Hello everyone, I hope you are ready for some more angst and painful Leo moments :) And the song I will be using this chapter is called Lost one's weeping by vocaloid though if you want to listen to it I would suggest listening to Jubyphonic's English dub version. That is also where I found the lyrics. The song part will be written a little differently then usual so I hope that you don't mind and it also contains references to suicidal thoughts (I will put a warning). Thanks as always to everyone who has followed or faved or contributed ideas to this chapter and OH MY GOD, 201 REVIEWS! Thank you all so much.

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Guest : I know that they don't all just ignore him but at some points of the books they do seem to not pay Leo much attention (they casually brushed off Leo mentioning sleeping in sewers.

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QueenofLothlorien : Thanks for asking :) And I love Texan accents, the thought of Leo speaking with one is just so attractive in my opinion.

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Guest : Sadly it's not a song by either FOB or ID but maybe I'll do one later.

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Disclaimer : I couldn't steal the rights so neither Percy Jackson nor the Vocaloid song belong to me.

Annabeth's P.O.V

Leo had been so sweet when he was younger. Not even Annabeth could stop a smile crossing her face at the warm admittance that the little girl, Alice, had been like a sister to Leo. It was clear that Leo was a great older brother figure, his sunny disposition and tendency to use humour reflexively probably aided him when dealing with children.

The next memory came on, revealing another Texan scene.

This time, Leo was riding alone though he was wearing another cowboy hat. He was outside of the stable and he was gently coaxing his horse over some jumps. There was a soft, southern twang to his voice as he murmured encouragement to the horse beneath him. After they completed the course, a stunning smile swept over Leo's face and he practically leapt of his horse, throwing his hat in the air and whooping in delight, wrapping the horse into a tender yet excited hug.

"Yes you beautiful living machine, we are gonna win!" The drawl was highly accentuated when Leo shouted with glee.

"Why do you speak with a Texan accent there but not normally?" Annabeth was confused over how Leo could shift through different dialects with such ease. Leo shrugged.

"Darlin', I can change my accent to suit however I feel." It was strange to hear Leo speaking with such a strong Texan accent.

"I think that the more important thing to ask is why you called your horse a living machine?" her boyfriend was looking both highly amused and a little concerned for Leo's sanity.

"We are all basically living machines when you think about it. We have parts that we can't function without just like a machine. Internally we are very similar to a mechanical construct." Leo's speech was matter of fact, and Annabeth was reminded of just how differently they viewed the world. Leo could see the world through machinery, a remarkable gift.

The next memory started up and Annabeth got ready to receive a new piece of information about the younger demigod.

Leo and Piper were sitting on a bench outside of the Wilderness school. Leo was fiddling with an expensive looking watch while Piper watched anxiously. After a few minutes, Leo's expression turned triumphant.

"Here you go Pipes, good as new." Piper took the watch from him gently.

"Thanks Leo, I was hoping to wear this on my date with Jason tonight." Piper's face was radiant with happiness, but Leo's face dropped.

"I thought that you were going to help me with that English essay tonight?" He sounded a little hurt. Piper smile also dropped.

"I'm sorry Leo, I completely forgot, It's just that Jason was so nervous when he asked me if I could go out with him tonight that I just couldn't turn him down." Piper sounded genuinely remorseful, yet Leo's shoulders still slumped.

"The essay is needed in two days and I still have 1000 words left to go. Can't you rearrange for tomorrow." Piper frowned.

"Jason had to rearrange a date last week to help you with English, if you really needed this much help then maybe you should have hired a tutor." Leo's face turned stony.

"Sorry princess but we can't all afford a tutor. I thought that maybe my friends would be willing to help me out but I suppose I'm only needed to give free tutoring in maths, science and Spanish." Leo stormed away and Piper looked ashamed.

"Damn it, I screwed up." She muttered.

Piper was looking even more ashamed off screen.

"I'm really sorry for that Leo, I was unnecessarily cruel and it was even worse considering all the subjects you helped me in." Piper sounded incredibly apologetic.

"Maybe I shouldn't have reacted so strongly, you and Superman were a relatively new couple and I kept imposing on you." After Leo said that, Piper leant over Jason and squeezed Leo's knee.

"You have never imposed Leo."

"Yeah, you played the role of overprotective brother perfectly for both of us." Jason smiled, clearly referencing the earlier memory of the conversation they held. With that situation resolved, the next memory began.

Eight year old Leo was standing in a hospital room. Behind him, Mrs Sparrow stood, biting her lip nervously. In front of him was an old lady who bore a distinct family resemblance to Leo despite the signs of age that marred her skin.

Her frail shaking hand was clutching Leo's ting fingers and both were crying.

"Lo siento mi nieto (I'm sorry my grandson)." Her eyes were cloudy, whether with age or tears it was hard to distinguish. Little Leo shook his head, gripping her wrist tighter.

"No tienes la culpa (It isn't your fault)." Leo's voice was steady, contrasting the rivers of tears that raced down his face. The two embraced lovingly before Leo had to pull away. Leo walked to the door,turning back to face his Grandmother.

"Te amo (I love you).." They both said at the same time. A sad smile slipped over Leo's face and as he exited the room, a wistful look appeared on the old lady's face.

"What was happening there?" Frank looked a little upset himself, Annabeth had been told all about his Grandmother situation by Percy and understood that seeing something like would remind if of his own family.

"She was too ill and eccentric at that point to look after me according to the doctors." Leo was frantically scribbling in his notebook and Annabeth had the feeling that this memory was going to get worse. And for once in her life, Annabeth despised being right.

A filthy now thirteen year old Leo sat in a tiny back alley. His breathing was ragged and small cuts and bruises littered the parts of his body that were visible. He stayed still for a minute or two, clearly trying to regain his breath.

After his breathing had evened out, he left the alley cautiously. He wove his way through the streets, expertly blending. However, his skills may have been near flawless, but one old woman would not be fooled.

"Leo." Her voice was stronger than it had been in the hospital room, but it was still clearly the same woman. Leo froze. He turned on his heel just in time to be pulled into a firm hug.

"Mi nieto (my grandson)." Leo's accepted the hug, and tears welled up. The screen skipped to a scene of Leo sitting in a battered armchair in a cosy sitting room. Photos were scattered around the room, and you could see images of many people including Leo, Esperanza, Rosa and Raphael.

His Nan pottered out and handed him a cup of hot chocolate. She also tended to his wounds and mended his clothing. But, at the end, Leo still had to leave.

In a strange mirror of the first scene, Leo stood with his back to the door and facing his Grandmother.

"Lo siento." This time it was Leo's turn to speak these words.

"I knew you would have to leave me again." These words may have sounded harsh but they actually conveyed numerous emotions. Acceptance, anger, sadness and above all love were transmitted through this simple message. The hug followed naturally, yet Leo still left.

"Why didn't you stay with her then, she looked a lot better?" Hazel looked incredibly sad. Leo looked sadder.

"She couldn't afford to look after me and my Aunt would have made her life hell if she discovered mi abuela (my nan) looking after me."

The words "Four months later flashed across the screen".

Leo was dressed in a sharp suit, yet he disregarded this fact as he knelt in the mud beside a freshly dug grave. The tears were unstoppable and he was quite literally vibrating with his sobs.

"Lo siento, te amo, lo siento." He repeated this message over and over again, clutching the grass with enough force to uproot it.

Some tears trickled down Leo's face but he absent-mindedly wiped them away, trying to prevent them from dripping onto his work. When it became clear that his efforts were in vain, he placed his pencil in his notebook and wrapped hi arms around himself. Two other sets of arms wrapped around him, Jason and surprisingly enough, Frank. Leo smiled a watery smile.

"It's okay guys, it still hurts but she wouldn't have wanted me to be sad, mi abuela would have wanted me to think about all the positive memories that we shared." His smile grew stronger. The next video would remove that smile.

Ten year old Leo was once again sitting in the therapist's office. His therapist was giving him a strained smile.

"Seeing as ordinary therapy sessions don't seem to be working for you, I have decided that we are going to try something different. Follow me." Leo followed obediently, though the look on his face was apathetic.

They reached a door and the therapist beckoned for Leo to enter. the small boy did, revealing a large, mostly empty room.

"You are going to spend the day in here Leo." Leo looked alarmed at this.

"I want you to concentrate on how you are feeling without anything to distract you. You may vent however you like and it will be a private session just for you."

"You'll be watching." Leo sounded very churlish and still more than a little alarmed.

"You are very good at spotting cameras and microphones Leo, can you sense any in here?" A small fraction of tension lifted from Leo.

"Now I will bring you your food at lunch time and let you out at tea but other than that you are not allowed to leave this room." The therapist walked out looking slightly smug and closed the door behind him. Leo sat down, looking bored already.

Text popped up saying "three hours later".

Leo stood up, a fed up air radiating from him. It was clear that he had made up his mind about doing something to alleviate his boredom. He pulled out an expensive smart phone with a look that was a mix of pride and shame.

"Yes I pick-pocketed his smartphone, and I want to get this damn memory over with quickly so shut up and watch." Percy, who had been just opening his mouth to ask a question, shut it again quickly. Annabeth raised her eyebrows at Leo's aggressive behaviour.

WARNING : Mentions of suicidal thoughts.

After hacking the phone, Leo clicked on the music app and chose a group of files called Leo's music. He selected one song and placed the phone on the floor in front of him. He took a deep breath and the music began to play.

"Feel it cutting into me, the doubting painful knife

Feel it deepening the rift, finally hit just right

Couldn't take the love I had, so weak and burning low

But it grew into a weapon only hurting me, this I know

...is non fiction."

As he sang the first verse he summoned a small flame that grew into a dagger when the words "Painful knife" were sung.

"So good with numbers, science, math I like

But I'm terrible at English so I despise

This part of me that wants a simple "right or wrong"

And I feel that everything I choose will always be false"

He threw his hands in the air in an exasperated gesture.

"And today, this homework, about me. A blank sheet, accomplished, content with this life I will now live. Til I think why are we just sometimes, no always, saying how we're sad and saying how we're lonely?"

He threw in a few quick foot movements and then he moved onto the chorus.

"Can you even read the blackboard written clear as can be?

Can you even read his mind? See that kid's lost fantasy?

Can you even find the one who dyed his red heart to black?

Hey, who could it be?

Hey, someone tell me!"

As he sang the word "heart" he gesture to his chest angrily.

"Can you even solve the question with your abacus yet?

Can you even stop the rope from hanging him by his neck?

Did we really choose it right saying we're okay this way?

Hey, just tell me how

It's not like I care now"

He mimed hanging himself, a desolate look on his face.

"Counting days like numbers, they all pass their prime

And again hypnotically swimming through time

Behind the power and guards I put up

I hide

Knowing they had long died"

His face was covered by his hair then his hands.

"From problems, my resolve, just can't solve, that homework. Accomplished, content with this life I will now live. Til I think and he speaks, that demon inside me, saying "let me just leave", saying "someone kill me!"

Someone kill me was practically a shriek and Leo collapsed to the floor, his fists clenched in his hair, face turned to the floor. He then leapt up in a jerky, angry movement and repeated the chorus. Then it was time for the final verse.

"Can you even say the formula of area now?

Can you even scream the dreams you swore would never go out?

Who was the one who let my hopes just curl up die?

Hey, who could it be?

No, it's gotta be...

Just open up your eyes, why don't you grow up and see?

But what the hell is "growing up" and tell me when will I be?

Can a single person out there just explain it to me?

Hey, just tell me how

It's not like I care now!"

The line "but what the hell is "growing up" and tell me when will I be?" was spat with particular venom as was the final line. Leo was crying by the end, exhausted by the admittance of his own feelings.

Annabeth felt tears dripping down her own cheeks.

"Gods, Leo."

I seriously recommend listening to this song to truly understand this chapter. And just to clarify, Annabeth was the last ot speak. I used all of the song as I think that the song as a whole sums up a very dark part of Leo's soul so I'm sorry if you didn't like the way it was written. And I apologise for any Spanish mistakes. As always, feel free to review.