Let the light guide you through
AU Finchel. She heard it like they all had. The boys were coming home, within the next few hours she'd be able to hold Finn again. Or so she thought. After a mission goes terribly wrong, Rachel is left wondering if she'll ever see him again. And then she sees the white car approaching. Her heart shattering into a million pieces.
A/N: okay guys! Sorry for the long waiting on the update as I know you are all so excited for this chapter! I just had a pretty heavy week, let's just say everything happened! And also this is my last update before I start school again , so updates may not come as often... maybe weekends. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this and just remember this is a pretty much character driven so sorry if some details about Finn's disappearance are a bit vague.
I DON'T OWN GLEE!
Chapter 10:
Rachel couldn't breathe as she boarded the plane to Germany, Carole and Blaine at her side. Chris was there as well, but he remained far behind them as they had switched places when Rachel began crying uncontrollably. To say she was a complete wreck was an understatement, even after years of being an army wife, nothing had prepared her for the emotional and mental turmoil that having to lose Finn only to not knowing how it was possible he was alive caused her. Carole, although empowered and emotional herself when she called Rachel a few minutes after receiving the news herself, held her hand. And yes, Blaine. She and Blaine were partners, so in order to avoid telling her children all she knew, because of the outcome, well, she knew they'd be mad at her and yet, she didn't care, had dragged Blaine along, afraid of what she might find upon her arrival at the hospital.
"Rachel?" She felt a hand shake her. "Honey? We are here."
It had been so long since he had been deployed that she was used to having him home, for him to go work at his dad's restaurant and be home in time to help the kids with their homework at night, then she had gotten that call and he'd been forced to explain they needed him and his unit for a few months, hell, she hated that he had to go, she hated that even though Finn had always been such a gentle soul, the Army transformed him into some kind of duty driven machine, and yes, don't get her wrong, she is been in this position before, and so have her children, so it's not like they don't know the drill.
"Make sure you help your mom buddy, okay? she is really going to need you." Finn held their fifteen year old son close as the boy smiled softly, he was already more than used to, to saying goodbye and making promises, he'd keep until his dad came back.
"Matt?" Her so suborn child would not look at Finn, not even when he raised his chin up with his index finger. "I have to go now buddy."
"Then go. I don't care." the coldness in Matt's voice made Rachel instantly look up at Finn who smiled softly at her and then focused his attention on the other kids, he picked Jack and Hannah up skillfully as he hugged them both.
"Promise you'll come back dad, promise you will." Jack said against his neck. "You have to."
"Of course I have to, I don't think mommy would let me stay there long." Finn touched Jack's nose softly. "She'll come and drag me home herself." Jack looked back at Rachel who stood up with Perry in her arms while Wyatt slept in the stroller. Her other hand in her belly.
"Daddy, don't go, can someone else go?" Hannah asked sniffing, holding on to Finn as he placed Jack down at his sole attention was in his only daughter. Needless to say Finn's relationship with the five year old was a close one, as she had been the only girl and by the means of it, her birth had implied an equal amount of heartbreak and joy for her parents as they had lost her twin sister in the process.
"Baby, now that wouldn't be fair right? They asked me to go because I am good at what I do, and who'd take care of Uncle Puck if I don't go? ." He smiled as he kissed her head softly and she giggled ."You just help mommy with the babies okay? Can you do that for me?"
"Will you be here before the baby comes?"
"I hope so baby. I really hope so." He held on to her for a few more moments until Puck called his attention.
It was time to go.
"It's time again, to do this huh?"
"It is babe." He said as he wrapped his arms around Rachel and kissed her lips deeply. Squeezing Perry in the middle. "It's just another job right?"
"Just another job." She agreed as she traced her fingers on his chin. "And you are one hell of a Lt. Hudson."
"That I am Miss." Finn said. "just as you are a Broadway badass." Rachel fought the tears as he kissed Perry and Wyatt goodbye.
"Daddy." Perry smiled as Cory picked him up. "Daddy goes home."
"Soon bud, I promise." Finn kissed Rachel again as he leaned down to kiss her tummy. "I promise I'll be home soon."
"You better come back Hudson, or I will kill you."
"Better you than the war huh?" He half smirked. She glared at him as he kissed her once more before looking back at his family as they waved goodbye. He joined Puck on their walk to the aircraft.
Suddenly Finn saw Matt break into a smile and give him a thumbs up as he muttered goodbye.
"It just this way." A doctor with a thick accent said. Rachel walked as in autopilot. Carole walked beside her.
"You alright sweetie?" Her mother in law said. "Deep breaths." Rachel nodded.
"I am sorry but for now I can only allow one person to come in as I need to explain the predicament of the situation..."
"What predicament? What's wrong?" Chris asked a bit too harshly.
"Just give me a moment, I need someone to come and ID the patient first.
"You mean you're not sure if that's my kid in there?" Chris snapped.
"Chris.." Carole whispered.
"No, I want him to tell me... Is Finn in there or not?!"
Carole insisted she went in first, she held on to Micah, her young baby who had somehow managed to survive the long flight without much trouble, the perks of him being the seventh baby.
"Here we go baby, let's go see daddy." She walked in. only to be faced with her husband, something she never thought would be possible after that August night. "Oh God, Finn..."
He had not opened his eyes but he was there and he was alive, Carole suddenly walked behind her to enter the room as she held on her hands on her mouth and looked at her son, so fragile in a hospital bed, his head was surrounded by a bloody bandage and his face was scrapped and bruised but his body in plain sight seemed intact.
"That's Finn, that's my son." Chris told the doctor as he was waiting to make a positive ID on the soldier they had brought only a few weeks before. Blaine stood there next to Rachel as his eyes filled with tears.
"Do you know what happened to him?" Blaine asked as he pulled a chair so Carole and Rachel could sit.
"Not much is known, sorry, he was brought here after being ID as an American soldier, not much was known about him except he had been involved in a bombing of a Humvee, which killed everyone else." Blaine nodded.
"Actually, some people in his unit made it, we really don't know what happened to him after that." Blaine explained.
"I have not been told much, there was a recall mission near the village where he was found, his wounds were extensive and nearly deathly but they seemed to have been treated for a while. Maybe by the people who rescued him, we'll know more when he wakes up."
"Has he regained consciousness?" Chris asked.
"Barely, only to tell us his name, that's how we knew who to tell since he'd been stripped of all of his uniform. His mental capacities seem intact as to tell us his name, but it not clear how much damage his body has sustained. "
Rachel held on to Micah as her hand brushed Finn's warmer one. The little boy remained close to Rachel's body but it was clear he wanted to make up what was happening. "Daddy's going to be okay baby, don't you worry, he will..." Rachel rocked her child as her eyes fell on Finn's face.
He had to. She was not ready to lose him again.
sooo? Not sure this turned out the way I wanted it to, but I still hope it was good. There was a reason Rachel only brought Micah along, since he had not met his daddy! What will happen and how about the rest of the clan? Thank you so much for reading! :)