A/N: For once I didn't take like a month to update! Be proud of me! I deserve a reward (preferably reviews) for this! You're lucky I got it out this early because I was thinking about letting you wait for a few more days. But I am on such a writing streak right now that I couldn't wait! Please enjoy!

Disclaimer: I, Onyx Maxwell, do not own Vampire Kisses.

Alexander's POV

For as long as I could remember I always paced when I was worried or upset. This time was no exception. I traveled back and forth in the foyer of the mansion in front of the large wooden doors.

After the incident with my parents yesterday, I didn't get much sleep, worrying about Raven and how I had lied to her. After waking up I was shocked to hear that she had not come home yet from school. I knew that Dullsville High's school day ended at 3:30 and it was now 6:30. That's three hours! What could she possibly be doing? I had called her multiple times but there was never an answer.

Mid-stride, I heard the door creak open and my girlfriend stepped into the mansion.

"Hey Alexa-" she started.

"Raven!" I came to stand in front of her. My worry was replaced with anger I had no idea was there ."Where have you been? Jameson went to pick you up after school and you weren't there! It's been an hour since sunset and you haven't been answering your cell phone."

The smile vanished from her face and she appeared to be startled.

"I went to Hatsy's Diner with Becky after school. It's been a while since we've had some girl time to ourselves so we stayed for a while. Why are you so angry?"

She left me waiting for her, worried sick, for girl time? "Because I didn't know where you were! You were supposed to come back her with Jameson after school. I had no idea what had happened to you." I began to pace once again. "I shouldn't even let you go to school anymore."

"Let me go to school? Who do you think you are? You're not my father and you certainly don't have the right to tell me what to do. I don't have to check with you everywhere I go!"

Some how that infuriated me even more. I didn't know where all this anger was coming from, but suddenly words were just pouring out of my mouth. That is, until I said the one thing I regret saying the most.

"I didn't even want any of this in the first place anyway!"

That statement wiped away the emotions on Raven's face only to replace them with pure bewilderment.

All of my anger disappeared when I realized what I had said to her.

"Raven, I-"

She cut me off once the most hurt expression I had ever seen took over her beautiful face. "well I didn't know you felt that way… I'm sorry." with that she spun on her heel and sprinted out of the mansion. As she ran down to the gates I called her name repeatedly but to no avail. Eventually I just couldn't see her anymore.

I knew that if I followed her now she would just become even more upset. At least I liked to think I knew that. It was mostly because I couldn't believe what I had just said to her that I didn't follow.

A few minutes later Jameson walked up to where I stood in the still-open doorway.

"Master Alexander, did I just see Miss Raven running down the road?"

It took a moment for me to respond. "Yes. She ran from me."

This was what I had always been afraid of. My biggest fear since I meet Raven was that she would run away from me. Though I always assumed it would have something to do with me being a vampire and the monster I was. Not because of the most untrue statement slipping from my mouth.

Because it was completely untrue. "I didn't want any of this in the first place anyway." What did that even mean? That I didn't want the baby? Or did it go as far back as that I never wanted to meet her?

The thought of either of them made my heart ache and a lump form in my throat. Imagining my life without meeting Raven was like living without blood- I couldn't.

Though I knew I couldn't run after her, I still had to make sure she was safe. So I pulled out my cell phone- the one I'd gotten specifically with Raven in mind- and called Becky.

"Hello?"

"Hi, Becky? It's Alexander. Do you know where Raven is?"

"Raven? No I haven't heard from her since I dropped her off ar your house. Why? Is something wrong? Is she okay?"

"Oh yes, she's fine. She just went for a walk and hasn't come back yet. I'm sure she's okay," I lied.

"Okay well I'll call you if I hear from her."

"Thanks Becky, bye."

"Bye."

I pressed the little red phone icon, ending the call.

Where could she have gone? She wouldn't possibly think of spending the night outside, by herself, would she? No, I decided. She may be reckless, but not that reckless. Raven wouldn't jeopardize our child's health like that, or her own for that matter.

So I was back at square one. The only other friends of hers that I knew of were Scarlet and Onyx, but they were in Hipsterville, too far away.

"Hey, did Raven ever come back?"

I turned around to see Sebastian walking up behind me, his hands stuffed in his pockets.

"Yeah, she did actually." I relayed my argument with my girlfriend to him and how I had called Becky but she wasn't there.

Sebastian contemplated this for a moment. "Well… what about her parents?"

"Her parents kicked her out three months ago."

He shrugged. "You never know.

My best friend was right. I dialed Raven's hold home number, anxiously waiting for someone to pick up.

"Hello?" A woman's voice answered.

"Hello, Mrs. Madison? It's Alexander Sterling…"

"Oh Alexander! I literally just got off the hone with Raven. She told me she was at Evan's Park and asked me to pick her up. She sounded really upset."

My heart broke at hearing that Raven was upset, and because of me no less. Though at the same time I was relieved that she wasn't alone and had somewhere to go, if not here.

"Oh thank God."

"Alexander, what exactly happened?"

I really didn't have the heart to tell my pregnant girlfriend's mother what I had said to her daughter so I took a deep breath and said. "Please just take care of her." with that I hung up.

Sebastian didn't follow me as I walked up the grand staircase and down the corridor, up to my attic room. Our attic room, Raven and mine's.

Immediately I went up to my easel and put a fresh, new canvas on it, placing the one I was working on aside.

Once I picked up my paint brush and color pallet, I couldn't stop. Even though I had absolutely no idea what I was painting, my hand continued to sweep across the canvas.

I was standing there for hours, letting my paintbrush flow on its own accord, slowly coloring in an unseen picture. In the meantime I thought. I thought about nothing and everything. I couldn't say what exactly ran through my mind, ad I didn't even know myself. All I know is that I had to get all my emotions on this one canvas.

Once the painting was finished I was completely exhausted. The sun was going to rise in about half an hour and that whole time I had stood there and painted. I'd never finished one in just a single night.

Stepping back to take a look at my artwork. I had to stifle a gasp. It wasn't what I expected, but it still made complete sense. My goal was to put all of my feelings on one canvas, and that's what I did.

It was a picture of Raven. Her skin was flawless and her jet-black hair smooth. She wore a black, lacy Victorian-style dress with long back gloves reaching her elbows. Resting at the base of her throat was the necklace I had once given her. The vampire's kiss.

She was looking down with soft eyes under her long lashes and a small smile gracing her black lips.

In her arms was a baby. She cradled it to her chest. All you could see of it was its pale skin and tufts of black hair. It was wrapped in a royal blue blanket so I assumed the baby was a boy. He was our son.

The painting was exactly what I was feeling. I had just lost the two things most important to me, more than my life. Raven and our baby.

And I didn't even know when-or if- I wouldn't ever get them back.

A/N: I figured that Alexander deserved to redeem himself for what he did. Obviously he's been very stressed and worried and sometimes you just crack under the pressure. I hope you liked it :D

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