**************It's Shinya Kogami's Birthday! Tanjyoubi Omeddetou! I'm doing Time skips inn this story for those of you haven't noticed. I know its Kogami's birthday but I'm going to rewind ahead a little bit so please read and review. Favorite as well! Follow too! *************

Eri was standing outside in the rain. She couldn't feel her limbs anymore. Everything felt like it just had come to a stop. She was standing outside a tall white building facing the ground. She didn't care if the rain was cold. Nothing could unfreeze the feeling she had in her heart. Suddenly tears started to stroll down her brown cheeks. She heard the door to the building open but didn't bother to look up to see who was coming in or out. A tall blonde haired man stopped and gazed at the soaked girl. She looked lifeless.

"Eri?" She was standing outside of Matt's apartment. She was so confused in her head that she didn't know what to do. Matt automatically walked over to Eri and put his umbrella over her to stop the rain from drenching her. She didn't look at Matt.

"Eri? Are you ok? Why are you standing here in the rain? It's cold and windy today, you're sure to catch a cold." Matt said with concern. Eri didn't talk neither did she move. "Hey. Eri. What's wrong?" He placed a hand on Eris shoulder. She then grabbed his hand trembling from the cold. "Come on. I'm taking you upstairs." Matt was on his way out to the store, but, since he cared for Eri so much, he could go to the store later. He took the girl into his apartment building. The whole elevator ride she was silent. She still didn't look at Matt. Did something happen? He thought. Should he call the police? Was she attacked? Matt didn't understand anything that was going on. Matt took the keys out to his apartment and opened the door. The lights automatically came on.

"I'm going to grab you a towel. Just wait here." He said turning his back on the girl. Suddenly, Eri grabbed his wrist. Matt was surprised by her action. He turned around to face her and saw that she started to sob. He saw the tears falling onto his floor and could hear sniffles.

"Eri?" Eri finally looked at him. His stomach turned at the sight of the beauty completely broken down. Her eyes were so red and puffy. Her complexion was flushed. She soon collapsed to the floor and started to wail. Matt followed Eri to the ground.

"What happened?" Eri didn't say anything. All she did was cry. Matt could only comfort her. Eri looked at Matt and felt nothing but grief. She just wanted someone who could make her feel happy again. She took off her white t-shirt leaving her only in her purple bra.

"Eri! What are you doing?" Eri touched Matt's cheek and he blushed. She kissed him. Matt was confused but didn't bother to ask questions. He kissed Eri back. He was guessing something had to happen between her and Kogami. The next thing Matt knew he picked her up and took her to his bedroom.

A few days later….

Kogami was sitting on a bench smoking a cigarette. He had a lot on his mind and didn't know how to handle the stress. He had just been demoted to an Enforcer and was forced to live at the CID with the other latent criminals. He lost one of his closest friends and was upset with himself that he couldn't find the person who killed him. All he had was a blurry picture. Kogami decided to go downstairs and spar against a bot. As he violently kicked and punched the human looking punching bag, Ginoza was standing at the door watching him. Kogami didn't notice he was there. Ginoza entered the door and cleared his throat.

"How are you feeling today?" The tall man asked pushing his glasses up on his face. Kogami didn't respond. He only finished his match with the bot.

"Look, Ko. I know you're going through a tough time. We all are. Especially at the loss of Sasayama." Kogami stood still. "Can we talk? Now Inspector to former inspector, but…as friend to friend?" Kogami looked at Ginoza and could tell he was serious. He stopped the bot and sat on the couch beside his long term friend. There was silence for a moment, until Ginoza broke it.

"Ko. I know things are dark and bleak right now. But. You know you can't keep going on like this."

"I know." Kogami said taking a sip of bottled water.

"Sasayama wouldn't want it." Ginoza paused for a long time and glanced at Kogami from the corner of his glasses. "He especially wouldn't have wanted you to break that young girl's heart." Kogami's heart stopped. He was trying everything to stop thinking about Eri. He couldn't.

"How did you know?" Kogami asked leaning back into the couch.

"My father was outside listening to you two argue. He was on the opposite side of the wall so you guys couldn't see him. He said he was just passing by and heard everything. He said he never saw a girl so broken before either." This made Kogami feel uncomfortable. "Really Ko. What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Nothing. I did the right thing. I can't give her the world that I once wanted to give her."

"So? She was by your side every step of the way! Did you forget that?" Of course Kogami didn't forget that. "I remember the very first time you got shot. She came here crying as if you had died. Even though it was a flesh wound." Kogami stared at the ground. "Even that day we were walking through Shibuya, You stopped at a jewelry store to look at engagement rings. DO you remember?"

"Yea. I do." Kogami answered.

"So why the hell w-"Ginoza was cut off.

"Because! I'm a latent criminal ok?! We have no rights. I'm just an inspector's hound dog sent out for the hunt. I couldn't give her what I wanted to give her anymore. I can't marry her, anything. So I figures she would be happier with someone who can give her that life!" Kogami grew very upset and threw his water bottle across the room. He placed his hands in his hair. His mind was spinning out of control.

"So you crush her? I know you Ko. Did you think what that was going to do to her? My father went by with Kagari to see how she was doing. She was there in her apartment with her friends Kyoko and Mitako. They say she won't eat." Kogami's heart sank. He didn't mean to sound so harsh to Eri. He told her he never wanted to see her again. He remembered the look in her eyes, it looked like life had left them. All he remembered was her throwing the necklace that he had given her at his face and storming out of the room. Kogami really hated himself now. He loved Eri dearly, but, how could he be with her? Like he said, he couldn't give her children, or marry her. He didn't want to take that joy away from her. So he broke up with her. It was the hardest thing he ever had to do besides looking at Sasayama dismantled corpse.

"Look. I'm willing to take you to see her. Sort this out. She's your ray of hope Ko. Don't forget someone you had so many memories with." When Ginoza said that images of Sasayama and Eri ran through his head. Despite Kogami's manly demeanor, he couldn't help but cry. Ginoza placed his hand on his friend's muscular shoulder.

"You know we are going to miss you." Mitako said crying. She was helping Eri with her bags.

"Is that the last one?" Eri asked. Mitako nodded.

"Yupp." Mitako hated to see Eri in the state she was in. She seemed colder. Lost. Sad. Eri tried to force smiles but it wasn't the same smile that Eri usually had. Kyoko stared at the pictures of her and Kogami.

"What are you going to do with these?" Kyoko asked. Eri didn't bother to look at the frames.

"Burn them. Throw them out. I don't care." Kyoko didn't do that. She placed the pictures in her handbag.

"Are you going to say goodbye to Matt at least?" Mitako asked. Eri felt so guilty. She involved Matt in her heartache. She had went to Matt's place looking for some way to release the pain in her heart from Kogami dumping her. She wounded up sleeping with Matt. It was pleasurable, but, the sex was nothing compared to how Kogami use to make her feel. She was looking for someone to fill her emptiness and make her whole, but, nothing compared to Shinya Kogami.

"No. Just leave it. I'll speak to him when I get a chance. Let's just go, before I miss my flight." Both of her friends helped Eri to the door. Eri stepped out of her apartment without looking back. Mitako and Kyoko looked at the apartment. All they could see was flashbacks of Kogami, Eri and Sasayama sitting on the couch drinking and taking shots or just goofing around. How can things just change so drastically? Kyoko was found of Sasayama and began to cry for him. She was also crying because she hated to see her friend in so much pain. She couldn't believe that Eri and Kogami were really over. Mitako grabbed Kyoko's shoulder and consoled her closing the door to the once laughter filled apartment.

Kogami loved Eri. He couldn't sleep without her face appearing in his dreams. Ginoza was giving him permission to leave the CID as long as he was there with him. He had to make things right with Eri. He looked at a picture of Eri on his wall. It was Halloween and she was dressed up as an insanely hot bunny rabbit. That was Kogami's favorite picture of her. He smiled. He was the one who took the photo of her. There was also another picture of himself, Sasayama, Eri, Kagari and Mitako. They were at the hibachi house. Kogami always made sure that his enforcers had a good time. Eri was clinging to Kogami's arm in the picture. He placed bunny ears on Eri. It was corny, but they were just having fun. Everyone seemed so happy. As Kogami exited his room Kagari came barging in.

"KO!" Kogami noticed that he was out of breath.

"Ever heard of knocking?"

"Stop being a wise ass Ko! The old man said he saw Eri leaving with her friends. They were-"Kagari was trying to catch his breath. "There was suitcases. They were heading for the American airlines terminal." Kogami's heart felt like there was a sudden jolt of lightening. Kogami grabbed his jacket and ran out of his room with Kagari following behind.

Ginoza had never sped so fast in his life before. He had his police sirens on for people to move out of the way. Kogami still couldn't believe that Eri had decided to leave. He had to talk to her before she got on that plane. He didn't want things to end the way they were. Ginoza was speeding up the terminal. He stopped in front of the American Airlines gate. Kogami jumped out with his two friends behind.

"What gate?" Ginoza pulled out his badge and showed it to the bag handler.

"MWPSB! Which gate is having a plane depart?" The young man seemed frightened. Ginoza caused the boy to drop his bags.

"Uh...gate 36 I believe." All three men headed in that direction. Kogami being the fastest. All three men were out of breath. Kogami stood frozen. The gate was closed. The plane had left. He heard a familiar voice crying. He glanced to his left and saw Mitako, Kyoko and Junya. The girls were in tears due to the departure of their friend. Junya was hugging both of them. His expression even seemed not normal. He seemed to be really sad. Ginoza and Kagari's heart sank for Kogami. He had missed his chance. Kogami didn't bother to say anything to Eri's friends... He turned around and started to walk back to the car.

"Ko, you ok buddy?" Kagari asked as he left with his head down. Ginoza was close behind. All three men were back in the car and it was silent. Ginoza didn't know what to say to Kogami. By the way he was clenching his fist, he could tell Kogami was angry as hell. Kogami couldn't believe it. Within months, he had lost a friend, had been demoted and lost the girl of his dreams. He punched the window crack the glass a bit.

Eri was looking out the plane window holding her knees. She had remembered the first time she arrived in Japan. She remembered the excitement she had. She could hardly wait to get off of the plane. Now she was happy to leave. She never expected to come to Japan and fall in love. That wasn't her intentions. Now she was leaving with a broken heart that was impossible to fix. She silently cried into her knees covering her face. Even when she closed her eyes, all she could hear was Kogami's voice and see his face. She hated him. She hated him for the heartache he caused her, but she still loved him. Sadly, he didn't love her anymore. Maybe going back home was the best thing to do. She could clear her head and her heart of everything that happened within the past few months. It wasn't long until Eri fell asleep. She wasn't able to do that for a while. Even in her sleep, she dreamed about Shinya Kogami.

******WELL! WHAT DO YOU THINK! IM SORRY IF THIS MADE YOU SO SAD! PLEASE READ AND REVIEW! REMEMBER IM DOING TIME SKIPS SO IT WILL BE BACK AND FORTH!**************