Chapter 55

I hear her calling my name but I don't answer, I'm hiding again.

I know what she wants.

That dirty man is back.

He wants to see me.

I was at the neighbor's trailer. They're nice, and the lady cleaned my face, she put some stinky stuff on my forehead and put a pink band-aid on me, it stung a little but her smile and her little kisses make it all go away, she even gave me clean clothes to wear since it's cold and I was in my underwear and bear foot.

I'm clean, she bathed me and did my hair with ribbons, they're pink this time, like the sweater and the coat, I'm also wearing jeans, they're a little lose on me but they'll do. My feet aren't cold anymore because she put socks and sneakers on me. I've asked her about the toys she has in her trailer, because I know she doesn't have a little girl like me. She told me that she died.

That she was sick and they didn't help her. She cries everytime she does my hair. I think she's sad, but she likes me and I like her. I really wish she was my mommy.

I think her name is Charlotte, she's pretty too. She works over at the grocery store, I've seen her walking with the man with the yellow hair, he also has a nice smile. They always give me apples and candy or sometimes they even save me some dinner. I like them both, he's a mechanic, he fixed our car awhile ago, mommy tried to give him some of her colored candy but he said that it was ok, that she didn't have to pay him.

He's nice too.

She combs my hair, and puts it up in ponytails tying the pink ribbons on them, she said that I could stay as long as I want, but that I have to tell mommy. I don't want to go back there, I see the black car with the dark windows, everytime he comes to get me, he takes me to the candy store and tells everyone that he is my daddy, but he's not, he's just an old dirty man that eats like a pig, he does, he eats his hamburgers with his mouth showing every bite. I know we're not supposed to do that since the neighbor lady told me not to, she's nice.
I know I have to go home, but the black car is still there. I hear mommy yelling my name, I know she's angry and will hit me again, if I don't answer her or come back soon, but I'm afraid.

He'll touch me gain.

He always says that good girls don't cry and that if I'm good and let him do what he wants that I'll like it.

I don't it hurts and I feel bad after, my tummy hurts when he puts it in my mouth and it squirt out that yucky stuff. It smells bad.

I walk in to the trailer slowly so that she won't notice me. I can hear them talking in the front room, I go in through he window on the back, but she's waiting for me. She grabs my arm and starts to drag me to the front room where I know he's waiting.

-"Here, take her for a ride. Now give me my pills"- she takes my arm painfully and shoves me towards him, the man gives her the brown bag and takes my hand, pulling me to his car.

I want my mommy…