A/N: English is not my native language, i'm sorry for grammar error
It's 2 pm Cristina sleep peacefully on William embrace, his pager buzzing, he try to take his arm carefully from her head so Cristina didn't wake up, he kiss her forehead before leave to ER, Cristina wake up just after William walk out from her room, she regretting with what happen before, she know she suppose to reject him, this all too soon and she didn't feel the same way with him, but it feel so right when he kiss her lips, Cristina call her mom to pick her up, she want to discharge from hospital soon as possible.
Cristina just silent on her way to home, her mom keep nagging to her because she to reckless about her own health, after get clean and eat, Cristina went to her room to take a rest, her phone ring.
its Izzie, "yes, what's up Izzie?", " I just heard you get faint in OR, are you okay? Where are you now? ".
"I'm fine Izzie, my mother pick me up, I'm home now, Dr Ally said I just exhausted, nothing to worry about",
"thank's god, I'm so worry about you", "Izzie, can I ask you about Dr William?", "about what Cristina?", "anything you know about him, you been work with him almost four years".
"well, he is divorce with his wife two years ago, since then I didn't see him with any woman, surgery is his life, he is really devoted to work just like you but minus the rudeness, and heartless, he nice to all doctor and staff, but I think he also didn't socialize enough in this hospital, you know, he is busy as chief, his research and the patient, but since you were here he little bit different, he cared about you, I think he is like you Cristina, do you like him? I can match you with him", Izzie laugh,"no, Izzie, I want take rest now, bye" she hung up.
At eight pm William go to Cristina room but he only find empty room, he ask the nurse in that floor, she said that Cristina already go home since this afternoon, he wonder why Cristina didn't call him when she left, he so busy since afternoon, VIP patient has been admitted he is one of house of representative of Ohio, he got atherosclerosis, actually doctor in this hospital can handle that case, but the patient family insist for his private doctor to come to do the Surgery, he approve it because there nothing he can do except provide the facility, he call Cristina few times but she didn't pick up, he assume she already sleep. Then he went to his room.
Cristina just stare to her phone, William called for few times, but she don't want to pick up, she not ready, she feel guilty because give him false alarm, it's all not right and not fair for him.
William busy sign the paper in front him, someone knock on his door, "welcome Dr Burke, it's long flight from Cleveland to los angles", "thank you Dr William, yes, but this patient is really close with me, besides I used get case like this with my private patient", "okay then, I'll bring you to the patient room", after checking the patient burke said that he will do the surgery tomorrow morning, he have to catch a flight at 2 pm.
Cristina wake up in morning, she can't sleep well, she thought about William, she need talk to him, before it gone too far, after breakfast she planning what will she say to him, then she go to hospital at noon, she walk to William room.
"Thank you so much for your help Dr Burke"," you welcome Dr William, I'm sorry, I have to leave soon, I have other appointment with my other patient in Cleveland this night, so I leave my patient to you, he is stable after the surgery", "okay then we will follow up about his condition to you latter", then he walk out from William room.
"Cristina", "Burke", "what you doing here, I thought you're in London, and you are pregnant?, Oh my god, I can't believe it" , Burke is really shock. Then Cristina walk to him then hug him," I miss you too". "I still have few minute to get coffee with you, let's go to café", burke take Cristina hand with him, William watch the entire scene from his room.
Burke order a coffee for him and tea for Cristina, he put drinks on the table, "so, don't tell me you screw with your boss one more times", "ha, it's funny" Cristina answer sarcastically, "but, it's kind a true, or not".
"come on Cristina, don't tell me it's your ex-husband", Cristina shock with burke word, but she try to cover it, "no, It's not, there no father, it just me and my baby, I move here so I can live with my mother to help me through it all" while caress her belly.
"okay then, does anybody tell you that you look so lovely when you pregnant , I'm so proud and happy for you Cristina, if you need my help for anything please just call me" while put his hand on her, but she take her hand from him, "thank you, I really appreciate it, burke", burke can understand how hard this all for her, he really want to help her, but he don't know what to do. He checks his watch, he need to go now, or he'll miss his flight, he hugs her tightly before said good bye to Cristina.
After seeing Cristina hugging Burke in front of his rooms, William go to ER, he looking for Izzie, he can't help his curiosity about Cristina and Burke, he saw Izzie sit in ER station, "Dr Steven, do you know, what relation between Cristina and Dr Burke?", Izzie little surprise with his question but she answer right away "about five or six years ago they have engaged, then Burke left her in the aisle, and actually I think Burke is nice to everybody , he just mean to Cristina", "okay, thank you for the information Dr Steven" then William just left her, "you welcome", Izzie answer with wondering.
William searching for Cristina, he saw Burke hug Cristina before leaving, she just sit in café drink her tea, William take sit in front of her, Cristina let deep sigh seeing William in front of her, "I called you last night, but u didn't pick up my call".
"yeah sorry, that's why I'm here, I looking for you, then I met my mentor on the way", "your mentor?", William little bit upset because she lied, "actually he is also my ex fiancé, he leave me on the aisle, but I already get over it, we just friend now, and this is why I want to talk with you, you don't know me at all, Jason".
William feel relieve Cristina speak honest to him "no, I know you for more than three month Cristina", " no, you don't, you only know, a pregnant me, me with unstable emotion and hormonal pregnant woman, this all not me, the real me is rude, mean, and heartless, in my life my job is everything for me, my life is so complicated, I'm complicated woman, you will not fall for me when you see the real me".
That's why I fell in love with you, we are in same page, surgery is our passion, our life, my ex-wife will never left me, if she understand that, I understand you, and I believe you will understand me too, and we still have lot of time to know each other in the future, I remember when you said you become surgeon because of your father, I want you to hear my story, I get liver cancer when I'm seventeen, my family has hemochromatosis genes, my grandfather died with heart failure because of it when he is forty five , my dad died with cancer liver when he is forty two , and me when seventeen years old dying, thank god I get perfect liver transplant in right time, I live healthy since then, I know how it feeling when you dying, then I promises to myself that I will help to save live in future, people expecting doctor like us will end up life with loneliness when we die, there is no family because we just spent our life in OR, I don't want fulfill their expectation, I believe that if we try we can have both family and career, one thing you should know, you are perfect for me Cristina.
But it's all not fair for you, I carry somebody else baby, if we force it all we just end up hurting each other in future.
"I don't have any plan to hurt you now and in future, I just want you to let me to love you, I'll be glad if you let me be father of your son, I always want to be a father, but I will be really selfish if I force to have my own child because the bad genes I carried, I know how hard all the radiation, chemo, and surgery during my teenager, time where I suppose to enjoy my life, but I'm not, I almost kill myself because I can't held that's all, I don't force you to love me, or to answer my feeling for you now, please just give me chance, I'll prove that I will be the right man for you", his pager buzz, "I have to go now, please consider about what we talk before" then he stand kiss Cristina hair.
Cristina watch him leave, she caress her belly, "please tell me what to do baby, mommy have no idea what to do", then she felt the kicking on her belly, Cristina smile.
A/N: i really want to say thank you for all the review and comment on my fanfiction, it motivated me to write new chapter ^_^