nobody in this world understand her like Cristina, she just losing her soul mate, then she start sobbing again.
Owen went to Alex house, to check Cristina, he still don't believe that her leave, when he go up stair he only found empty bed, then he go to fire house, he also found the same, no more Cristina stuff in that house, but then he see set a paper on the table, he took it, its house certificate and letter for him, " I leave this house for you, this is the last thing I can give for you, I'm sorry that I ruin your life, I never mean it, I love you so much, please be happy with Emma, I'll disappear from now, take care Owen". He shaking read the letter, he realize now that Cristina really leave, he star sobbing in the bed, until he fall asleep for the first time since his mother die, when he wake on the morning, he promise himself that he will find Cristina, he will fight for her, all the thing happen make him realize there no woman in this world make him happy besides her.