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Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN VAMPIRE KISSES

I have always been patient. Even as a child, waiting never bothered me. But some situations seem to erase all of that patience from you and replace it with cold, dark anticipation.

After my conversation with Dr. Zaharu she sent me back to the depressing waiting room, telling me that they were going to run more tests and then move into at room in the ICU. I would be able to see Raven in about an hour.

Meanwhile I occupied the seat across from Mr. and Mrs. Madison. Their fingers were still laced together. After I told them the situation they just nodded solemnly and continued their silence.

It was hard seeing them and their depressed, worried expressions. I could barely stand knowing that I was the cause of all this. If I hadn't been so possessive she would never have gone home. Or even if I'd just told her the status of half-breeds from the start then we wouldn't have been so tense towards each other. Hell, if I just hadn't gotten her pregnant then everybody wouldn't be so miserable.

But did I really regret getting her pregnant? My whole life I always dreamt of having a family of my own, but I never believed it would actually happen. And even though it's a little early, I'm able to start a life with Raven. I know that Raven is going to make a wonderful mother. But, will I be suitable as a father? Would I even get the chance to be a father after this? Even though it was unexpected and has caused trouble for us, I didn't want our baby to die. I would never be able to live with myself if it did. I was already a horrible father before my child was even born.

I thought back to my argument with Raven. It's amazing how something so stupid could have led to all this. Why did I say that I wish nothing ever happened? That was the worst lie I'd ever told her. And even after the hundreds of times that I told her I loved her and our baby, she still believed that one statement. Did I not show my love for her enough? Did she still think the only reason I was with her was because of responsibility?

Suddenly a flash fro that night came back to me. When she walked thought the mansion doors, she looked so happy and was about to tell me something. But I never let her finish. What was she going to tell me? How many more mistakes will I make?

We moved to the ICU waiting room as the nurses set everything up for Raven in her room. Apparently there was a special hospital room just for vampire patients and visitors.

Almost exactly an hour after I last talked to her, Dr. Zaharu entered the room and walked toward us.

"She's been set up in her room and is still unconscious. I'm afraid we can only allow one visitor for tonight."

I kept my head down, looking at my hands in my lap. When I didn't hear anyone moving I looked up to see the three adults staring at me.

"You want me to go first?" I turned my attention to Raven's parents who nodded.

"Okay." I followed behind Dr. Zaharu who led me to a door at the end of the hallway.

"She's in there." With that, she left me to face this alone.

When I opened the door, I saw something I hope I never have to see again.

Raven lay on the hospital bed in the middle of the room. Somehow she looked even more sickly than when we brought her here. An IV was stuck into her arm and she had a small wire taped under her arm to help her breathe. There were two heart monitors beside her bed, one much fainter and a lot slower than the other. As I sat in a chair next to her, I could see the baby's heart monitor band wrapped around her belly from underneath the thin white sheet.

She appeared so frail that I was hesitant to touch her for fear of breaking her. When I grabbed her hand, it was ice cold. I've never felt her so cold before.

On the nightstand next to her bed there was a pile of blankets so I took some and carefully lay them over her.

I sat back down in the chair and began massaging her hand. The only sounds were the two heart monitors and Raven's shallow breathing.

After and hour of me massaging her hands and feet, someone knocked at the door.

"Come in."

Dr. Zaharu stepped into the room with a clipboard and a more worried expression than before.

"Did you get the results back?" I asked, standing up.

Dr. Zaharu nodded and pulled her clipboard out from under her arm. "Yes, and I found something… troubling."

I waited for her to continue.

"when we took another blood sample I found traces of Black Iris in it."

"Black Iris?"

She sighed. "I shouldn't be surprised that you haven't heard of it. Most vampires aren't even aware it exists. Black Iris is a poison specifically made to hurt half-vampires. It's harmless to full vampires and humans but to hybrids it's deadly. Also it's very hard to detect because it works so slowly. By the time you even realize why they're so sick, it's too late."

"Is-is it already too late now?"

She shrugged tiredly. " I honestly don't know. We just have to wait. We already have her a blood transfusion so that should flush out the poison in her own blood and the baby will take the new blood for nutrients hopefully."

There was still one last mystery. "How did she get this Black Iris in her system?"

"I have no idea. The only way is to consume it, but I doubt she would eve know it existed, let alone take it herself. But, who could have given to her?" Dr. Zaharu pondered this for a moment.

Before the doctor could say anything else I whipped my phone out from my pocket and dialed Sebastian.

"Sebastian," my best friend answered.

"Hey, it's Alexander. Where are you?"

"Hey Alexander! Jameson said that you left suddenly without saying anything. I'm still at the mansion. Why? What happened?"

"I really don't have much time to explain it. I need you to do me a favor."

"Shoot."

"I need you to go to Raven's house and search for any trace of Luna or any other vampire being there. And then take a sample of their faucet water and bring it to the hospital," I explained quickly.

"Uh, okay. But what about Raven and her family?"

"Just tell them I sent you. Raven is at the hospital with me now."

"Okay, but you better explain this all when I get there."

I thanked him and hung up.

Heaving a sigh, I sat back down in the chair next to Raven's bed. How did I get into this mess and how did I drag Raven into it with me?

"Well I have to go now. Call a nurse if anything happens." She walked to the door but before leaving she added, "try talking to her. It's good for her."

I didn't say anything and heard the door click from her exit.

Talk to her? I haven't talked to her for what feels like months. What was I supposed to say to her? Knowing the situation, hearing my voice would anger her and she would never wake up.

Instead, I talked to someone I knew couldn't possibly hate me just yet.

"Hi baby," I whispered while slipping my hands under the covers and Raven's shirt, gently resting it on the smooth skin of her belly.

At first it felt weird to be doing this, but eventually it just felt natural.

I started rubbing her stomach softly, even her skin there was freezing cold.

"I'm sorry I wasn't here for you the past week. I'm sorry for upsetting your mommy. And I'm sorry for failing to protect you," my voice started to waver as my chest tightened and tears welled in my eyes. All of my emotions that I'd been holding back around everyone else were suddenly showing themselves. I almost hoped Raven wouldn't wake up so she wouldn't see me like this.

"I should have been there the whole time. If I hadn't let Raven leave, neither of you would have been poisoned, You should be in such danger."

Now the tears were just flooding down my face as I rested my other arm on the blankets and buried my face in it.

"Please don't leave me…."

A/N: So now we know what is happening to Raven! But will the baby be okay? Will Sebastian find anything? REVIEW! I PROMISE THAT IT MAKES ME WRITE FASTER!