Heyaa! I couldn't stop thinking about this fic even when i was at school so I'm really excited to update! I hope this chapter is to your liking because I'm still pretty hesitant because I dont know if it was good enough for you guys...
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I guess this chapter is building up to the climax so bear with me please! though im not sure where this is going...it seems abit angsty :|
I promise there's going to be fluff and stuff like that to make up for this in maybe the next few chapters :D
Near the end, try listening to "Krone" Guilty Crown on piano. I was listening to it, and i thought it went pretty well!
Disclaimer: I don't own Shingeki no Kyojin (as much as i'd like to)
"How...How do you know that song?"
These few words kept Eren up all night as he stared at the ceiling in distress. How Levi knew that song was a mystery to Eren. It was their song, yet the raven haired had refused to let anything be revealed.
Once again, Eren's heart began to throb painfully as his mind wandered to all the worst case scenarios he could ever think of.
What if he never remembers me...? What if he's straight and will never look at me in that way again?
Trembling in sadness, the next thought caused tears to continuously pour down the sides of his face.
What if...he already has a lover that has embraced him in the ways that i used to...?
Clutching his pillow, Eren's tear-stricken eyes shone with anger as he imagined that some other person besides him has touched Levi.
His Levi.
Nobody was allowed to touch Levi, he didn't care about the fact that the raven haired man did not remember him in this life, Eren would make him remember.
He didn't care if Levi would shake him off as a delirious man speaking of past lives, he would never stop chasing because the words that Levi had spoken before he died stuck to the brunette's mind and had never slipped his mind once. Their love in the past was strong enough to be carried onto the next life which proved that Eren had to do everything in his power to make it happen once more.
"I promise...I'll find you in the next life..."
Repeating those words in his mind, it was excruciating that Levi had forgotten all about it. But since Eren had not, he knew he had to do something about it. The brunette vowed that he would make the silver-eyed man remember even if it was the last thing he did.
Slipping away from reality, Eren clutched his pillow tighter wanting to once again feel the warmth of his lover.
Flashback
Standing at the doorway with wide eyes was Levi.
Even though most people would dismiss the ravenette's face as expressionless, Eren knew better than that. His face showed genuine shock.
It was something that he had only seen once and that was when the brunette unintentionally transformed into a titan during one of their heated make out sessions behind some big-ass trees.
Levi had bitten down on Eren's lip abit too hard because the brunette denied him entrance to his mouth as a form of teasing Levi. Granted, Levi was utterly shocked but most of all he was downright pissed because he was practically drowned in titan saliva.
Eren faintly smiled at the memory of the corporal kicking the absolute shit out of him only to extend a hand to help him up after his ass was covered in dirt.
Snapping back to reality at Levi's forced cough, Eren's heart began to beat loudly as he remembered his initial intention.
"You...You remember this..tune? His chest heaving with anticipation for an answer. The brunette really hoped that it would have sparked something in the male.
"...No" Levi responded after a moment of pause.
Eren knew better than to expect anything but actually confirming that Levi didn't remember their past really hurt.
I know he doesn't remember and i shouldn't be discouraged by this if i'm going to do everything to make him remember but how is that possible if he just asked me how i know this tune?
Taking a deep breath, Eren furiously tried to hold back the tears threatening to fall from his face.
Gathering up his emotions, the brunette answered in all honesty.
"I know this tune because...It was a tune i shared with...my lover" Emphasizing on the word 'lover', Eren noticed a slight change in the ravenette's face. It was a mix of confusion and denial.
Wanting to find out the source of Levi's expression, Eren held back his desire to fire countless questions. Instead, he took a deep breath and slowly approached the smaller male.
"Why did you ask me how i know this tune if you don't know it yourself...?"
And with that, Levi's emotionless facade painted itself over his face once again.
"Can't I be curious?" A hint of coldness in his voice was present.
"Yes you can but is...there anything, even if its the smallest thing, does this tune remind you...of anything?" Eren asked hesitantly, hoping that Levi would say the words that he wanted to hear.
"No it does not. Even if it did, why should i tell you? You are just a stranger that i happened to bump into today" The ravenette sighed in annoyance as he hated having to answer so many questions.
Eren didn't know if his heart could shatter anymore. If anything he felt right now, he felt purely heartbroken.
He knew that somewhere deep in his heart that he would receive these kinds of disappointments but it just hurt a lot more when it actually happened. The word stranger left the brunette in shock as he was utterly speechless and he didn't even care if his emotions were written all over his face because he was too hurt to care.
The two stood in silence for a while, both unsure as of what to do.
After what seemed to be an eternity of silence, Levi decided it was a waste of to be time standing around and decided to go.
"...tsk, I'll pay for the suit once I get back to my office. You'll receive a paycheck for it. What is your name? I need a name so i can address it to the right person"
A breath hitched before choking back muffled sobs, "Er...Eren, my name is Eren"
"Very well Eren, Expect that paycheck to be in your hands by tomorrow"
With that, he left Eren alone glimpsing at the brunette before catching him with fists clenched and chestnut coloured bangs covering his face.
Driving home in his chrome black Lamborghini Aventador, Levi gripped the driving wheel till his knuckles turned white.
Ever since he had heard that tune again, a migraine found itself embedded deep in his temples. It annoyed him to no end that he knew it wasn't going to stop soon because every time he had gotten it, it would always stay with him for a few days and medicine never worked it's magic like in advertisements.
It always happened whenever he felt like he was about to remember something important but never got to the point where he actually could.
Just vaguely, Levi knew he connected to the tune somehow, even if it was from a long time ago, but whenever he thought about it too much, he would black out.
Damn this shit fuck headache of mine! Argh! I'll just go home and clean or something to take my mind off things.
Reaching his parent's mansion, it was almost laughable at how pointlessly big it was. They were barely home anyway and he practically had it all to himself.
Reaching for his keycard, it suddenly felt his head was going to crack open as he briefly saw a flash of teal before the throbbing blanked out his mind.
Hastily sliding his card in the automatic lock, he heard the familiar click as the plated marble doors slid open.
The raven haired man noticed that one of the shelves in his lounge room had accumulated a thin layer of dust, but couldn't be bothered to clean amazingly due to the ridiculously painful migraine of his.
Ugh...I'll just get some rest for now, damn this piece of shit of a headache of mine! It's never been this bad before...!
Mumbling to himself, Levi took off his blazer and button up shirt to reveal finely toned abs. Folding them neatly, he placed them on a nearby stool as he snaked his way into his black sheets. Curling up into a fetus position, silver eyes clenched themselves shut desperately trying to ignore the pain and to hopefully fall asleep.
After a painfully long time, Levi felt himself slip away from reality.
"L-L-Levi...! No! Don't do this to me please...!" A familiar yet unrecognizable voice resounded in his ears.
Looking around groggily, Levi scanned his surroundings. It seemed to be covered in a white swirling layer of mist but he was able to make out that he was in a forest of some sort as he saw big-ass trees. Partially evaporating bones also scattered around the place as he suddenly felt pain in his head once more.
Where...where am I?
Why...do I feel like I know this place so well...? and...who do these hands belong to...?
Looking down at his own hands, he saw a pair clutching them and hanging on for dear life. Feeling a sharp pain in his side, Levi tried to yell and ask for answers but found that he could not speak or move as he was held down by some unknown force.
Slowly trailing his eyes up to the owner of the hands, he felt a surge of nostalgia as he looked at the person's chest. It seemed all too familiar but the ravenette couldn't figure out just what it was.
Lifting his head to look at the person's face, Levi found that the face was blacked out as if someone had used a paintbrush to swipe over it.
"Please...please don't leave me in this world...!" The voice sobbed furiously.
Leave you in this world? What is this person talking about? Am I going to die?
Looking up once more, he saw pained teal eyes.
Suddenly, feeling like his heart was ripping itself apart, Levi soundlessly screamed. Unsure of why this was happening, he felt like this emotion was all too familiar.
His heart was shattering, not out of disappointment but out of sadness.
But why am i feeling so sad? Have i forgotten something...? It feels really...important...
Feeling himself fade away from the scene, Levi found himself mouthing "I love you...never forget that..."
Jolting awake, silver eyes found tears falling uncontrollably. Touching his tear-stricken face, Levi had never felt so hurt before in his life. There was no attempt made to stop the tears as they fell effortlessly from the ravenette.
Just a few heartbeats away, Eren found himself waking up in tears once more.
The night was young and the two men filled the night with muffled sobs and a broken heart.
The two looked out of their window, not knowing that the gears of fate have already been set in motion.
OKAY IM SORRY, i feel like i dragged this on but i don't want it to be shallow and get to a happy ending so fast because...well actually my inspiration comes from my dream and it was hella sad.
BUT I PROMISE THERE WILL BE FLUFF SOON! and not so much angsty stuff!
The next chapter i promise that it will be the meeting and that's where everything starts to move faster
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