Welcome one and all!

Thanks to all the new readers and reviewers, I love reading that you like this story and I'm really sorry I haven't been able to respond to many of you, as I've stated b4 I can't really answer questions regarding the plot, but I invite you to keep reading to find out, I know it's a long story but all will be answered, and like all of you I love me a HEA, and this story definitely has one, not what you would expect but it sure does.

**Warning**

This chapter has a very vivid dream sequence and it's highlighted in bold so that you'll know the begging of it, I'm sorry if this triggers bad feelings for anyone, I actually had this dream and let me tell you that I woke up panting and crying (sad to say it's a recurring dream, that's why it's so vivid)

OK, enough of me talking.

Enjoy!

Chapter 80

I don't stop until I'm in front of my locker, I open the lock with the combination and get my bag out, I feel a wave of nausea but I try to breath through it. I really don't want to stop to vomit. I put on my hoody and walk out the back door.

I feel the presence behind me but by now I know that it's useless to turn around, I won't see anything. I can only feel it.

I've never told anyone about it, but I think I'm being haunted, with my luck it's that fucker Jacob trying to get his revenge on me for toasting him, the images that come to me are too frightening and to gruesome to ignore.

Fuck! I can't think of that anymore, it will just drive me crazy, as if I'm not already.

I stop at the liquor story on my way home, I forgot to clock out, but who the fuck cares, they'll still deduct some hours even if I'm there.

I had only been back for two weeks and everything has changed. Aro decided he didn't want to be in the club's inner workings so he hired Miguel a tall blond blue eyed surfer type, he is very nice, very happy go lucky and totally smitten with me. Heidi's words.

"You should totally give him a try", she smirks at me while I walk pass her on the lower floor of the club taking the drinks to the tables.

She's nuts to think that I would want this guy near me after all that's happen to me, but she doesn't know all the shit that I've been trough, no one does.

And Aro's condition to give me my job back was that I had to pay Caius' medical bills.

Fucking asshole as if what he tried to do was all novel. Yea, like I fucking care what happened to that disgusting piece of shit.

I buy a pack of cigarettes and a bottle of cheap tequila, which has quickly become my routine, but tonight I'm too depressed, I feel an ache in the pit of my stomach and sensation of fullness, it's unusual, I can feel the heat and the soreness. My body aches all over, but my stomach is in knots and the nausea comes in waves.

I try to breath through it, but when I get home I unlock the door quickly and run to the bathroom and empty my stomach in the bowl.

After I strip down and draw a bath on the old chipped tub I get in and close my eyes. I feel it.

It's still here with me.

I submerge my head in the water, wetting my hair.

This is just too fucked up.

I feel alone and lonely.

I can hear the quietness of the night and it intensifies the feelings I've been harboring. My eyes water and I feel hopeless. It's too much; these emotions feel like they are too big for my small body.

So I burst in to sobs.

I come to when the chill of the water makes me quiver with cold. I get out of the tub and rub my body dry with an old towel, I feel the chill still in the room, I know it's still here.

I look myself in the mirror for a few minutes, putting my hands on the sides of the low sink.

And I make a decision.

I know I'll have to leave this place soon, I can't stay here forever.

Then I remember what just happen to me that is making me decide whether to leave or stay longer.

I'm in the middle of a shift when it happens again, I see it. It's huddled up on the side of the stage, it looks at me with its beautiful deep gray eyes and everything else banishes as if we are the only two in the world.

I walk to it slowly, trying not to startle it. It looks like a frighten animal. His head is lowered, his chin resting against his chest, the hood is over his head covering his head.

And then I see it, the small lifeless child in his hands, he looks at it, his hands caress the small head, the child's eyes are closed as if it was sleeping, but there is no movement from his chest. The skin is bloodied as if he has just been born and it's everywhere, it covers his hands and feet, it paints his skin as if it was normal. He leans his head over the small body and presses his lips carefully on the small forehead, when he raises his head to look in to my eyes, the expression is of devastation.

I see him open his mouth as if to speak but the only sound that comes out is a guttural scream that drowns every noise, it is so loud that I feel my body vibrate from the intensity, I can't hold on to anything so.. I faint.

When I come to, Heidi and Demitri are over me with worried expressions, Miguel is holding a small rag that smells of rubbing alcohol under my nose, they speak slowly and they try to make me feel better but the only thing I can think of is the small bloodied body in the hooded figure's arms. I get up as quickly as I'm able with wobbly legs and an unsteadied pace, I move to the other edge of the club and head for the dressing rooms to get my stuff and get the hell out of this place.

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