Notes: Another note on timing.
So, as we found out on Friday's glee (6.05), it is October in that episode.
Which makes sense to what I wrote on the time-line in the note on ch. 2.
However, while I agree that it makes a lot more sense for this season to have stated in September, for the sake of not having Kurt and Blaine broken up for more than year, this chapter is set only 2 months later rather than 9. However, it will be written as if they are in September. Really, I'm following in Glee's horrible ideas on what time is.
Enjoy the chapter and thank you for reading/reviewing.
Chapter Four
Two Months Later
"I think I'm going back to Ohio," Kurt announced to Elliott, Dani, and Sebastian.
He had been trying to find a way to tell them for a few days since his last meeting with the therapist that Mrs. Smythe had referred to him.
"I'm ready," Kurt said, "I need to see Blaine, and I need to apologize to him and win him back."
None of them spoke. It was as if each of them was waiting for one of the others to speak. Sebastian who had been leaning against Elliott's side, sat up.
"Kurt, you do realize that this is horrible timing, right? You're just starting your third year at NYADA. Going back to Ohio now…you still have to see your therapist."
Kurt sighed. He knew they wouldn't get it. The thing was, he was feeling a lot better. He understood himself a lot better as well as everything that had gone wrong with his relationship with Blaine on his part. His issues with intimacy which stemmed back to the death of his mother as well as his need to fight with Blaine as a way to connect with him, an explanation that still baffled him. He was ready to go see Blaine.
"And," Dani said, "you have that work study thing lined up. You can't just drop everything."
It hadn't been an easy decision, but Kurt knew that Blaine was more important and it had been long enough since their break up. Kurt couldn't wait. He didn't want to say the other part of it to them, how despite having the three of them he missed his other friends. He missed Rachel. It was partly hearing from his dad that she was back in Lima that had pushed him to really consider going back.
"What does your therapist say about this?" Elliott asked.
"She said it was my choice. That I improved greatly and that it would be healthy for me to admit my faults and apologize to Blaine."
Kurt left out how she'd also told him that he had to take it slow and that from everything she'd heard about Blaine, that it seemed he had some issues of his own to work out.
"You might not be ready to get back together with him," she'd said, "and he may not want to get back together with you. All you can do is try and respect his choices."
"Well, if this is what you want," Dani said, "we're not going to stop you. Just be sure it's what you want."
He wasn't a hundred percent sure, but he knew he had to try. At the very least, he could apologize and then return to New York. If he went back it didn't mean he would just stay in Lima waiting for Blaine to accept his apology. He also really wanted to see Rachel.
Sebastian had settled himself back against Elliott and when he spoke again, he didn't move from his spot.
"It's going to be sickening when they get back together," Sebastian said, "but they will. And, Kurt will not be going to Ohio alone."
"What?" Elliott asked and he pushed Sebastian off of him.
"Well," Sebastian said, "I was going to tell you all tonight not to miss me. I'm not exactly taking a semester off, I'm going to be doing a few classes online, but I will be doing about half of it in Ohio. My parents want me to spend some time with my grandfather, he's not exactly doing well."
Kurt found that he was surprisingly happy with the prospect of having Sebastian with him in Ohio. The thought of not having him, or Elliott, or even Dani had made him a bit more cautious about wanting to go back to Ohio. But he was sure that it was the thing he needed to do.
"Good," Elliott said, "at least you'll be there to watch out for him."
"Hey!" Kurt said.
Elliott tilted his head to the side. "I mean it in the best way, Kurt, you're still not in a good place."
"Does it mean that I at least get a good send off?" Sebastian asked and he turned to look at Elliott.
Kurt was surprised that his two friends had yet to have sex. They had made out a few times, after or during drinking and they flirted enough with heavy innuendos and yet Kurt had not heard from either of them on going further.
"Well I don't know about that," Elliott said.
"Right," Dani said, "I think it's movie time."
They were at Kurt's loft, mostly because he, Elliott, and Dani had just finished band practice and Sebastian had insisted they hang out that night and at the very least watch a movie. His reasoning had clearly been to tell them he was leaving New York for a few months. Kurt thought it was sweet that Sebastian really considered them his friends. Sometimes it was still surprising for Kurt to call Sebastian his friend, but he was slowly getting over it.
He settled into his usual armchair and Dani who was closest to him, reached over and grabbed his hand.
"You will call me every day," she said.
Elliott was putting in the movie, one of the latest superhero flicks, and he settled himself back down next to Sebastian after he'd pressed play. Kurt thought that they looked oddly cozy together which only a little strange because the Sebastian that Kurt knew wasn't very likely to start any kind of physical contact unless he really had to.
While Sebastian and Elliott were distracted, Kurt nudged Dani.
"What's really up with them?"
Dani glanced over at them and shook her head. "Well, aside from the wanting into each other's pants but also not wanting to ruin their friendship?"
"Yes," Kurt whispered back.
"I don't know," she said.
Kurt was surprised when he found himself actually enjoying the movie. It might have had something to do with the very fit man that was running around on the screen, but he had to admit that the plot was also just as compelling. What really surprised Kurt, though, was how the movie didn't make him sad. The last time he'd watched a movie that was based on a comic book super hero, Kurt hadn't been able to handle watching it because his mind kept going to his dead step brother. These were exactly the kind of movies that Finn always got excited about for weeks if not months before they were released. He would have made Kurt watch with him on long weekends at home.
"Hey," Dani said, "what's wrong?"
He shook his head. "Nothing," he added when Elliott and Sebastian turned to look at him.
"Better not be about Blaine," Sebastian muttered.
Kurt managed a chuckle. "No, I was just thinking that Finn would have enjoyed this."
Sebastian nodded slowly. "He probably would have," he said, "he seemed like a good guy."
"He was," Kurt said.
After that they were all focused on the movie again. Something full of action was happening and Kurt got dragged back into it again.
Sebastian wasn't exactly happy to be leaving New York. When his parents suggested it, with already pre-picked online classes for him to enroll in, Sebastian had balked at the idea of leaving New York and school just so he could sit at the bedside of his dying grandfather back in Ohio.
Although Sebastian had never had it as bad as Kurt or for that matter Blaine, Ohio had not been as welcoming of him either, and Sebastian knew that it probably would never be as accepting as it could be.
At least, he wouldn't be completely friendless in Ohio. Sebastian had known that there would come a time when Kurt decided he needed to really go after Blaine. He had certainly not expected it to happen so soon, but there it was and a part of Sebastian wanted to yell at Kurt that it wasn't time yet, not when he still had a lot to deal with in therapy and when he had all other kinds of responsibilities like a job and school.
But, he held his tongue after his initial shock. His mom had always said that he couldn't make people's decisions for them and Sebastian tried his best not to.
At least he would be in Ohio with Kurt, and he could keep an eye on the situation. Sebastian was surprised at himself about how much he cared about Kurt. Ever since the day he saw him in the rain, Sebastian had just felt like it was important to protect Kurt.
"Sebastian, are you ready?"
Sebastian sighed and exited his bedroom with his packed bag in tow.
"Yes, mother," he said.
She was standing by his sofa, and fixed him with her knowing stare. "I know you aren't happy about this, darling, but your father feels it's important for you to know his side of the family as well as you know mine."
Sebastian nodded.
"And," she said, "you told me your friend Kurt would be in Ohio too, so it shouldn't be too much of a hardship."
Sebastian regretted allowing her to take him to the airport.
When he had been looking at different schools, Sebastian had never intended to pick a school that would keep him near his parents. He should have realized his mistake in picking NYU when his mom was overjoyed with the news. Despite having a perfectly good job in Ohio, she had somehow managed to secure one in the city. His dad was always travelling enough as it was, so Sebastian had expected him to stop for visits, but he hadn't been prepared to have to deal with his mother when she had time away from her friends and her job.
"I really do like him," she continued, "he seems like a nice boy."
Sebastian didn't answer her. He knew exactly what she was getting at, and he wasn't willing to encourage her.
The drive to the airport was quick, and then before he knew it, he was hugging her goodbye. When he finally got onto the plane, Sebastian breathed a sigh of relief and he relaxed in his seat, bringing out a book.
A few hours later he was getting out of a cab and walking towards his parent's house. Already he missed New York and the constant level of noise that had become almost comforting in comparison to the quiet of his street.
He opened the door with a key he hadn't used in months, and dropped his things right by the door. There wouldn't be anyone at his house aside from him for a few weeks until his father returned for a few weeks of business, but Sebastian expected his mother to show up before then if only to check up on how things were going. Sebastian was at least glad for the quiet and that his grandfather was at a nursing home rather than at the house.
After checking to see if there was anything in the kitchen, Sebastian headed up to his room.
It was just as he had left it. He could tell that no one had even bothered to walk into the room because of the layer of dust that had accumulated over his desk and dresser. The bed had at least been covered by old stained sheet.
"Well," Sebastian said, "so much for just taking a nap."
After cleaning his room, making up his bed with fresh sheets, and then deciding that he may as well unpack, Sebastian finally settled into his bed and he took his cell phone out.
His mother had texted him a few times already and there was also a text from Elliott and one from Kurt.
He answered each of them, letting them know he'd made it back to Ohio in one piece. To Elliott he added:
I am bored though, would totally be okay with some nudes about now.
He wasn't surprised when Elliott responded at once.
I'm so fabulous a picture would not contain me.
Flirting with Elliott was fun. It was easy and Sebastian found that he liked knowing that they were both on the same page and that neither really expected anything out of the flirting. It was one of the best things that had come out from meeting Kurt again. Elliott was also the perfect person to discuss the conquests that Sebastian had managed to have during the time they knew each other.
A few days later, it was Kurt texting him that he was in Ohio. Sebastian was sitting with his grandfather out in a patio and his grandfather who was not as far gone as his mother had made it out to be, quirked an eyebrow at him.
Sebastian had been surprised when finally going to see his grandfather that the man was not stuck on a hospital bed or too sickly. He did have a weak heart and had to be pushed around in a wheel chair, but so far there was nothing to suggest that he was close to death.
"Your mother exaggerates," he'd told Sebastian when he voiced his thoughts, "but I was always very fond of her. Your father didn't like her at first, thought she was stuck up or something."
It turned out that sitting with his grandfather wasn't as bad as Sebastian had expected. He had never gotten the chance to spend a lot of time with him for one because he'd been living in France with his mother's family, and for another when he was finally back in Ohio he had been a little resentful of having to leave Paris and gotten busy with Dalton.
He left his grandfather after a few hours with the promise of returning the next day and then instead of going grocery shopping like he had planned on doing, he headed back home. He had taken the time to settle back in and then to make sure the online classes he was signed up for did not expect anything from him yet, but he had yet to go back to Dalton or even to his other usual haunts like The Lima Bean or Scandals.
It seemed a good time as any to return to Scandals and see if he could at the very least get a good drink.
He took an hour to just check his e-mail and facebook before getting ready to go. For a moment before leaving he considered calling Kurt and asking him if he was up to going to Scandals, but then decided not to. He wanted to give Kurt his space, and he was sure that Kurt would be meeting up with his old friends and probably even already going after Blaine.
Sebastian didn't know how to feel about the whole thing. On the one hand he and just about everyone else he knew had been positive that Kurt and Blaine were perfect for each other, but now Sebastian knew that not everything had been exactly like everyone else perceived it. For all that Kurt regretted breaking up with Blaine, Sebastian just didn't know if things would change if they did get together.
"Haven't seen you around for a while," the bartender said.
It was nice, in a way, to be a familiar face. Things like that didn't happen in New York. There were too many people and too many faces.
"School," he said, "but I'll be back for a while. Anything new around here?"
"Not really. Beer?"
Sebastian nodded. "Yeah, sure."
After he was handed his beer, Sebastian turned away from the bartender and towards the space that could be considered the dance floor. There were a few people out there, but no one that appealed to Sebastian. He sipped at his beer and continued to people watch until suddenly he spotted Kurt walk in.
Kurt looked nervous and his eyes glanced around the room as if he were looking for someone but didn't find them, and then they settled on Sebastian.
"You would be here," he said.
"Well, I certainly didn't expect you," Sebastian said.
Kurt took a deep breath. "I'm meeting Blaine."
"I see," Sebastian said.
Kurt leaned against the bar and he pursed his lips. "I saw Rachel. She's going to be coaching the New Directions and wants me to stay and help her. I was thinking I would."
Sebastian took a gulp of his beer. "What about your script and working at the nursing home?"
Kurt shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know, but I'm sure NYADA would take me doing this as my work study and I missed being at home and Rachel."
"Right," Sebastian said, "but are you sure this is what you really want? I mean, I know you were feeling a bit homesick and the whole Blaine of it is a whole other thing, but do you really want to be in Ohio for at the very least a few months just to hang around your old high school?"
He could tell that Kurt had been thinking about it the same way he was, but there was something that had already convinced him it was the thing to do.
"I want to win Blaine back," he said, "and if I'm in New York and he's here that isn't going to happen."
Before Sebastian could respond, Kurt pushed him away. "He's here. Go."
Sebastian rolled his eyes, but he moved away, walking across the room and finding an empty table. He had gone to Scandals to get a couple of beers and maybe pick someone up if there was anyone that caught his interest, but that was all flying out the window in light of being able to watch Kurt and Blaine meet up for the first time since their break up.
He watched the awkward hug, and shook his head because those two were so obviously still into each other. He watched them talk for a while, and then he saw David Karofksy walk through the door and head over. For a moment Sebastian thought that his eyes had failed him, but Dave definitely was standing next to Blaine and he and Blaine kept looking at each other and Dave had definitely kissed Blaine's cheek. Sebastian couldn't see Kurt, but he knew without seeing him that he had to be devastated. Then, Kurt was rushing through other people and running into the bathroom and Sebastian didn't know what he was supposed to do. This was definitely unexpected.
He watched Dave and Blaine for a moment, taking in how Blaine kept glancing in the direction of the bathroom and how Dave was just talking away, completely ignorant to everything that had just happened.
After a few more minutes and no return from Kurt, and additionally no movement from Blaine to go after him, Sebastian got up and leaving his beer behind crossed the room to the bathroom and tried the door. When it didn't open, he knocked loudly.