Short delay on uploading this chapter because my computer decided it wasn't going to charge and be dead for most of the day...after the chapter was nearly done, but I got it up before midnight, so here it is!
Ally's POV
It's been a week and I'm feeling better than I had been since I gave Seth to Annie. She left the day after signing the adoption papers and they're both—wherever it is Annie lives now. Definitely not in Ohio, if anything, probably Michigan, since that is where we're from; so I probably won't get to visit Seth until the school year is over.
I guess I have better things to worry about now. I have some school stuff to catch up on and with Glee Club and since Football season is over and it's officially time for Basketball tryouts—and without a pregnancy holding me back, I think I might actually be able to do things I love again.
I went and talked to coach Bieste and she said it was fine since there was no reason that I could, no pregnancy or heart problems, and since I can play Football, I know there is definitely a spot for me.
I went to my locker and as I closed it, I found Jamie. I smiled—I hadn't seen or heard with him since my water broke during rehearsal. "Hey what's up?"
"I heard that you gave away your baby." Jamie said and I frowned. I sighed—I didn't really want to think about how I gave Seth away, basically signing papers that I was legally not his mother anymore. "Sorry, I shouldn't—"
"It's fine, I'm sure you're not the only one who is going to ask." I said—I knew the Glee Club would ask and then the assholes at school would ask. Hearing it from Jamie was actually something I would prefer. "But yes. As Sam probably told everyone, I gave up my son, Seth."
"Do you know the woman—or couple you gave it to?"
"It's my sister."
"You have a sister."
"I was adopted, remember?" I said and he nodded—that's when it snapped into his head on the possibly of me having a sister made sense. "Haven't seen her in years, and apparently has gotten her life together."
"I know what it's like." Jamie said—wait what? "The sibling thing—I have one."
"Right, you have an older brother, right?" I questioned and he nodded.
"He's changed a lot over the years." He said as the bell then rang—we should finish the conversation later and get to class. I don't want to be late on my first day back. Mr. Shue would understand, but unfortunately, first period, I don't have Spanish.
I met up with Jamie at lunch where we talked about out siblings—it was actually nice. He sort of understood. It turns out that Jamie was adopted too, like me—how I never found that out is beyond me. It was nice having someone who sort of understood me. He was adopted and he also has a sibling relationship that is similar to mine with Annie.
We walked to Glee Club later that day and met up with Rory, who gave me a kiss on the cheek as walked in. We sat down next to each other in front row and soon enough Sugar joined us; it was then that I remembered that she and Jamie were going out.
Personally, I think Jamie could do better, but what could I do? He likes her and she likes him. How could I complain or break them up?
Mr. Shue walked in not too long after Joe and Quinn did and started to write on the board. "Now that Ally is back and with Regionals being in a couple weeks, we need to get in the right direction." He started to say and finished writing on the board. "…we all need to be in One Direction."
He moved away and my theory was confirmed. Yep, we're covering One Directions songs—which I have no problem with. They're great, even though I find myself liking 5 Seconds Of Summer a little better. I guess in some ways I can relate to typical girls.
"Here's what I had in mind, I'd like you guys to perform small group numbers. Groups maybe of 5-6 people." Mr. Shue said. "There can be three groups." We all looked over, once we saw Rachel raise her hand.
"Will there be team captains?" Rachel asked.
"Uhh yes, but get into groups first." He said and that's when everyone started looking around. I looked at Rory and then Sam—so that's three and Jamie could make four. We need like one or two more people.
"We need two more people." I said—I really hope that Jamie doesn't mention Sugar. We looked and saw she already formed a group with Rachel—thank god. I looked at my brother and Blaine and grinned—they looked at me and walked over to us.
"Well that makes six." Jamie said.
"Do we have our groups?" He asked and we all nodded. The other two groups consisted of Rachel, Mercedes, Tina, Quinn, Santana, and Brittany & Finn, Joe, Sugar, Mike, Puck, and Artie. I watched as Mr. Shue looked at all of us, trying to decide who would be the captains—why did I have a feeling he was trying to figure out a way to not make Rachel captain?
"Okay the Captains will be…Finn, Mercedes, and Ally." He said and I couldn't help but smile. I guess it helped forming a group with only boys. I felt more at home when I worked with them—the girls were cool, but I talked to the boys more so, it worked out. I saw that Rachel was pissed that she was going to have to take orders from Mercedes and well Finn…that isn't a surprise. "Pick a song to perform and the winners…"
"Breadstix?" Santana questioned.
"Maybe." Mr. Shue agreed—I can't wait to see what he actually comes up with—or if he actually picks one group, based on what Kurt says we have a habit of getting disqualified or there being a tie.
I told all the guys in my group to meet me in the dance room—I had picked our song and the captains met up earlier with Mr. Shue to pick which order the groups perform in.
"Okay, so I talked to Mr. Shue and we are going last, which if you listen to Rachel, is a good thing because a lot of times you do save the best for last." I said and they seemed to agree. "And don't worry, I'm not going to have guys do backup for me while I sing solo." I just wanted to clear up that I won't be pulling a Rachel on them.
"What song are we doing?" Kurt asked. None of them really had a preference because I was the only one who actually listened to One Direction often.
"Tell Me A Lie." I told them and as I expected—only Rory knew with because I plaid for him a few times a while back when we rode home together. Sam heard of the song, just never heard of it. Of course, most people if anything only really hear their singles like What Makes You Beautiful or Best Song Ever.
One of the reasons I chose this song was because it wasn't a single. I was pretty sure Finn would go with one of the hits because he isn't familiar with the band that much—only a little bit since he lives in the same house as me. And Mercedes—as for her, no clue.
"We got to be good guys, because Finn's group has Mike and Mercedes's group has big voices like Rachel and Santana." I told them.
"We'll be fine because we have you." Sam said and Rory nodded in agreement. "You'll at least let as all do something." Blaine said—right because Finn had something against—I have to ask him about that. Mercedes will probably show off her runs for sure…okay, shut up Ally and have them learn the lyrics!
Rehearsal for the next few days actually went well. I met up with Jamie at Study Hall to help him study for his Math Test. We were walking when we saw Sugar making out with some football player with long hair—gross, she was making out with Rick?
Oh god—I looked over and Jamie looked heartbroken. He then turned around and walked the other way. I went after him as he went into the empty dance room. He was upset and I could tell. I guess I was right and Sugar wasn't the best choice for him.
"I'm sorry, Jamie." I said as I gave him a hug. We looked up as we saw Rory come into the room—probably wondering why weren't in study hall—the actual classroom.
"What's going on?"
"Sugar cheated on him." I told Rory. He put his hand on Jamie's back—he knew what he was going through because what happened with Isabelle last year—I think that happened, at least.
"I can't believe she would—I thought she liked me." Jamie said.
"I know, I'm sorry." I said. Knowing Sugar, I had a feeling that is what she would do. Jamie is way too nice and good for her, she probably wanted some bad boy thrill or something. Something to help her reputation since she was dating the deaf transfer student. "You know what can help?" I questioned him and he shook his head. "Sing about it. It helped me a lot after my parents died and when I gave up Seth."
"Okay." Jamie said as then thought of a song. He whispered something in my ear and I nodded. Luckily someone left their guitar in here—I began to play and Jamie got ready to sing.
[Jamie]
I'm broken, do you hear me?
I'm blinded, 'cause you are everything I see,
I'm dancin' alone, I'm praying,
That your heart will just turn around,
And as I walk up to your door,
My head turns to face the floor,
'Cause I can't look you in the eyes and say,
When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won't feel right,
'Cause I can't love you more than this, yeah,
When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don't feel right,
'Cause I can't love you more than this,
Can love you more than, this
[Rory]
If I'm louder, would you see me?
Would you lay down
In my arms and rescue me?
[Ally & Rory]
'Cause we are the same
You saved me,
When you leave it's gone again,
[Ally, Rory, & Jamie]
And when I see you on the street,
In his arms, I get weak,
My body fails, I'm on my knees,
Prayin',
When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,
It just won't feel right,
'Cause I can't love you more than this, yeah,
When he lays you down,
I might just die inside,
It just don't feel right,
'Cause I can't love you more than this,
[Jamie]
Can love you more than, this
After it was over, he grinned and we both hugged him. "Thanks guys." He said.
"We're here for you—and you can do way better than Sugar." I said.
"I guess I have to wait—"
"No, you break up with her." I told him and he nodded. It would be better for him and it would be a simple way of payback.
Joe's POV
On Thursday we all gathered in the Choir room for the small group numbers. Mercedes's group went first and they did Gotta Be You. Originally we were going to that song, but Mercedes picked it first so we couldn't. Finn was going to pick One Thing, but I had another idea.
After they finished their song—which was mostly just a Mercedes and Rachel duet with back-up singers. Our group went up to perform—I couldn't stop thinking—well and looking at Ally.
[Finn, Puck, & Artie]
I, I wanna save you
Wanna save your heart tonight
He'll only break ya
Leave you torn apart, oh
[Mike]
It's a quarter to three can't sleep at all
You're so overrated
If you told me to jump, I'd take the fall
And he wouldn't take it
[Joe]
All that you want's under your nose, yeah
You should open your eyes but they stay closed, closed
[Joe, Finn, Puck]
I, I wanna save you
Wanna save your heart tonight
He'll only break ya
Leave you torn apart, oh
I can't be no superman,
But for you I'll be super human
I, I wanna save ya, save ya, save ya tonight
[Artie]
Up, up and away
I'll take you with me
Up, up and away
I'll take you with me
[Finn, Joe, Artie, & Joe]
I, I wanna save you
Wanna save your heart tonight
He'll only break ya
Leave you torn apart, oh
I can't be no superman,
But for you I'll be super human
I, I wanna save ya, save ya, save ya tonight
[Finn]
I wanna save ya, save ya, save ya tonight
[Joe]
I wanna save ya, save ya, save ya tonight
I have a feeling she knew I was singing to her. I can't help that I still love her.
Ally's POV
Finally it was time for our number, we took our places, with me being in the middle.
[Sam]
Can't ever get it right
No matter how hard I try
And I've tried
[Rory]
Well I put up a good fight
But your words cut like knives
And I'm tired
[Blaine]
As you break my heart again this time
[Ally, Sam, Rory, Blaine, Kurt, & Jamie]
Tell me I'm a screwed up mess
That I never listen, listen
Tell me you don't want my kiss
That you need your distance, distance
Tell me anything but don't you say he's what your missing baby
If he's the reason that you're leaving me tonight
Spare me what you think and
Tell me a lie
[Ally]
Well you're the charming type
That little twinkle in your eye
Gets me every time
[Jamie]
And well there must have been a time
I was the reason for that smile
Keep in mind
[Kurt]
As you take whats left of you and I
[Blaine & Kurt]
Tell me a lie
[Jamie & Rory]
Tell me a lie
[Ally & Sam]
Tell me a lie
[Ally]
Tell me I'm a screwed up mess
That I never listen, listen
[Ally, Sam, Rory, & Jamie]
Tell me you don't want my kiss
That you need your distance, distance
Tell me anything but don't you say he's what your missing baby
If he's the reason you're leaving me tonight
Spare me your what you think and
Tell me a lie
[Jamie & Kurt]
Tell me a lie
[Blaine, Rory, & Sam]
Tell me a lie
Tell me a lie
[Ally]
Tell me a lie
Everyone clapped when we were done, I looked at Joe and I sighed. I thought all this stuff with him was done, after I had Seth and gave him up to Annie, but I guess not. "Great job, guys! You all were great. I'll let you know my decision tomorrow?" He told us and we all left. I told Rory to meet me in the parking lot because I "forgot something in Science" when I really needed to talk to Joe.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" I asked him. "Like I didn't know you were singing to me."
"I know, but it's not like I can stop myself."
"Yes you can." I told him. "I thought we would be done with...whatever this is after I had the baby. It's done I had Seth and I gave up for adoption. We don't have a relationship besides going to the same church and being Glee Club members. And what you need to get through you're head is that I'm with Rory, I love Rory."
"I can't...I..."
"Joe, stop. You don't love me, you don't care about me. Now please leave me alone." I said and walked away.
Joe's POV
I watched as she walked away and sighed. She was still angry at me, about the rape. I understand and it's still killing me that I did it. I sometimes forget because she doesn't really show how much it hurt her; I guess I don't know Ally as well as I think I do—or thought I do. I want to do what she wants and I really did think after the baby was born it would be better, but it's not. Especially after giving our son away. I know it's her sister, but it's my kid too and I never really got to see him. It hurts so much—I know it's hurting her too, more than she shows, but I can't help the way I feel about this. And I certainly can't help that I'm still in love with her.
I walk out of school and watch as she walks with Rory, one hand laced with his and his other arm around her waist. She smiles as bright as a star as a laugh comes out from something he says. Their lips touch and I feel—I don't know exactly, but I hate it. It hurts because I love her so much and she doesn't love me back; and she probably never will.
Ally's POV
The next day in Glee Club, Joe was performing a song.
He takes your hand
I die a little
I watch your eyes
And I'm in riddles
Why can't you look at me like that?
When you walk by
I try to say it
But then I freeze
And never do it
My tongue gets tied
The words get trapped
I hear the beat of my heart getting louder
Whenever I'm near you
But I see you with him
Slow dancing
Tearing me apart
'Cause you don't see
Whenever you kiss him
I'm breaking,
Oh how I wish that was me
He looks at you
The way that I would
Does all the things,
I know, that I could
If only time could just turn back
'Cause I got three little words
That I've always been dying to tell you
But I see you with him
Slow dancing
Tearing me apart
'Cause you don't see
Whenever you kiss him
I'm breaking,
Oh how I wish
Oh how I wish
Oh how I wish that was me
Oh how I wish that was me
A tear rolls down my eyes, but I quickly wipe it away. I watch as he looks at me—with this look of heartbreak and a loss of hope and love. I guess I never truly thought that he could actually like me in the way he claimed after what he did to me. I never thought me being with Rory hurt him so much. I guess it hurts more that I never gave him a chance.
"Okay, that was great Joe. Now for the winner of the small groups!" Mr. Shue said. "And the winner is…Ally's group!" Wow, I won—my group won! Mr. Shue offered us three dinner for 2 gift cards to breadstix. We talked it over and Rory and I got one of them, Blaine and Kurt got the other, the third was between Jamie and Sam, which Jamie decided to give to Sam, but before he could Sugar came over.
"I'm so glad you won!" Sugar said. "Now we can go on a date to Breadstix. What do you say, babe? Tonight?" I looked at Jamie, who glanced at me.
"Why don't you ask Rick to take you?" Jamie asked—I grinned, this was going to be funny.
"Why would I do that?"
"Why would I want to take a girl who cheats on a date?" Jamie questioned and she knew she was busted.
"Jamie, it meant nothing."
"It meant something to me. We're done." Jamie said. "Why don't you ask that guy to take you to dinner?" She then walked away angrily. I think Jamie also knew that guy probably only was making out with her for the thrill and Sugar also knew that she just lost something very good.
We were going to perform a group number, but I stopped Joe in the hallway as everyone made their way to auditorium. "Ally, listen—" Joe tried to say, but I stopped him by holding up one thing to make him be quiet. I gave him a kiss on the cheek—oh god, did I really just do that?
"I'm sorry, I never listened to you." I said and walked away and made my way to auditorium. That probably wasn't how I should approached him. Rory doesn't need to know about this, right?
Joe's POV
I can't believe she kissed me. What did this mean?
I went to the auditorium where we were performing a group number with Sam, Finn, Blaine, and Ally singing the leads.
[Sam]
It feels like we've been living in fast-foward
Another moment passing by (U-up all night)
[Finn & Blaine]
The party's ending but it's now or never
Nobody's going home tonight (U-up all night)
[Ally]
Katy Perry's on replay, she's on replay
DJ got the floor to shake, the floor to shake
People going all the way, yeah all the way
I'm still wide awake
[Everyone]
I wanna stay up all night
And jump around until we see the sun
I wanna stay up all night
And find a girl and tell her she's the one
Hold on to the feeling
And don't let it go
Cause we got to go now
Get out of control
I wanna stay up all night
And do it all with you
Up all night
Like this, all night (hey)
Up all night
Like this, all night (hey)
Up all night
[Sam, Blaine, Ally & Finn]
Up all night
Like this, all night, hey
Up all night
Like this, all night, hey
Up all night
[Sam & Ally (Finn & Blaine)]
Katy Perry's on replay, she's on replay
(We're gonna want to stay up all night)
DJ got the floor to shake, the floor to shake
(We're gonna want to stay up all night)
Up all night, up all night
(We're gonna want to stay up all night)
[Everyone]
I wanna stay up all night
And jump around until we see the sun
I wanna stay up all night
And find a girl and tell her she's the one
Hold on to the feeling
And don't let it go
Cause we got the floor now
Get out of control
I wanna stay up all night
And do it all with you
[Ally]
Up all night
So they covered One Direction songs (yes, I'm a fan, if you're wondering). Ally came back to school and it now seems she has conflicting feels for Rory and Joe. Also Jamie and Sugar broke up.
Songs: More Than This, Save You Tonight, Tell Me A Lie, I Wish & Up All Night.
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