A/N: Sherry's my girl.

A big shout to my fangirlin Dee as well.

Chapter 20

I was wrong running did tire me out, especially when we were running for days on end. When Edward had said, it would take us several days to reach 'home' I had never imaged that we would be traveling quite like this, with Alice hanging onto Jasper's back as the three of us sprinted across the country.

When we made camp that night Edward had announced that we only had about a day to go. It was around that time that I started to feel sick. I had no idea what awaited me in this place or what my life would entail once we got there.

I still wasn't exactly sure I wanted to go 'home', especially when Edward wasn't being straight with me. I knew he was still hiding something. I just didn't know what. I had been trying to squeeze information out of him for days, maybe even a clue, but he wasn't giving me anything.

"So, when you told Paul to go and tell the others that I was awake," I said as I kicked at the dirt with my boot. "I had thought that meant they were coming to the warehouse or that they were close by, not this far away."

Edward shook his head. "No, the pack has always been in La Push. That was just my way of getting rid of Paul."

"But why would you want rid of him? You said that he liked me, he just acted that way because that was the way he was."

"It is … I just thought it would be a good idea for the others to know that we had found you, and you were awake and I didn't want him scaring you."

"He lied to you, you know. When he said, I had just woke up … I had been awake for hours, going out of my mind and he wouldn't speak to me. He just kept staring at me like he wanted to eat me or kill me."

Edward growled. "No, I didn't know. I'll speak to him when we return."

"Are you still adamant that he likes me?"

"Yes."

"You're lying."

"That's enough Bella. Drop the subject."

"No."

"Yes," he snarled, his eyes glowing blue.

"God, I hate when you do that. What is up with that mind control shit?" I hissed.

Jasper laughed from the other side of the fire. "He's the alpha, your alpha. All the members of the pack have to obey his command. It's ingrained into our genes."

"Yeah, well it's getting old," I muttered under my breath as I got up and headed towards my makeshift bed.

It was hard only having a few memories to go on, remembering that you loved someone, but not actually being in love with that person. I was struggling to understand why I had chosen to be with Edward, and his behaviour wasn't exactly helping. He was so defensive, so distant.

Why?

What was he hiding?

He had spent two years looking for me. Did he begrudge that time or was I a disappointment to him?

After all, I was no longer the woman he loved. I had changed. I was broken, possibly beyond repair.

Did he hate me now?