Ally's POV
I have been avoiding talking to Rory so much since the incident at the hospital. It's been sort of easy with Winter break and all, but of course he does text and whenever he mentions the adoption thing, I can't not answer him. I have to make an excuse that this isn't the right time yet.
The thing was I just didn't want to give up my baby. I mean sure, I do want to finish high school and do everything I should or could do without a baby keeping me busy, but it's my baby—my son and every time I think of the thought of giving him up, even with an open adoption, it makes me sick.
I want to keep my baby. But I know Rory isn't going to want to.
I mean he already has his own daughter—and I think that is already enough pressure on him. He probably wants to be done with this stuff after I have him.
It was the first day back at school because of Winter break and I walked in with Sam. I saw Rory in the hallway, but then opened my locker—I sort of hope he didn't see me. "I gather that he still doesn't know that you want to keep the baby." Sam states and I don't say anything. "Ally, you gotta tell him."
"Who says?" I replied.
"Says me. The best friend, because he thinks his best friend's boyfriend should know what she would like to do with her baby. You want to keep it and I'm sure he'd be okay with it." Sam tells me and I smile. But I am not so sure about the being okay with raising another baby part.
"He has a daughter." I say softly.
"What?"
"Don't tell him I told you." I say softly again. "Her name is Emily and she is almost two I think. He slept with this girl Isabelle last year and they have a little girl. He loves her and from what he tells me, the only reason he even speaks to Isabelle is because of his daughter."
"Sam, I don't want to put this burden on him. Isabelle forced him to basically have a relationship with her so he could have one with his daughter." I said, sighing. I wasn't going to make that mistake. "I don't want to force him to raise my baby." Plus, it would—could make him think that would be the only way to have a relationship with me. I wasn't not going to be another Isabelle—since Rory thought adoption was best, I guess that's best.
"Are you at least going to talk to him? I mean, you guys are still together." Sam asked and that was a good question—I mean of course we are. I will talk to him.
"I just need to find out what to say first." I reply. I know if I don't he will ask me about adoption and that is not what I want to talk about right now.
I look over and see him walking towards me—think of something quick Ally! I yell mentally. "Hey." Rory says when he reaches me and that was when I notice Sam has left my side. Great.
"Hey." I say, the only thing I can say until I think of something—then it hits me.
"Do you have any name suggestions?" I ask.
"What?"
"For the baby." I am still getting used to the fact of knowing what I am having. "I mean, we know it's a boy now and he should have a name."
"Generally the adopters would pick out the name." Rory stated. "But I guess they would have no problem with this." I smiled—at least I could name him. "I don't know—do you have any in mind?"
"Well, I want to get others opinions first." I told him and he nodded.
"You know, I have always like the name Jack. It was name I picked out for Emily—before I knew it was a girl. Isabelle hated it."
"Good thing it was a girl, right?" I said, joking and he laughed a little.
"Yeah, I guess. We eventually came to agreement when I convinced her not to name her after herself." He said and I laughed—then I saw that he wasn't kidding. Seriously? She thought of naming her daughter of herself? I certainly wouldn't name my daughter Alison or Ally; I have a feeling Isabelle might be full of herself.
I walk down the halls, separating from Rory and see this boy—he looks lost. I go over to him—I shout, but he doesn't hear me. I tap him and he jumps in fright. I get a glance at his ears and realize why he couldn't hear me and why that startled him; he's deaf.
"Sorry." He says—So he is vocal. I guess that helped a bit.
"Are you okay?" I said, also signing in ASL.
"Yeah, you know ASL?" He asks me, also signing.
"Yeah, learned it when I was little." I said and signed, I probably should tell him the story. "When I was still in a foster home, there was this boy who was deaf, so I learned." The boy smiled—I guess he was glad someone found him that could sign. "What's your name?"
"Jamie." He said and signed.
"Nice to meet you, Jamie. I'm…" I said and then decided to just sign my name.
"Ally?" He questioned and I nodded. "Well, you're good at signing. I'll tell you that."
"Thanks, and I am probably the only one you'll find around here." I said and then wondered what he was doing here. "What are you doing here?"
"Exchange student." He told me. "I guess this school doesn't have—"
"Unless you count me." I signed and said. I swear—this school is just weird. Why have a deaf student if there are no interpreters. "What's your next class?"
"Wish I knew." He signed—I guess he hadn't gotten his schedule yet. I guess we were off to the office to talk to someone so we could find out where he had to go.
"So are you interested in anything extra?" I signed and asked him.
"Well I can dance." He signed-that was sort of perfect.
"You should join Glee Club." I suggested, of course signing it. "I mean, we need dancers as much as we need singers." Kurt told me how Mike Chang didn't exactly sing until this year, so I am sure they would let Jamie in if he was good.
"I sing too." He signed-that surprised me. "I get new hearing aids tomorrow, so I could audition with my voice tomorrow." That made sense, and it would be good to have another member. And having another guy would be cool, especially since I tend to get along with guys better. I mean the girls in Glee are cool, I like Mercedes and Tina, Santana and Rachel are cool, especially since we got passed our little rivalry during the whole Wicked thing, and Quinn has been very helpful during this pregnancy since she has been in my shoes before, but it seems to be easier for me to talk to guys. I have always been a tomboy, so I guess it's always been that way. Maybe.
I took Jamie and we got his schedule, I then found out he was a sophomore like Rory, so maybe he could show him around. I found Rory and introduced them both. "Rory, this is Jamie." I said and Rory said 'hi' and Jamie smiled. Crap, he's deaf. Probably should mention that. "He's deaf, so try to face him and talk slowly, but not too slowly." I added. Rory looked at Jamie, who nodded. Thank god, I didn't completely screw that up.
Joe's POV
Since Ally told me about the baby being a boy, I have been thinking about names. I doubt that she will want me to be a part of it or even be keeping the baby for that matter, but I have had this name in my head for a while and I really think she should hear it.
I found Ally in the hallway, saw her talking to Rory and this blonde guy. Once they walked away from her, I went up to her. "Hey." I said.
"What's up?" She asked. I grinned, it was better than telling me to get lost. I guess she has either has really forgiven me or has gotten used to the fact that I will go up to her and want to talk. I hope it is the first option.
"I have a name suggestion." I said and she sighed-I wonder if it's because it's from me. I frown too and wonder if I should walk away.
"Sorry, some people have been pestering me about that yesterday. What's your suggestion?" She asked and I grinned. I pulled her into a room and sat down on a desk.
"Joe? Did you really have to bring me into a dark-ish room to tell me what you think I should name my son?"
I couldn't just tell her, I had to play this song. It's kind of where I got the idea.
Everybody knows that you've got the coolest clothes,
You've got everybody on your side.
Anyone can see, you can hang around with me,
You'll be by your self on Friday night.
It's hard to understand if you never lose
You never want to win when it all comes down all around you now,
Don't let it bring you down.
You had all the moves,
You had all the coolest dews and you always had the coolest car.
I never learned to dance,
I had hair down to my ass,
And now I'm gonna be a rock star.
It's hard to understand if you never lose
You never want to win when it all comes down all around you now,
Don't let it bring you down.
Oh yeah, don't let it bring you down
Ally was smiling, so I guess that was a good sign. "I have a feeling that song was a name." Ally said and I nodded, I just realized the name wasn't even in the song lyrics. Weird. "Are you going to tell me?"
"Andrew." I told her, it's a name I have always liked. And then when I heard the song, I thought it was perfect. "You could call him Andy for short."
"I'll think about it." She said and then left the room. I guess that meant that I had a chance.
Rory's POV
I was at my locker, grabbing a few things before I would get Jamie and take him to Glee Club for his audition. At first, I was confused since he was deaf, but then
Ally told me he just got new hearing aids and that made much more sense. Before I was about to leave, Sam approached me.
"Hey, can we talk?" Sam asked and I nodded.
"Quickly, I have to show this new guy where the Choir room is." I told him.
"I guess Ally hasn't discussed her opinions on the whole adoption issues, has she?" Sam asked me and I shook my head-what did he mean?
"I mean, no, I didn't ask her if she wants open adoption or what, but I am sure she wants to have an open one-" He cut me off there.
"Rory, she doesn't want to give her baby up." Sam said. Wait, what?
"What?" I asked.
"She wants to keep him, but is doing this for you." Sam said. "Look she told me about Emily and please don't be mad at her, but she did and I guess I understand, that you don't want to-" It was my turn to cut him off.
"I never wanted to do adoption either." I said.
"Wait what?" Sam then asked.
"I just figured that was what she wanted. I mean with everything she had been through and how the baby was conceived and such...I couldn't bare the thought of not being Emily's father. And honestly, I thought about this baby and being the father to this one-it made me happier because the girl actually loved me."
"She told me about Isabelle too." Sam added-figures. I am not mad, it's just Sam. I trust him. And she only told him to explain her reasons.
"Isabelle was a mistake, but Ally wasn't." I said, smiling. Ally always managed to put one on my face. "I have a relationship with Isabelle because of my daughter. I have relationship with Ally because I love her. And being the father of her son...that would be a gift."
"Tell her you don't want adoption either." Sam said and then walked away.
Ally's POV
I was in the choir room and Rory sat next to me while Jamie talked to Mr. Shue. "Can we talk after?" He asked and I nodded. I really hoped it wasn't about adoption.
"Okay, Jamie, whenever you're ready." Mr. Shue said and Jamie nodded. He looked in my direction and I gave him a smile and thumbs up. The music started and Jamie began to sing.
Oh Danny Boy, the pipes, the pipes are calling.
From glen to glen and down the mountain side.
The summer's gone, and all the roses falling.
It's you, It's you, must go, and I must bide.
But come ye back when summer's in the meadow.
Or when the valley's hushed and white with snow.
I'll be here in Sunshine or in Shadow
Oh Danny Boy, Oh Danny Boy, I love you so.
But if you come, and all the flowers are dying,
And I am dead, as dead I well may be.
You'll come and find the place where I am lying.
And kneel and say an "Ave" there for me.
And I will know, tho' soft ye tread above me
And then my grave will richer, sweeter be.
And you'll bend down and tell me that you love me
And I will rest in peace until you come to me.
When he finished we all clapped for him. I loved the song he picked, I think it was also a song Rory liked too.
"Guys, I'd like you to give a warm welcome to our newest member, Jamie Sterling." Mr. Shue said and he sat down next to Rory.
"Hey," Blaine said and we all turned in that direction. "You're Jeff's little brother, aren't you?" He asked him—I remember Kurt mentioning a Jeff, but where was the question.
"Yeah." Jamie replied and then remember—I think it was time that Kurt had transferred to Dalton. He must have been a Warbler.
"Why don't you go to Dalton?" Blaine asked.
"I'm deaf, my parents thought it would be good for me to go to a school for deaf kids." Jamie told him. "I'm an exchange student. Luckily I got some hearing aids or finding my way around here would be hell with no one speaking ASL except Ally." He said, looking at me. Thank goodness for my deaf foster brother or we probably wouldn't have Jamie in here.
After Glee Club was over, I went to talk to Rory. I wondered what he wanted—please don't be about adoption. "Sam told me." Oh crap.
"Rory—" I tried to say.
"And I have never been happier." He said. What? "Ally, I love you and when I said I would be here for you and this baby, I meant it. I only brought up adoption because I thought that is what you wanted." Rory said and I grinned.
"In the beginning, I did, but now—the thought of giving my son up makes me sick." I admitted. "I mean, I do want to finish high school and I have my life ahead of me, but—this is my son and I want to be his mother."
"And if you'd let me…I'd love to be his father." Rory said and I then kissed him.
"I love you." I told him.
"Is that a yes?" He asked and I laughed.
"Yes, you irish idiot." I answered and then we kissed again. "I guess now all he needs is a name. You know people have been giving me suggestions all weeks, even Joe, and it's been driving me crazy."
"I guess I won't suggest one then." I laughed at that.
"Anyway, I was so busy focused on other stuff—I didn't really think about names." I admitted. "But then Joe suggested one and I like it, but I don't know if it's right."
"What was it?" Rory asked.
"Andrew."
"Hmm, Andrew Flanagan, Andy Flanagan…what do you think?" Rory asked—I liked the idea of using his last name. "It works, but…I don't know. It doesn't seem right."
"The name doesn't matter to me—as long as I have you, raising him will be amazing." Rory said and I kissed him again.
I then went to find Sam because I need to talk to him. I saw him and when he saw me, he started to walk away. "Sam!" I yelled, but he continued to walk away—like I was going to kill him. "Sam! Slow down! I'm pregnant!" I yelled and he stopped and then turned to me. "Don't worry, I'm not going to kill you."
But then I slapped him.
"What was that for?" He asked.
"Running away." I said. "Making the pregnant girl chase after you."
"Sorry." Sam said and we then both laughed.
"Thanks for telling Rory."
"I knew I probably would have to." Sam said and I rolled my eyes.
"I am not that stubborn."
"No, but you do tend to keep secrets. A lot. And for a while." Sam said and I nodded and there were reasons for that. I guess one of them was the fact I was a foster kid and we don't tend to trust too easily. "And you're my best friend, I'd do anything for you."
I then hugged him.
As I walked away, I began to sing a song.
I heard that you're on your own now
So am I
I'm living alone now
I was wrong
So were you
What will you do?
Are you glad to be free?
Are you feeling lost just like me?
Longing for company
Oh Sam, Sam, you know where I am
Come around and talk awhile
I need your smile
You need a shoulder
Oh Sam, Sam, you know where I am
And the door is open wide
Come on inside
Longing to see you
Oh Sam, Sam, you know where I am
I find the days hard to face now
Empty rooms
There's much too much space now
And the nights go so slow
I'm sure you know
Wish I knew what to do
It would be so nice seeing you
And it might help you too
Oh Sam, you know where I am
Oh Sam, ooh Sam
You know, you know
You know where I am
Would it be weird if I sung that to Sam? Probably because it was written as a love song and that would be in his favor because two boys liking me like that was enough.
So Ally and Rory are going to keep the baby, what do you think they will name it? (No, it won't be Sam LOL). Also the newest New Directions member made his debut. Jamie is played by Ross Lynch.
Songs: Andrew (Bowling For Soup), Danny Boy (Johnny Cash), & Sam (Olivia Newton-John).
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