Let the light guide you trough

AU Finchel. She heard it like they all had. They boys were coming home, within the next few hours she'd be able to hold Finn again. Or so she thought. After a mission goes terribly wrong, Rachel is left wondering if she'll ever see him again. And then the she sees the white car approaching. Her heart shattering into a million pieces.

A/N: okay guys! I'm here again! This chapter is very Finn heavy but you'll see in what way and will Rachel decide to move back home? Also I corrected jack's age to 8.
On to it then! Enjoy!

Chapter 8:

Hospitals had always made Rachel anxious, she had had her children there and also almost lost Cory more than once there as well. So yeah she wasn't happy to be here again. Susan Solomon who had been treating Cory since birth examined the teen carefully asking him questions which would be too complicated for a child not familiar with a disease that landed him on here often.

"He's going to be fine Rachel." The woman smiled. The same reassuring smile she had offered her many times before. "It's just very common for Cory to experience this kind of crises..." Duh, like she didn't know what her child had gone trough.

"Yes I know, but Finn was always the one to..." She stopped on her words cold.

Was. This was the first time she'd reffered to him this way outside of her head and to someone else.

"Rachel?"

"Daddy?" A small voice said behind Finn. He pretended to be sleeping as he felt a small body against him. Rachel seemed to have already left the bed. "Daddy, are you up?"
"Maybe..." Finn muttered pulling his pillow over his face.

"Finn...would you mind helping me with Wyatt? I think he's got a fever..."

"Okay, okay now I'm up." Finn muttered. He spotted 5 year old Hannah to be the intruder on his bed.

"Mama! Daddy's up!" She quipped.

"Yeah, yeah..." Finn got out of bed dragging his feet as he made his way to the nursery. "Hey my little man. Are you sick?" Wyatt was not even a year old and that worried Rachel the most about him coming down with something as it was just a matter of time before the others got it.

"Daddy, is the baby okay?" Hannah asked curiously looking inside the bars of the crib.

"I don't know baby, I have to check, let's hope not." At that moment Wyatt sneezed. "Hand me the little thingy right there Han."

"You mean the termotermer?" She asked, she'd meant the thermometer.

"Yes, that's the thing." She did what she was told, and Finn picked baby Wyatt in his arms as he took the baby's temp. It was not alarming but not low, maybe he was just teething or something. "See mommy, nothing to worry about." Finn kissed the baby's cheek and made his way to the kitchen, his daughter trailing alongside him.

"There you are! Could you sign Matt's permit?"

"Yeah, good morning to you too Rach." Finn said playfully putting the baby on the high chair.

"Mama daddy wants a kiss!" Hannah smiled. Rachel frowned as Finn let out a chuckle.

"Daddy does, huh?"

"If you don't mind." Finn said brushing her cheek.

"Of course I don't." She leaned to kiss him. "Good morning husband of mine."

"Good morning."

"Mom? Have you seen... Hi dad."

"Hey buddy." Finn smiled at his 12 year old son. "Morning."

"Not such good morning for Cory, he's still in bed." Matt let out.

"Can I stay in bed too then?" Hannah inquired. Perry sat on his own high chair.

"No you can't young lady, and wait what do you mean Cory's not up yet?" Finn asked worriedly.

"I don't know. He won't open the door." "Where's Jack?"

"In here." Came a small voice from the bathroom. Finn sighed.

"Okay, everyone, help mom with breakfast. I'll be back." Finn made his way down the downstairs hall where Cory's room was. "Buddy, you okay in there?" No response. "Cory?" Having been born with a heart defect, Finn and Rachel were in high alert every time Cory was sick. The door wasn't locked as it was a rule in the house, still there seemed to be something going on. Finn moved inside the room slowly. Cory?" His son was inside the bathroom, blood pouring down his nose.

"I just woke up and it won't stop..." Cory's voice was quiet as he remained against the sink.

"Okay, put your head back." Finn said calmly, being in the army and of course married to Rachel, his calm nature had come in handy more than once.
"What's going on?" Came Rachel's voice as she peeked from the bathroom door.

"It's nothing mom." Cory said swallowing a bit of blood which made him cough.

"Oh yes, I can see that..." Rachel said, clearly not amused.

"Alright buddy, I'm going to help you get to the bed okay?" Cory nodded. Finn guided him with the cloth on his nose. "Hold it right there. I'll be right back. " he left the room with Rachel following close behind.

"How bad do you think it is?" She asked as he scrambled the medicine cabinet. Finn heard the panic in his wife's voice.

"Not so bad Rach, now I need you to do me a favor okay?" He asked kindly. "I want you to continue to make breakfast."

"What?! Finn, I'm his mother..."

" I know that, but you don't have to be in control of everything, even though I know it drives you nuts..." She was about to speak when he lifted her chin."I'll take care of Cory." He assured her Holding on to her shoulders. "But the kids can't be late, so I need you to help me out." He was calm but firm. Rachel knew there was no use arguing, he wanted her out of there because she struggled to stay calm when it came to Cory. She made her way back to the kitchen as Finn made it back to the room.

"Did she freak out?" Cory asked as soon as he came back.

"Not as bad, which is good." Finn said holding a needle between his teeth. Because of his time in the army Finn discovered he was quite gifted in tending to people, specially injured ones and had learned one or two tricks along the way."Alright buddy, this will only take a second." Cory closed his eyes, taking a deep breath.

The doctor who also happened to be very close to Finn took her hand. "Listen to me, I would never question your capacity to care for Cory. Nor have I ever done it, this crisis might be a little sensible due to, everything that's been going on, which is why I'm prescribing him so anticoagulants so if this happens again, it won't be as scary." Rachel buffed, but she knew dr. Solomon was right, this was just another nose bleed and as alarming as it might have been, she, Cory and the rest of the family had been trough worse. "But be sure to call me if needed." The older woman hugged Rachel as she moved to say goodbye to Cory

"Oh and Rachel?" She heard the woman say kindly. "You're doing just fine."

She drove home in silence, Cory was to tense and inmersed in his own thoughts to even ask her if she was alright, of course she wasn't. They had just returned from Lima the day before, after Finn's... Funeral, and things didn't seem easier even at home, Cory had woken up covered in blood, and Rachel had rushed him to the hospital on the spot, asking Kurt and Blaine to care for the other children.

"Oh thank goodness you're home!" Kurt smiled as soon as they made their way Inside the house. "Is everything alright?"

"Everything is fine." Cory smiled, his covered of blood clothing told otherwise though. "The Doctor said it had happened because of stress." Kurt smiled as the two of them continued to talk, it was no lie the kid that been under a lot of pressure lately, and his body manifested it's discomfort, which made Rachel worry about just one more thing.

She couldn't believe she was even considering leaving New York, the place she and Finn had made a home at. But being back in Lima had offered her some perspective to where she stood. So she sat her children down and explained the situation, their faces told her all she needed to know, even though eventually she'd do what she had to.
It was the same afternoon after she'd taken Cory to the hospital.

"You're not serious, are you mom?" Matt asked.

"I'm afraid this is very serous Matt, I've been giving this a lot of thought."

"We can't move! We can't go to Lima, everyone we know lives here, grandpa and grandma..."

"Your grandad and grandpa are in Lima."

"Yeah but uncle Kurt and aunt Santana aren't."

"Matty, I'm just trying to do my best in taking care of my family, this is not a hasty decision, it's one I can't nor I will take lightly. But I do hope you understand I'm trying my best here."

"You're not doing a very good job," Matt snapped, the look on Rachel's face mirrored how she felt in the inside. Matt froze on the spot. "I..." Rachel took a deep breath as she played with her Finn necklace.

"I'm not your dad!" Rachel let out, tears steamed down her face. "I know that, and believe it or not I'd give anything to return him to you, but... I can't."

"Mom, don't cry. I didn't mean it..." Rachel faced her children, she sat on the coffee table facing her four eldest ones.

"Of course you did. Lets be honest, You're angry, but not really at me, that much I know." She said with a smile.

"Are we really moving mommy?" Hannah asked. It took the little girl a moment to speak again. "Will daddy still watch over us if we leave?" The simplicity of the question, yet the depth and seriousness in her child's eyes made Rachel's heart ache.
Rachel moved in between her children on the couch, placing Hannah on her lap, she tried her best to stay calm.

"Of course daddy will always be with us baby, he loves all of us so much." She felt her voice crack as she took jack's hand in hers and kissed it sweetly, her son's eyes glistened with tears.

"I will move if that makes you happy mom." The 8 year old said with a kind smile.

"Me too mommy." Her little girl added. "I'll talk to daddy and tell him where we're going so he doesn't worry." Rachel smiled at them as she said that was a great idea. She then turned to her eldest boys. Cory said he'd respect her decision while he remained uneasy about medical care, and Rachel assured him they'd do monthly visits as she still had a business to run here as well.

"Matt?"

"Does it have to be right now? I don't really want to leave the house so fast." He said a bit calmer. "I just feel like, like we're leaving dad behind..."
"Baby..."

"Maybe we could stay until Christmas? It will be easier for everyone if we don't leave school right away, it just started..." Rachel weighted Cory's words for a moment. Was she doing this a bit too fast? What was it that she wanted out of this? Of being without Finn? Or Maybe she wanted a chance to learn to be without him? Or she was simplyrunning away?

So still no sign of Finn! I miss him! Is Rachel making the right decision of wanting to move? Or is she just desperate to make a better life for her children?
And a shed of light gives Rachel a bit of hope. Is Finn really gone forever?
Thank you for reading guys! Everyone has been so awesome! Don't worry we'll have more Finn soon, I did say hope wasn't lost yet...