Ok, honestly, I have no idea where I go with these things. But I really need to set up a schedule to write a new chapter to the stories that I have that are more popular than others. Yet, at the same time, if it's forced, it won't feel the same, you know? I will try to update more regularly, however, but no promises. But I do like the moments I have where I just have to say something, you know?

1000 Years

It's like a dream. I don't have time to understand it, but you sweep me away despite my hesitance, my wanting answers to how any of this is all possible. I thought you hated me. And here you are, taking me away as though the entirety of our relationship, you were only putting on an act. Your touch is soft, as soft as any cool autumn breeze. Even after your hand leaves, my skin tingles with the after effect. I don't understand it at all, but I want to be a part of it. I don't want to ruin things with questions. They can wait. All I have ever wanted is right here, right now.

The garden light is bright, but streaming through the leaves, it leaves a spectrum of greens and yellows, cascading glows and shadows, causing the path to seem almost ethereal. Almost magical. But the one thing I can't take my eyes off despite everything, is your smile. You're smiling at me, for me, with me. I- my heart can't take such a smile. Why do you do this to me?

But I can't ask. I can't even find my voice as tear drops fall down my face. You... What did you say? It's muffled and I can barely make it out, but you pull me down the path once more. It's too good to be true, so why is it I feel as though it's going to be ripped away from me at any second like a cruel, cruel dream. Something my heart ache and loneliness has created to escape the truth of the waking life. Please, don't do this to me! I don't want to wake to find it all a lie. Please!

"What's wrong?" you ask, puzzled. "Is it too much?"

I can feel myself smile, even though I don't want to. You've always had this effect over me. I just can't help myself. "Nothing; it's perfect," I reply, despite my voice been thick with tears yet unshed.

And you kiss me. You kiss me and I'm left breathless. I can't find words anymore, and we head down to the little path once again, to a cottage. It's like the one I used to dream of when having your love was a dream. I've never told you about it, so how did you find out? I'm going to start crying. I can feel that little tingle in the bridge of my nose; the one that lets you know that something wonderful is happening and you just can't contain it any more. It just overflows, uncontrollably. You smile. You had to have known it was going to happen. "Surprise" is your only response.

I can't answer. I'm too overcome by happiness to answer; it's washed away my words. I end up throwing my arms around you, pulling you close. How you ever came up with this, I wouldn't know, but thank you, my beloved.

"I love you." You kiss me, and I close my eyes.

But fate, it would seem is a cruel, cruel thing, because when I open them, you're no where to be found. Too good to be true, would you look at that? And I cry because that same old would that I thought had been healed rips right back open and bleeds emotion through my eyes and through the way I shake. I can't bear this heartache anymore; I don't want to feel like a piece of myself is dying every time I see your face when I close my eyes. Why did you leave me? I thought we had everything we ever needed? Please, come back to me! I still don't understand.

Gray...

This might be a continued chapter, eventually.