Let the light guide you trough
AU Finchel. She heard it like they all had. They boys were coming home, within the next few hours she'd be able to hold Finn again. Or so she thought. After a mission goes terribly wrong, Rachel is left wondering if she'll ever see him again. And then the she sees the white car approaching. Her heart shattering into a million pieces.
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Chapter 6:
Rachel glanced at herself in the mirror. She couldn't believe this was happening, Noah and Sam were coming home. Two weeks had passed since that dreadful night she had gotten a phone call. Her day's light became dimmer as the time went by and she had to make decisions, decisions regarding Finn, herself And her children. Matt and Cory hurried by her side to support her with the little ones, while Jack remained neutral, as if he wanted to understand what had happened and yet couldn't grasp the idea of losing Finn. Her little girl would ask her about her daddy everyday and it broke her heart. And while the other 3 were too young to be aware of the tragedy around them, their behavior had been modified greatly.
She heard a knock on the door. Kurt and Blaine had arrived, they had arranged for Cory and Haley to babysit. While Rachel only took Micah with her.
"Are you sure you're up to this?" Rachel asked her son, he grabbed the diaper bag and smile. "I got it."
"Okay, I'm not so far away in case you need me, I can come back right away..."
"Just go mom, I promise we'll be fine." Rachel closed her eyes as the feelings of Finn being the one reassuring her pressed down her heart.
"Come on diva." Kurt ushered her outside.
Rachel sat quietly on the side of the Puckerman living room, Quinn moved around to make sure every guest was well served and fed, this small gathering being the only thing causing her to keep herself busy. Puck wore crutches for his broken leg, his face was still bruised but otherwise remained unharmed. His mental state was a whole different matter as he'd told Quinn off for even thinking about gathering everyone when Finn and Mike weren't here.
"Rachel." A soft voice said, she looked to the side to spot Sam, who after the accident had been confined to a wheelchair.
"Oh hi Sam." Rachel held the baby to her chest. "How are you feeling?"
"As much as I can, feel I mean." Sam said grimly. It was meant to be a joke, she assumed that much. Sam had had a spine injury, which had left him paralyzed from the waist down. "Sorry, crappy joke."
"It's fine." She gave him a soft smile. "How's Mercedes holding up?"
"She's good, I think she worries and baby's me too much but, I don't know, I'm thinking about finally proposing uh, life's... Well I'm alive so I guess I owe her a wedding..."
"Sam, that's wonderful, she'll be ecstatic!"
"Yeah. I'm thinking about doing it back in LA, when we are finally home with our little girl holding on to the ring and I just do it." Sam offered her a smirk and she knew he was excited, and so was she, only she held her composure or else she'd beak and cry.
"And how are you?" Sam asked reaching for her hand. "I heard Chris had a call..." Rachel shivered at the thought of that, she remembered confronting her father in law about lying to her as Carole had come clean to Rachel about Chris's trip to Georgia. Even though she was relived it had not been Finn who they had found, she was no longer in speaking terms with him, even though Carole hack insisted he was just trying to protect her.
Her dads, who had insisted to come to New York and help her; she refused of course, she didn't want any more pity, she didn't want any more pain of thinking she was alone.
"Yes, I haven't heard anything since then." She admitted. "I'm..."
"He'll turn up Rach." Sam said. "I know Finn wouldn't just leave this world, without...you'll kill him yourself when he comes back."
If he comes back.
"I swear she's driving me crazy!" Puck groaned making his way to Rachel.
"She's just trying to help you Noah."
"I don't need help, I need to go look for Finn."
"Puck!"
"What woman?" He looked back to see Quinn glancing over at Rachel with a sympathetic smile. "Sorry." He said to Rachel. "I don't know what to tell you Berry. I mean I should be looking for him out there..."
"It's not your fault Noah." She said sincerely.
"It is. He's my brother. He should be here too."
And yet he wasn't.
"Talk about Pity party... Urgh, I just wish people would stop looking at me as if I had a deadly disease or something..." Rachel said.
"Oh honey, they are worried." Kurt smiled softly.
"And I'm not?!" She snapped back at him making Micah whimper in her arms. "It's Finn the one missing!"
"Rachel..." Santana called calmly.
"Oh hi Mrs. Hudson." Haley caught a glimpse of them at the door.
"Mom?"
"Had to come home, don't ask." Santana told him. Cory shared a look with Blaine and Kurt.
"Are the kids sleeping?" Blaine asked.
"Ah, they are watching a movie, I'll get them for you."
"That's alright, I think we should get going anyway." He smiled. And moved up the stairs.
"Daddy! Dad! Tyler and Stephanie came tumbling down the stairs, a moment later, the other kids in tow.
"Hey you two! Where you good?" Kurt picked up the little girl.
"Yes daddy." Stephanie said kissing Kurt's cheek. Rachel smiled at the scene. And her heart broke.
And so after Kurt and Blaine were gone, Rachel offered Santana a glass of wine, which she accepted gladly. Meanwhile Cory went to drop Haley off.
"So I've been thinking..." Rachel said playing with her glass. Santana frowned as she dunk it all down. "I want to move back to Ohio, when Finn comes back, I want to move back... Or if he doesn't I want to move back too."
"Ummm... You sure that's just one glass? What are you babbling about? You spent your whole life trying to get the hell out and now you want go back?"
"What else do I have Santana?"
"I don't know, kids, a business? And not to mention how is Finn meant to find you?" Rachel bit her lip.
A knock on the door startled both women. Rachel took a peek to spot a white car and her heart sank to her chest.
"Berry? What is it?"
"Rachel Hudson?" She moved on autopilot to answer the door. "Are you Lt. Finn Hudson's Wife?"
"What's it to you?" Santana asked suspiciously.
"Miss?"
"I am. Finn is my husband." her voice caught on her throat.
Don't forget best friend, father of my children, soulmate and love of my life.
The curtain went up in half an hour. She'd never forget the nervousness of every show she did. And how great it felt to be under the lights. She'd bought him a ticket to her show like she'd done always, even though he wasn't here.
"3 minutes!" She heard say. She sighed, holding on to the picture in her hands. Finn and the boys smiled widely at her. Cory and Matt, her boys, 4 and 1. She'd managed to bounce back pretty fast to be in this production and she couldn't be prouder. Of Finn, of herself and her boys, siting in the front row with her dads. Finn who'd been deployed two months before wasn't meant to be home Until two more weeks.
She remembered the applause, she cheering and the tears, Mostly from Kurt, she was sure, she had made her way to her dressing room.
"Shining bright as ever." A voice said quietly behind her. A familiar voice, she had not jumped, and yet it was hard for her to turn around just in case it wasn't true. She heard movement behind her. A pair of lips on her neck.
"Finn..." And so she finally turned around, those Amber eyes meeting hers in a beat. She had began to cry as he hugged her, picking her up from the ground. "What are you doing here?" She said after they broke apart.
"I'd told you, I'll always come back babe. I love you."
"I am so sorry ma'm I wish we had more information at the time but... All I can tell you is...we have not recovered of heard from lt. Hudson in more than two weeks..."
She heard it. They were giving up, expenses and resources.
Finn was not coming back. She had to accept it. She was alone.
Oh man! Okay so I don't know what's gonna happen but... Okay I do but hope it's the last thing that's lost, right? Will Rachel move back to Lima? And what about Mike? Stay tuned!