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~I close my eyes and drift away.
Over the fear that I will never find a way to heal my soul~

Tears were slowly straining down his cheeks. His whole body was burning and screaming for a long rest but he didn't gave in. He couldn't give up right now, he couldn't fail. He gritted his teeth and jumped over another pool laying around in the sewers. He cried softly when he landed on his feet and fell on the ground.

His breaths were coming out in short rasps and his chest was rising and falling in a rapid pace. His adrenaline began to wear off and he fell to the side. His shell connected painfully with the hard ground of the sewers and he gave out a weak cry.

He knew it was a stupid idea to leave the lair. And that he was still too weak to do so but he couldn't stand it. He couldn't stand seeing his brothers so hurt and broken. It only reminded him how much he had failed them. He was supposed to be the leader and he was supposed to protect his brothers.

But Mikey was still wearing his collar, Raph was petrified and Donnie was traumatized.

He squeezed his eyes shut and shuddered when another bolt of pain hit his body. The tight bandage around his broken arm was ruined and worn off. The bone was throbbing so badly again from the weight he had inflicted upon it. But he thought it was worth it. He deserved the pain more than anyone else did.

And he would've taken their places without even thinking. He loved his brothers and wanted to protect them, even if it would hurt himself.

He curled up into a ball and allowed his tears to stream down his cheeks freely. He couldn't show any weakness to his family but right now he couldn't hold them back any longer. And he cried. Cried over the horrible memories that kept flashing in front of his eyes. The screams of Raph, the pleads of Donnie and the cries of Mikey.

And the pain he had felt. The feeling of being useless and screaming his own voice raw.

It took him over an hour to finally calm down. Slowly he pushed himself up into a sitting position. His shell against the wall and sniffled slightly. He felt numb and so defenseless. He couldn't even remember the last time he'd actually cried. But he also knew that was the whole point of their kidnapping. Breaking them.

His body continued to scream for some rest but he wouldn't allow it. Akuyama didn't stop when cutting open his hotheaded brother. Nighwatch didn't stop upon the pleads of Donnie. Nobody stopped when they were asked to. Mikey was still branded and treated like an animal, Donnie was still raped and Raph was still petrified.

To the point where slipping inside his shell was the only way to escape this madness.

He sniffled again and wiped away his tears with the back of his hand. Slowly he rubbed his eyes to clear his vision but froze when he saw something looking at him. Slowly, trying to make no sudden moves, he moved towards the back of his shell where his katana's where. Or used to be.

He cursed himself slightly when he noticed he didn't have his katana's with him. He swallowed nervously and slowly stood up. Biting his lip when he felt the familiar rush off pain through his body again. His body was still bruised and it would take at least days before it would heal again but he didn't mind. He was only focused on the figure in front of him.

A soft hiss came from the figure and Leo stopped moving. He knew this sound. But it couldn't be. They had searched so long for her but never found her.

"Karai?" Leo whispered softly towards the snake in front of him. The green eyes of Karai narrowed and she hissed again. Louder this time. Leo's eyes widened when more memories kept flashing in front of him. Mikey's crying, Donnie's pleadings, Raph's screaming. He raised his arms and stared with wide eyes at the mutant snake.

And suddenly it wasn't Karai standing there, it was Akuyama. The same woman who hurt Raph, cut him open and hurt him so much. "S-stay away!" Leo screamed and pressed his shell painfully against the wall. His eyes shooting from left to right, trying to look for an escape route.

Almost hesitantly Karai began to move towards the scared mutant and Leo let out a terrified yelp before jumping towards the right. Another white flash of pain hit him and he bit his lip again. Tears starting to stream down his face and he pressed his broken arm close to his body.

Karai stopped again but then hesitantly came towards him something more. Leo whimpered slightly and began to run away. Pain radiating through his whole body with every step.

Karai let out a soft hiss and charged in on the poor turtle. Immediately wrapping her large tail around the already injured mutant. He groaned slightly when the tail wrapped around his body but it wasn't particularly painful.

"Please" Leo pleaded and looked into her green eyes. Karai hissed again and stuck out her tongue and wrapped her tail a little bit tighter around his body. Leo cried out again and tried everything he could to break free. "Let me go please"

But Karai wasn't about to let go and continued to look into his blue eyes, who were wide with fear. Slowly Leo stopped with fighting and eventually went limp in Karai's hold. Immediately Karai morphed back and lowered the unconscious turtle on the ground.

"I'm sssorry Leo" She whispered, stiffening a soft hiss and picked him up bridal style. She hated seeing Leo like this but she had to do it. He was hurting and he wasn't about to stop moving if she would've tried something else.

A flash of guilt washed over her when she saw the bruised body of the mutant. "What happened?" She whispered and brought Leo closer to her chest. She sighed slightly and continued to walk in the direction of the lair.

TMNT

Karai just froze when she entered the lair again. She knew it had to be painful to reunite with her father again but what she was seeing was something she had never expected. Raph was lying flat on his shell, his whole torso was bandaged and he was just so lifeless. His eyes were open but they were so dull and full of hurt.

Donnie was sitting on the couch, his knees drawn to his chest and a blanket carefully wrapped around his body. Next to him was April, her own arm around the mutant and cuddling close to him. Mikey sat cross-legged on the couch, his eyes focused on the ground. An iron collar around his neck.

Casey was sitting under Raph with his arms crossed over his chest. And her father was sitting next to Mikey. Sitting a few centimeters away from him but he wasn't actually touching him.

"Miwa?" Splinter spoke with a soft voice when he noticed his daughter walking into the lair in her normal human form. He frowned slightly. The last time he had seen her she was mutated and he had no idea she was capable of doing this. But his eyes rested on the figure she was carrying. "Leonardo!" He spoke and immediately rushed towards him.

"What happened?" He asked as he carefully took his unconscious son from Miwa.

"He wasss hurting himself, ssstraining his injuries" Karai hissed but tried to hide it as much as she could. Splinter frowned and brought his son closer to his face. Kissing Leonardo's temple carefully.

"My son, why would you do this to yourself?" He whispered and walked over to his place on the couch. Sitting cross-legged on it and placing his unconscious son on it. Allowing him to snuggle close to his father.

Mikey immediately joined his oldest brother and father and offered him a warm blanket. "Thank you Michelangelo" Splinter nodded gratefully and wrapped Leo up in a blanket. And for the first time since they got home an actual smile formed on Mikey's face.

"Take care father" Miwa spoke in a soft voice as she turned around. She didn't belong here. Somehow she knew she didn't, and she shouldn't interfere with them.

"Miwa wait" Splinter said towards her and frowned slightly. "You are always welcome to stay here. Even in your new form you're still my daughter." Splinter inquired and watched his daughter as she turned around.

"I know dad, but I still have to go" Miwa said softly and turned around again. Jumping over the entrance from the lair.

"Miwa!'' Splinter called out once again. Repositioning Leonardo in his arms. Miwa stopped in her tracks and turned around. Meeting her father's eyes. "Thank you, for bringing Leonardo back" He smiled and Miwa returned the smile before walking away.