A/N: Thanks again for the reviews! I would like people's opinions on the Hotch/JJ/James situation.
After a few minutes of kissing hungrily, JJ seemed to realise what she was doing when James moved his lips onto her neck. She was different now. She wasn't the cold, calculated, deadly spy she was back then. She was a warm and caring FBI agent who brought justice to victims. She no longer needed the comfort of sex to fulfill a void because she had people who cared about her now. She quickly pushed James away.
"I'm sorry, James, I just can't…I'm not the same person I was back then. I'm really sorry." she explained as she left the room, missing the look of hurt and confusion across James' face.
JJ walked briskly down the hallway, trying to get to her room, when she bumped into the man she did not want to see now.
"JJ!" he exclaimed, surprised to see her.
"Hey, Hotch." she whispered.
"Are you ok?" he asked concerned.
She forced a smile upon her face. "Yeah, I'm fine, I was just coming back from a walk, had to clear my head." she lied easily.
"Oh, ok then." he said. "JJ, you know you can tell me anything right?" he added. "No matter what." he finished with a reassuring smile.
"Yeah, I know Hotch." she met his gaze.
"Then what is going on with you? You've been on edge since we started this case and you are barely putting any input into the profile." he said.
"I know and I'm really sorry Hotch. I don't have an explanation right now but I will tomorrow." She said sadly. "I just hope you don't hate me afterwards." she finished so quietly he almost didn't hear her. But he did.
"JJ, I..I would never-" he said shocked. "I could never hate you. You're one of the best people I have in my life." JJ didn't look convinced. "Come here." he said as he opened out his arms for a hug. Hesitantly she moved into his embrace and rested her head against his chest listening to his heartbeat. Hotch breathed in the scent of her hair and pulled her closer. She sighed loudly, knowing this could be the last time he would ever see her as sweet, innocent, JJ.
They stayed in the embrace for a few more moments until JJ pulled away but Hotch grabbed her hand and intertwined their fingers. "I promise, whatever is going on I could never hate you. Ever." he said.
"I wouldn't be so sure about that." She muttered whilst squeezing his hand. "You should get some sleep Hotch, you look tired." she looked up and met his eyes and they connected.
"What the hell is happening with us JJ?" he whispered brushing a stray hair behind her ear.
She took a deep breath and closed her eyes before replying. "I don't know Aaron." She said and his breath hitched at hearing his first name coming from her lips. "But we'll work it out. We always do." She said as she tenderly kissed his cheek and walked away. Hotch watched her leaving until she turned the corner and disappeared out of sight.
The next morning Hotch called the team, excluding JJ, down to the chairs at the lobby 10 minutes early to discuss their blond profiler. As everyone arrived and Garcia popped up on the tablet, he began.
"Guys, I know you have all been worried about JJ. She's been on edge and quieter than normal from the beginning of the case. We had a chat last night and I think she will explain everything later on today. I have absolutely no clue what it could be so we have to be supportive no matter what. " he said.
"We understand Hotch. Do you think it's anything serious?" Emily asked quietly.
"Honestly, it could be nothing…but it could be something huge. What I do know is she thinks we'll hate her once she tells us." he finished watching everyone's reactions to this. Reid, Morgan, Emily and Garcia just looked shocked. Rossi's expression remained the same.
"We could never hate her." Reid said and Emily nodded in agreement.
"She's the glue that holds this team together, without her we'd be lost. She needs us right now no matter what it is she has to tell is." Rossi said with conviction. They all nodded.
"So we're in agreement that we will support and help JJ in anyway we can." Everyone nodded.
Elsewhere, back in JJ's hotel room. She was extremely worried about what was going to happen. Would they hate her? Would they disown her from the team? Would she have to resign? The questions kept swirling around in her mind. She knew that half of her would always be the elite CIA spy but the other half would be the compassionate, caring FBI agent as well as the other business she was now involved in.
She couldn't think straight about James and Hotch. She knew she didn't have feelings for James, they just had a great friendship especially for spies and used to have great sex. But she was getting the feeling that James had developed feelings for her and that was what she didn't need.
And of course Hotch. He was her rock, always there for her when she needed him. Always knowing what to do or say. Just like last night. She had to admit she was petrified. She could kill grown men without flinching but she couldn't deal with feelings. The cardinal rule of spying, was 'spies don't fall in love', she had that drilled into her for so long that she didn't know if she would ever be able to overcome it.
Taking a deep breath she walked out of the hotel room and headed down to the lobby.
'Oh crap!' Hotch thought when he saw her walking towards them. She was wearing a crisp white button down shirt, a grey pencil skirt that hugged her figure and black heels which showed off her legs. Her hair was down and slightly wavy and she had light make-up on. She looked absolutely stunning.
JJ saw Hotch, mouth agape staring at her and she couldn't help the slight blush that rose to her cheeks as Rossi smirked in Hotch's direction.
Clearing her throat. "You guys ready to go?" she asked.
"Yeah, let's get to work." Hotch said as he stop gawking at her.
"Hopefully we will find the name of that agent today." added Morgan as JJ looked away.
The team left and made their way to meet the other agents and work on the profile.
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