****************************************HEY GUYS IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE UPDATED THIS FAN FIC, BUT, HERE I AM! THIS IS GOING TO BE A SHORT PIECE PERTAINING TO KOGAMI'S LOVE FOR ERI. I DON'T WANT TO WRITE DUE TO THE FACT THAT I KNOW THE MOVIE IS COMING OUT. I KNOW SEASON TWO IS OVER, BUT, I ALREADY HAVE HOW I WANT THIS STORY TO END LAID OUT, SO IF THE MOVIE GOES IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION, IT WON'T MATCH UP WITH MY FANFICTION. I'M TRYING TO FOLLOW THE ACTUAL PSYCHO PASS STORY LINE. ALSO I KNOW THERE ARE A COUPLE OF ERRORS, AT THE TIME I WAS JUST GETTING INTO PSYCHO PASS, BUT, NOW I KNOW! I WILL EVENTUALLY GO BACK TO FIX THEM. JUST HAVEN'T HAD A LOT OF TIME. THIS STORY WAS MEANT TO HAVE A LOT OF FLASHBACKS SO I'M SORRY FOR CONFUSSING SOME. BUT PLEASE ENJOY! THIS CHAPTER IS BASED OFF OF THE 4 YEARS AFTER PSYCHO PASS 1 THE FIRST SEASO AND KOGAMI IS IN THE SHAMBALLA FLOAT OR WHERE EVER HE IS.****************************************

It had been almost 4 years since I last saw Eriallia. Damn, how time flew by so quickly. I inhaled my cigarette and exhaled a huge cloud of smoke sitting on a cold bench looking at the night sky. It was shining brightly with stars and gray clouds. The moon is in its waxing crescent moon phase. How do I still remember that? It had been a while since I was in school. 10 years already. Damn.

Lately, I caught myself thinking about Eri. How was she? I couldn't contact her like I did a few years ago. It was way too risky. Most importantly, was she involved with someone else? Has she forgotten about me? I wouldn't be surprised if she did. She's a beautiful woman. Any guy would scoop her up, regardless of her being a foreigner. A man would have to be crazy not to want her. That sweet voice. How I miss it so. Her innocent amber eyes and soft skin. I missed touching her. I couldn't bring myself these past 4 years to touch any other woman. There was temptation, but, I knew that she was back in Japan waiting for me. If I had taken the offer, I would have felt like I had cheated on her. 4 years without sec? Sounds crazy, but, when you truly love someone, it's well worth the wait. All of a sudden as I closed my eyes, I saw an image of Eri happy with some other guy. This angered me. I didn't want Eri to be happy with any other man but me. The only problem was…I chose to go rogue, selfishly, hurting the woman that I fell in love with, again. She must really hate me. For leaving her again. I know if I was I her shoes. I would hate me.

When she was trapped I that burning house and almost died, my hate for Makishima grew so intense. I couldn't let him take another person away who I held dear. I had to kill him. I had to, because if I didn't, he would kill so many others and I couldn't live with myself allowing people to die at the hands of that mad man. It's hard for me to forget the trigger that I pulled that indulged a steel bullet right into his skull. I will never forget seeing his lifeless body lying there in the grass as the wind whistled signaling the world that Shogo Makishima was no more.

One thing that haunts me until this day is the look in Eri's eyes when I left. To see her cry the way she did as I drove off on my motorcycle, it hurt me more than anything in this world. I never wanted to make Eri cry, but, I did on more than one occasion. I remembered the last time we had sex with each other. I never wanted to withdraw from her body. I wanted to be connected to her for eternity. I don't think she thought I noticed, but, I saw her crying while I made love to her. I tried to ignore her tears by thrusting into her harder, but…I don't know…..

Was I being selfish again?

The only way that Eri and I could be together again was if Sibyl was completely destroyed. I wouldn't let her become a foreign fugitive in Japan. Not for me. She offered to run with me many times begging me not to go, but, I wouldn't let her. The Sibyl system would surely have her executed despite her being an American citizen. That still did bother me…How was she allowed into Japan? It was completely closed to foreigners... It didn't bother me that much, but, I was just curious.

Was Eri lying next to some man now? Was someone on top of her making love to her better than I did? It angered me because I didn't know. I wanted to know desperately, but, there was no way of knowing. She's a young woman nearing the age of marriage. Eventually she will get tired of waiting for me and marry. She won't stay young forever and neither will I.

I guess in some ways, I wasn't whole heartedly selfish. I left Japan fearing for my life. If I was to die, Eri….I didn't even want to think about it. I couldn't imagine the grief that she would feel if anything happened to me. I fled the country in order to protect myself and her. Regardless, she still lost me. At least I wasn't six feet under.

That smile. Her beautiful curvy and slender body. The way she looked at me whenever I had a case and to go away. I started to laugh thinking about all the times that I either got shot or injured and how she would cry her eyes out still knowing that I was going to wake up the next morning. That's just her heart. What a kind hearted woman.

I never thought that I'd fall in love with a foreign girl, especially one who was a kidnap victim, but, there was something about her that attracted me to her. I guess you could say….

I fell in love with her at first sight.

Now, here I was, facing the consequences of selfishly choosing the wrong path. I'm standing here, looking at the sky wondering what the woman I loved was doing. I want to be with her again, I want to wake up to her every morning and make love to her endlessly. Hell, I thought by now, she would be Mrs. Shinya Kogami. Eriallia Kogami. There's a ring to it. I like it. I started to put my cigarette out. I stared at the bud I stepped on and my mind quickly reverted back to Eri. I knew she hated that I smoked. I thought about all the times she put my cigarettes out. She even threw away a pack without my knowledge. I was pissed, but, I knew she cared. Smoking was bad for your health. For me, it relieved stress.

Eri? Are you happy? Are you still waiting for me? Or have you fallen in love with another man? Whatever the case, there is no other woman that I'd rather be with than you. If you have moved on, I wish you nothing but happiness and thank you for the moments we have spent together, but, I would like to see you for the last time.

Eri, do you still love me?

************************************TADA! SHORT AND SWEET! SEE YOU GUYS SOON! I PROMISE YOU! THE ENDING TO THIS FIC WILL BLOW YOU GUYS AWAY! STAY TUNED!***************************************