Chapter 82

I come closer still pressing my body to his and my lips trail kisses dampening the cloth, I turn my face up enticing him, testing his resolve, I want to feel his lips; those lips that I've captured only on canvas.

I take a deep breath but the pressing on my chest is too heavy and I can't seam to breath. I feel faint and like I'm about to leave. My skin is too hot but not just the surface but down to the core.

The flash of light catches me of guard and there I see a beautiful face, those same sad blue-green eyes and the lips tell me that it's not my time, I turn my head to look back at the figure but it's so frightening and I can't catch my breath.

I try to move away from it, but as I do, I feel like I've been thrown to the side. My body jerks sideways and before I can catch my balance, I feel the chill of the night on my exposed legs as I sit on the floor of the dank little balcony outside my bedroom window, I have a half smoked cigarette in my hand and I'm still trying to catch my breath.

He's called me several times but I hadn't been answering, he left me a message that he'll be sending this guy here, I fill stupid for being afraid.

I clean all the brushes and the cloths so that everything looks presentable, I wear a nice hunter green dress and flats, I've done my hair in a wavy messy way, simple but sexy.

The guy sounds like an lawyer, according to Miguel.

Yeah, now he's the one pimping me, since Aro was too busy taking care of some business.

He sits on my old couch in a gray two piece suit with a white crisp shirt, and no tie, he is older than I had expected. His hair is salt and pepper, he is handsome by all standers, his deep brown eyes are a nice change, his skin is dark almost cinnamon.

Yeah, so I go out with him and it's all the usual,

"tu eres muy bella y talentosa, me gustaria llenarte de diamantes".

Yeah, the guy is a real price, after dinner and dancing he gropes me and takes me to a cheap motel, but the catch is that this time I'm really there, I can feel, I can attest to all of it. Before I know it, I feel my skin start to prickle and I'm covered in dust.

I open my eyes and move as quickly as possible, I grab my things and move to the bathroom, grabbing a towel I clean all the surfaces and the doorknob, as I move to the door I glance back and notice that his wallet is on the bedside table, I grab it and run out.

Stupid, stupid, stupid…

I chant all the way home…

It's been another week. I'm working tonight, it's hard to believe but its been quiet, and I don't just mean tonight but all week, it's almost too quiet, I've had trouble sleeping again, and when I do, the dreams are back, I see large meadows and wild flowers, I can hear music far away and heel stomping on wood. I feel like I'm underwater and I can't really see what's happening. The beautiful green eyes are back, I see him smile but he's different, he seams younger, his hair is longer and waves in the wind, his skins is sun-kissed, and gritted with dirt, he seams happy but not complete. I'm left longing for him.

Tonight I'm weaving through the tables taking drink orders and flirting with the customers, I girl's got to get her tips. They love my type, the quiet, reserved almost school girl image that I have here.

My first and only experience dancing only showed me that I had to play my strengths in this business, so I stopped using too much make up and strengthening my hair. The soft curls and the doe eye make up is a great perk.

Aro is here tonight, I guess that's the only exciting thing happening, but I see him sitting at the bar. That's not his usual behavior, so I'm a little uneasy.

He approaches me with his sleazy smile a few hours before my shift ends, the one that we all know he does just before he fucks you up or makes you do something disgusting.

-"I need you to entertain this gentleman sitting at the bar, Bella"- He gestures towards the blond, green-eyed man with the blue suit.

He looks handsome and wealthy, but I can see more, his eyes are sinister, his lips smile but it's not of happiness or anticipation, it's a terrifying sneer the kind that Caius has plastered on his face. I know this type; they are looking for more then just a date or a fuck. He wants something special.

Aro's been itching to get ride of me, I know it. He's pissed that I only wait tables now. He knows that he can't keep paying me if I'm not hooring or dancing for him. Well I don't give a shit, after this it will all be over.

I smile at the man on the stool as I approach; he's wearing an expensive watch and a pinky ring. He's drinking whisky that James keeps refreshing. He talks to me, introducing himself as Alec, his green eyes sparkle when I tell him my name, his eyes roam my body slowly as if it where a snake slithering over my skin and I see his hands flexing in to tight fists when I tell him at what time I get off work. He agrees to meet me here so that we can start our "date".

I walk quickly into the wardrobe room and got to my locker, Heidi just stares at me as if in shock.

-"You're not going to do it? Right, Bella?" Her voice cracks a little. I know that she wants to look after me, but I don't need anyone to do it, I can take care of myself, I've been doing it all my life.

I don't answer her, I mean what am I supposed to do, tell her that I've decided it's over.

That I'm not worth saving. That I know I will serve a better purpose once I'm gone.

No, I simply smile at her, and node, she's frighten for me, I know.

So I change my clothes and put on a shinny midnight blue tank top dress and let my hair down. I reapply my lipstick and check that my eye make up hasn't melted from the heat of the club. I grab my leather jacket and my black bag, and I'm off.