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It's been over a year since I finished this story now. Almost two years since I started it. Came up with the idea that all spawned because I wanted to experiment in first person. I wanted to test and see if I could write like an 18 year old boy. Plus, I wanted to write an AkuRoku fic :3

So, what can I say about this story? It was fun to write. More than fun, in fact. It made me become closer to one of my now best friends who I see as as a sister, it gave me the courage to write my own original novels (which I have multiple of now), and it showed me I could, in fact, write a novel of such length that's engaging, funny, and popular. It let me know I can be published.

Hopefully this summer I will be.

Something I really know about this story is it changed me. I don't know what it was about it, but I'm a different person now. Maybe it was my reviewers (I love you all, by the way, even if you did start to dwindle at the end :D ), maybe it was the story line itself, maybe it was the fact it went into a part of me I always wanted to avoid. I was forced to look at my own abandonment issues that I forced onto Axel and Ellie, Riku, Sora, and even Kairi a little bit. Naminé too, but she's never really been an important character to me. She's only important because she's one of those people who got in the way of the love interest.

When I look back at the characters, I realize just how in depth they are. Even if you guys, the readers, don't know all of who they are, I do. I know all of their lives (they being Roxas, Ellie, Axel, Riku, Sora, Kairi, Cloud, Tifa, and Naminé) from the moment they were born, to the moment of their death. I know about their kids, about their parents, their struggles in life, their happiness, their sorrow. I know that four months after this story ends, Ellie's raped by Terra and nearly has a pregnancy scare. I know that Cloud retires the moment Roxas turns 21 because he's bored with life and is tired of spending all of his time away from Tifa. I know that Riku started doing drugs and only managed to stop his destructive life style because of Ellie and Axel. I know that Sora's mom was the town whore and he never forgave her for it. I know that Kairi nearly dies giving birth to her daughter, but survives only to find out she'll never hear the girl's voice. I know that Roxas gets Ellie to bend the laws so he and Axel could be considered married.

I know how each of them dies: Naminé by suicide. Sora by a car accident. Ellie by cancer. Riku because he didn't want to live without Ellie. Roxas by Alzheimers. Axel and Kairi by old age.

It's like these characters are a part of me, and they all had to deal with things that have plagued my life. Losing a mother (which most of them have in some way), being abused, losing your friends, being the loner, facing death, trying to cope with suicide. Maybe that's what changed me.

This story started out as something small. A short story with a small plot. Axel and Roxas were going to get together. It was just going to be a funny romance but it evolved into something much more interesting and deep. With each chapter I planned, the story got longer and longer until finally I ended it when the story of how Axel and Roxas got together ended. I could have kept going. A lot of stuff happened to these people after the last chapter. But I'm glad I didn't.

I hope this story wasn't just something to read because of boredom for some people out there. Maybe it talked to some people in the later chapters and gave them something to look forward to because life does change and it does get better. Even if it doesn't seem like it at times.

But anyway, this is just the ramblings of a nostalgic author. This story has been told, and it's done.

Well, not really.

A few months ago I made a decision. This decision wasn't easy for me. I like to keep things the way they once were and I hate change. But this story has changed and developed into something more in my mind, which is why I've decided I'm going to revise it. As an original story.

That's right. I'm rewriting Is there an Elephant in the Room? as an original story. Original characters, different writing, a slightly different plot and so on. Most things stay the same. I'm only on chapter 8 right now but I haven't changed too much. Roxas isn't as whiny and Axel's a bigger pain in the ass. Those are some of the biggest changes.

I don't know when I'm going to finish this revise, so I don't know when I'm going to go for publication. But it will happen eventually, and the moment I try to start looking for publishers, I have to do something sad.

I have to delete this story from this site.

So, maybe this is a mistake. But I think this story deserves to be on the shelves of a bookstore. I already have a book cover (two sexy men in suits. What's not to like?) and I've talked to a few publishers about how people would like this book. They all loved the idea. So I'm going for it.

To all of you who have supported me while I was writing this, thank you. I'll never forget any of the reviews I've gotten (mainly because I'll be saving them) and even though it might be years before I finally get all 47 chapters edited, I'm posting this now because I'm thinking about it.

Thanks to everyone and I can't wait to see this book as an actual book.