Chapter 23
Edward spent the full night with me, guarding me. His presence angered me and calmed me, all at the same time. I hated that he had kept so many things from me, and I hated that he controlled me, but at the same time I knew he was the only one who could keep me calm.
I wasn't sure if I could live with myself if I had got out and hurt innocent people or at worst my son. I knew the monster inside of me wasn't willing to listen to reason. She wanted blood. She wanted flesh. She wanted to kill, and if she was left loose there was nothing that would stop her.
At some point during the night when the pull of the moon began to fade I passed out, drifting off into dreamland and another memory.
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"I want you to change me," I said rolling onto my stomach to face Edward.
He sighed, tucking a strand of hair behind my hair. "No, it's too much of a risk."
I knew that was what he was going to say, it was what he always said.
"I'm a Druid living with a pack of wolves, a pack of wolves who hate Druids. You have to change me."
"You can be our Emissary."
"Your people don't want an Emissary, not after everything that has happened. They don't trust the Druids and I don't wish to be an Emissary."
"It's out of the question. I won't change you."
"Fine, I'll find someone who will."
Edward growled. "No one would dare go against me."
I knew he was right.
"Fine then, I will just get rid of my powers. I will be defenceless to anyone who attacks. You will have no choice, but change me, unless you want me to get hurt or die."
Edward snarled. "You're not playing fair. You're being unreasonable."
"You're the one being unreasonable," I snapped getting of the bed and pulling on my clothes.
"I'll have you followed, watched, every moment of the day. If you're stupid enough to leave them, then I'll know where you put them and I'll force you to take them back."
I laughed. "You don't have enough men to have me constantly watched and in that one moment you aren't looking I will send them away."
Edward got off the bed and glared at me. "Why do you want this so much?"
"Because being with you is all I've ever wanted. You can't change who you are, but I can. I want to be just like you. I want to give you everything Edward, my love, my submission … a child. I want to carry your child Edward," I said as palmed my stomach. "I want your seed inside of me."
"I don't like it," Edward grumbled as he pulled his jeans on and stormed out of the den.
"An alpha needs an heir Edward and that heir needs to be a pure born, not a hybrid," I shouted after him, knowing that he could hear me. "Think about that."