****** SO FOR THIS CHAPTER I DECIDED TO GO BACK INTO THE PAST A BIT AND GET INTO THE DEATH OF MITSURU SASAYAMA MORE. THERE WILL BE A BIT OF POV, BUT, I' JUST WRITING THIS UNTIL SEASON 2 GIVES ME MORE LEADWAY. IT HASNTT GIVEN ME MUCH AT ALL. STILL EXCITED THAT IT'S BACK!*****

Of course, Ko was working late. Again. Sigh. I guess that's one of the perks of dating a detective. I understand though. I admire him so much. He does what he loves for a living and here I am still not too sure of what I want to do. At times, I wish I could be more like him. He has himself together. I reached for my phone. It was now 11:27. Usually he would call me by at least 10:30. Is he ok? Maybe he's just extremely tired and went to sleep. I placed my phone back on my night table and rolled onto my side staring at the glittery illusion of fairies and flowers. Yes, I know. I'm such a girl.

DING DING DING! DING DING DING!

My heart skipped a beat. I looked at my phone and quickly answered it. Finally. I thought.

"Hello!?" I said extremely happy. There was a silence. "Hello?"

"Um. Is this Eriallia Renson?" It wasn't Kogami. This was the voice of an older man. He sounded way older than Ginoza, so I figured it was probably Maybe Masaoka.

"Yes. It is." I looked at my phone screen again and noticed that it was a different number. The first few digits started off as the same as Ko's number.

"It's me. Masaoka. How are you little lady?"

"I'm fine sir. How are you?"

"I'm…" He paused. "Ok."

"Is everything ok?" It sounded like something was wrong. Oh my god! Was Kogami hurt?!

"Look, I think you should come down to MWPSB headquarters. I…..Can't get into too much detail, but, please. Ko needs you."

"He needs me? Is he ok?" Masaoka coughed due to his throat being dry.

"He's…..Just… come. Please." The next thing I heard was a click. I immediately jumped out of bed and grabbed a sweater from my closet and put on my boots that I had on early that day. I grabbed my wallet and train pass. I ran to my kitchen and grabbed my keys off of the counter. My heart was racing. I was scared. Oh my god. Was Ko hurt or even worse? At the thought of that, my mind went blank. I ran out of my front door forgetting to turn off the lights and the holographic setting. I just had to get to Kogami.

I busted through the doors of the MWPSB. I was slightly out of breath. When I stepped inside, it seemed empty. Kogami gave me the code to get into the MWPSB although he wasn't supposed to. I caught my breath from the frigid night air and made my way to division ones office. I looked inside and didn't see anybody. The office was completely empty. Maybe he was in the gym? I quickly made my way towards the gym. When I got to the front door of the gym, it had already been locked for the night. Damn. Where was he? Where was Ginoza or Masaoka? I didn't understand. I turned on my heel and made my way towards the kitchen. I looked inside the extremely large room and saw no one there again. Wait a minute. The balcony! Ko stood on the balcony of the MWPSB a lot. Maybe he was there. I quickly went through the kitchen then passed the dining hall and stepped out onto the balcony. It was so pretty out there. The lights of Tokyo were so bright and vibrant. I often came to see Ko and we ate lunch together there. Even during the day. The view was absolutely breath taking. I looked around and all I saw was the white puff of clouds coming from my mouth. Still, no Kogami. Maybe he went home? What was going on? Everything felt so strange. Just when I was about to walk back inside, I saw him. He was sitting on the opposite side of the balcony. He hadn't seen me though. I quickly ran through the dining hall and made my way to the other balcony. I opened the glass door and once again stepped out into the frigid air. I smiled in relief. I found him. But, something felt off. Something felt strange. He was sitting with his head down. Did he even know I was there? I approached him. Slowly.

"Kogami?" Now I was standing directly to the left of him. He didn't look at me. I was concerned. Kogami would never deliberately ignore me. Would he? Of course not!

"Hey. Why are you out here in this cold? You'll get sick." I touched his shoulder. He still didn't respond.

"Kogami? Are you alright?" Still he didn't answer me.

"Shinya?" I couldn't tell from the length of his hair covering his eyes, but when I kneeled on the ground, I clearly saw that he was crying. Or he had been. This shook me. Kogami was such a strong man. I never seen him cry.

"Shinya. What's going on? Speak to me. Please. You're scaring me. What happened?" He finally looked at me. My heart broke. He began to cry again. My eyes soon began to water. "Please. Talk to me. Please?" There was a long silence. Then he finally began to speak.

"Sasayama."

"What about him? Is he ok?" Kogami nodded his head no slowly. I looked at him with confusion.

"No." he answered.

"No? Well where is he? Is he sick or something?" This time, we were looking each other directly in the eye. There was so much sadness in Ko's eyes.

"He's…..He's…." I saw more tears stroll down Kogami's cheeks. "He's dead." At that moment, I couldn't even think. My mind went blank. My heart stopped. Soon enough I busted into tears.

"Wait. What?" I felt the hot stream of liquid pouring down my cheeks. I took Kogami's hand slowly.

"I couldn't save him. It's all my fault. I couldn't get there in time and he was killed!" Kogami cried. No not Sasayama. Although he was an enforcer. He was a good friend to Ko. He even became a friend of mine. There were many times he came over to eat or just hang out. His jokes, his laughter, his perverseness. Was it really all gone?

"No." I soon began to Sob. All I could do was wrap my arms around Ko. We cried together the Tokyo sky became shrouded with circles of black. It looked like the sky was going to cry with us too.

It was unreal, but, he was really gone. Sasayama was dead. We just got back from his funeral. My goodness. Sasayama Mitsuru. You were such a good man. Despite your foolishness and shenanigans, you had a heart of gold. While in the car, I had placed the car on auto driver. I decided to stay a few days with Ko. If he needed me to stay with him for a month, two months, or even a year, I would stay with him. I was thinking about the time when Kogami decided to take Sasayama to the pink kitty night club. I was pissed with Kogami for being such a pervert and going to a strip joint. I remember him showing up with Sasayama in his arms pissed drunk. Sasayama lost Kogami's key to his apartment and Kogami had forgotten his back up code. He couldn't bring Sasayama back to the MWPSB because he wasn't supposed to be out passed a certain time unless on duty anyways. So, I let them stay at my place. Oh the fun we had that night. Kogami didn't drink as much, but he didn't notice that Sasayama had swiped a whole bottle of vodka for the bar. I remember downing the bottle with him. Of course, we both puked our guts out and Kogami stood there and laughed saying we deserved it, but, all I remember was that Sasayama turned my boring studious night into a very fun one. I also remember Kogami telling me about a case they had. A man was going to rape a women. Or even worse. He told me how Sasayama almost beat him to death. Sasayama loved women. He was just as much of a pervert as Kogami was. Ok maybe he was worse, but, he did have a heart of gold. I remember when I sprained my ankle, he was passing by with another inspector from a different division. They had been walking. I guess he was trying to flirt with her, but, he carried me all the way to the hospital. He didn't have to do that, but, it was just his heart. He was a violent, drunk, and perverted but the kindest man you would ever know.

Now we were back at Kogami's place and the sky had just turned grey just in time. Soon, it started to cry for us. We lost a friend. I could tell that Kogami was distraught. He hadn't been sleeping. Neither had I.

"Kogami." He was taking off his suit jacket and undoing his tie. He placed it on his chair. He turned around to face me.

"Yes?" I signaled for him to come lay next to me. We were both tired. I went in my purse and got two sleeping pills. I grabbed the glass of water on the side of Kogami's bed and hand him a sleeping pill. Mitako had trouble sleeping sometimes and I told her about Kogami only sleeping for about 4-5 hours a day. She advised he see someone about that, which, he never did, but, she gave me two bottles of pills. Her dad worked for a pharmaceutical company so she got the pills easily.

"Take one." He looked at me. He smiled softly. He took the pill with the water following it behind. He sat next to me. I took the sleeping pill as well. I took his hand and leaned my head on his shoulder. He was silent for a while. But, then, he soon spoke.

"Thank you. Eri. For being there for me."

"Don't mention it." I soon started to doze off. I noticed Kogami started to doze off as well. Before I knew it, all I saw was pitch blackness. I had drifted off into another world.

I couldn't tell if it was night time or late afternoon. It was pouring still. As I regained my consciousness, I noticed that Kogami wasn't next to me. I didn't move or say a word. I stared at Kogami's back as he sat at his computer clicking away. I shifted my head a little bit to see what he was looking at. Why wasn't he still asleep? My eyes widened in horror when I saw what Kogami was looking at. What the hell? That couldn't be? Was that Sasayama? His body. It was distorted. I was only able to make out the word plasticization. How could that be possible? To distort a human body in such a way. I didn't ask Kogami how he was killed. But, from the looks and sounds of things, he died a horrible death. I hated that Kogami blamed himself. It wasn't his fault. Kogami leaned back in his chair and glanced back at me. I quickly closed my eyes. He looked back at the screen. I opened my eyes and looked back at the screen as well. I was able to see the screen clearly. I read how he died. He was still alive while this monster carved him up. I also saw a name. Makishima. Little did I know that the man with that name would change our lives forever. I never thought that Kogami would fall into such a deep black hole and never surface to the top.

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