Taking Chances Chapter 17, a glee fanfic

Rory's POV

I was having hard time believing what Sugar had told me—it was right before we performed the group number on Thursday.

"What's up…Sugar?" I asked—I tried not to make it sound awkward, but it was hard and I ended up failing. We haven't talked—or barley adknowleged each other since we broke up.

"Want to go out?" She asks me—as if she didn't know I was with Ally—I guess she is just pissed that she got dumped by Jamie that she wants to get revenge since Ally is good friends with him and well…she doesn't know hurting her would be the last thing I'd want to do.

"Ally's my girlfriend."

"And you're her boyfriend, but didn't stop her from kissing Joe after his One Direction song, did it?" She replied—wait what? "Oh…you didn't know about that? Think about my offer and call me." She said and walked away.

I mean, Sugar is sort of insane and I don't trust her. Especially after what went on with Jamie, and besides I doubt that Ally would cheat on me—especially not with Joe. She wouldn't, right? I told myself that, but I couldn't help but have my doubts. I watched her and Joe through-out the group number and I couldn't help but notice the look on Ally's face whenever he walked by her—I mean sure, it could have to do with his choice of song he did a few minutes earlier, but what if Sugar's right and something is going on between them?

I guess there is only one thing to do; but whatever the answer is…I'm probably not going to like the results.

Ally's POV

I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror, let alone Rory or Joe. What the hell is wrong with me? Out of all the things I could possibly do I kissed him. I shouldn't have done that. It was the cheek and it may have not meant anything to me—it would mean something to a few certain boys I know.

I hope Rory never finds out about this. But I wish he would so I wouldn't be lying to him again like I did when I was pregnant with Joe's baby. I saw him approach me—act normal, I told myself.

"Hey, can we talk?" Rory asked—oh god, what if he knows about what I did. "You didn't kiss Joe, did you?" Oh god, he knows. I couldn't move at first—what could I say? I didn't want him to hate me, but I didn't know how to explain it so he would understand and before he would be able to walk off angrily.

"Ally?" He says and I don't look at him—I can't.

"It was the cheek, it didn't mean anything." I said—as simple as I could say it.

"It means something to me." Rory stated—I was afraid of this.

"I don't even know why I did it." I admitted-there is no way I like Joe like that. No way—it's impossible, right? Rory—I love Rory and only him. No way I could love Joe. I was just in the moment of his song—or am I just telling myself that to feel better?

"Neither do I." Rory said—he was angry, but he hadn't walked away yet. Was that good? "Was it after that song?"

"I told him to stop for so long and then after he sung I Wish, I couldn't just yell at him again. You didn't see his face when he looked at me—I just couldn't be heartless and tell him to get lost. I love you and you know that—I don't know…It happened."

"Okay, I give you that. You are too nice." He said and I grinned—I hoped that he meant that in a good way. "But you love me…and you kissed him? How can I know for sure that you might not actually like him too?"

"Let me ask you this…does Isabelle know about me?" I asked him.

"No, why?"

"Look, do you think you could ever have feelings for her?"

"I had them once—you know the only reason I even talk to her is for Emily."

"Yes, but I'm sure, if she found out about me and tried to get you to love her again…or something like that…don't tell me you wouldn't be conflicted about that at all?" I hoped that I was right and when he sighed—I knew I was. He understood, I do love him, but I guess I don't understand how I feel about Joe.

"Sorry." Rory said and he put his arms around me.

"I guess I need to figure things out."

I thought about it all day—even during my English test. I didn't know what to do and I wish I did. To make it worse, tomorrow night was the Valentine's Day dance and I didn't want to go with Rory if I didn't have an answer for him. It would not be enjoyable. And who knows if I went with the wrong guy?

God this sucks.

I went to Glee Club and Mr. Shue said that we would be performing at the dance and I honestly hated this. How could I sing love songs with the feelings I have now? I know it's unprofessional, but I can't help it. Why do I screw things up?

"Can I sing something?" Rory asked.

"Me too!" Joe said.

Mr. Shue gave them the floor—I guess it was a duet. They sat next to each other and they were both looking at me. Oh god. I looked at Jamie and then Sam—who were right next to me. I didn't like this.

[Joe]
You and I go hard at each other like we're going to war
You and I go rough, we keep throwing things and slamming the door
You and I get so damn dysfunctional, we start keeping score
You and I get sick, yeah I know that we can't do this no more

[Rory]
But baby there you go again, there you go again, making me love you
Yeah I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go
Got you stuck on my body, on my body like a tattoo
And now I'm feeling stupid, feeling stupid coming back to you

[Joe & Rory]
So I cross my heart and I hope to die
That I'll only stay with you one more night
And I know I said it a million times
But I'll only stay with you one more night

[Rory]
Try to tell you no but my body keeps on telling you yes
Try to tell you stop but your lipstick got me so out of breath
I'll be waking up in the morning probably hating myself
And I'll be waking up feeling satisfied but guilty as hell

[Joe]
But baby there you go again, there you go again, making me love you
And I stopped using my head, using my head, let it all go
Got you stuck on my body, on my body like a tattoo
And now I'm feeling stupid, feeling stupid running back to you

[Joe & Rory]
So I cross my heart and I hope to die
That I'll only stay with you one more night
And I know I said it a million times
But I'll only stay with you one more night

Yeah baby give me one more night
Yeah baby give me one more night
Yeah baby give me one more night

[Joe]
So I cross my heart and I hope to die
That I'll only stay with you one more night

[Rory]
And I know I said it a million times
But I'll only stay with you one more night

Why they wanted to sing that is beyond me—but I had a feeling a speech was in front of me. Joe said my name first, so I guess he was going to talk first.

"Ally, I love you and I have tried so hard to make you understand that. What I did was wrong and I'm so sorry. You know I am. And I want to make this right and if you give me the chance, I will make sure you are the happiest girl ever." Joe said—well that was sweet.

"Ally, since the moment I saw you, the moment I laid eyes on you and we had the first conversation during Mr. Shue's boring Spanish classes…" He probably shouldn't have said that since he was standing right there. "…I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach, I had never been that terrified to talk to a girl. But you made it easy. And then we sang together and I thought my heart was going to explode because after I just wanted to take you in my arms and kiss you. But finally we did and I felt happier than I ever have in my entire life. I love you, Ally, and I don't ever want to be without you. I love you, and I know you love me too—you are the person I have been looking for my whole life…I just didn't know it till I met you….yes, I could go on and on, but we'd be here for weeks because there is so much I could say about you. That is how much I love you and if you still choose me—like you did before—I would always be there for you and each other is all we need, if we love each other."

Oh god…what do I do? I wipe the tears that have fallen. I watch and look over from Rory to Joe and from Joe to Rory. I don't know what to do.

"Ally…?" Joe and Rory both ask.

"I-I-I d-d-don't know!" I practically yell and I just get up and leave.

I needed to be alone, so I went into the auditorium and sang one of my favorite songs—I don't know why but this came to my head as I thought of this whole thing.

I don't even like you,
Why'd you want to go and make me feel this way?
And I don't understand what's happened,
I keep saying things I never say

I can feel you watching even when you're nowhere to be seen,
I can feel you touching even when you're far away from me.

Tell me where you're hiding your voodoo doll 'cause I can't control myself,
I don't wanna stay, wanna run away but I'm trapped under your spell
And it hurts in my head and my heart and my chest,
And I'm having trouble catching my breath.

Won't you please stop loving me to death?

Every time you're near me,
Suddenly my heart begins to race
Every time I leave,
I don't know why my heart begins to break

Won't you please stop loving me to death?

"I like that song too." I jump—I breathe on realization that it's only Sam, but damn he nearly killed me.

"Don't scare me like that!" I said, giving him a shove once he was close enough. "What happened after I left?"

"Well Rory and Joe…I think they were both a little—I don't know how to describe it, but I guess they were hoping for you to choose one of them at that moment." I got that, but I didn't even know what to say since my mind was going everywhere.

"I don't know what to do."

"Yes you do." Sam said.

"What?"

"Based on that song and what happened today…I'd say you made your choice. You made it a while ago." Sam said. "You love Rory." I smiled, Sam really did understand me. "You knew it before he was even done talking."

"I guess I was so worried about hurting Joe's feelings—he does love me and I know it, but I don't feel the same way—and it's not just that."

"The rape." Sam said and I nodded.

"I don't even think I understood how much that hurt me—I knew it did, but I guess I put most of the hurt in a room and locked the door…if you know what I mean." I said and he nodded and took my hand.

"I know—you just care about both their feelings. You didn't want either to get hurt, in which you sacrificed yours."

"…don't forget about my sanity." I added and we both laughed. "The Glee Club really doesn't know how smart you are."

"You're my best friend, we have to get each other." Sam said with a wink. "So I was working on an idea I had for the dance tonight…wanna hear it?"

"Do I know the song?"

"Doubt it." He said and started playing the music, I smiled. I knew that song anywhere.

[Sam]
Slowly fading away, you're lost and so afraid
Where is the hope in a world so cold?
Looking for a distant light, someone who can save a life
You're living in fear that no one will hear your cry

[Ally]
Can you save me now?

[Sam & Ally]
I am with you, I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you, I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not, you're not alone

[Ally]
And I will be your hope when you feel like it's over
And I will pick you up when your whole world shatters

[Sam]
And when you're finally in my arms
Look up and see, love has a face

[Sam & Ally]
I am with you, I will carry you through it all
I won't leave you, I will catch you
When you feel like letting go
'Cause you're not, you're not alone

And I will be your hope, you're not alone
And I will pick you up
And I will be your hope
And I will be your hope

[Ally]
Slowly fading away, you're lost and so afraid
Where is the hope in a world so cold?

After we finished I hugged him. Sam definitely was my best friend, he was the best.

I couldn't find Rory—he wouldn't pick up his phone either. Joe did and I felt horrible about what I had to say—especially over the phone, but apparently he knew that I would have picked Rory—his words, not mine.

I guess Rory was at the dance already—mostly I got that from looking on his Facebook page. I decided to go—I put on this long dress that Kurt bought me. Of course this is one of those times where I wear a dress—strangely I don't hate it. Usually I feel naked and exposed in these dresses, but not this one. Maybe it's just one of those days.

I couldn't find Rory, so I decided to get up on the stage and sing a song—a fast one since we had a row of slow ones.

Its been like this from the start,
One piece after another to make my heart
You mistake the game for being smart,
Stand here, sell this and hit your mark.
But the sound of the steel and the crush and the grind
It all screams to remind who decides my life
But in time it all dies there's nothing left inside
Just rusted metal that was never even mine

I would scream
But I'm just this hollow shell
Waiting here, begging please,
Set me free so I can feel

Stop trying to live my life for me
I need to breathe
I'm not your robot
Stop telling me I'm part of the big machine
I'm breaking free
Can't you see,
I can love, I can speak
Without somebody else operating me
You gave me eyes so now I see
I'm not your robot, I'm just me

As I finished the song, Rory came onto the stage and grabbed me and then kissed me.

"I love you." He said and I smiled and watched as the girls then came on stage for my next song—I guess this works out. It was a song I had written and decided to do at the dance.

Shadows above the sand
I waited so long to hold your hand
Familiar rode, helpless, just acting stupid like kids
Was so distracted, yeah we've been careless
It's not too late

Baby open your eyes and hold on tight
Just keep running and we can stay up all night
Don't let go
Don't let go
Flying high as a kite no ground below
Got me up in the sky running don't let go
Don't let go
Don't let go

I know you pull, pull, pull on each other
Sometimes we spin spin out of control
But there's a string holding us together
Just gotta catch that and here we go

I know you pull, pull, pull on each other
Sometimes we spin spin, yeah
I know you pull, pull, pull on each other
Sometimes we spin spin, yeah
I know you pull, pull, pull on each other
Sometimes we spin spin, yeah

After I was finished, Rory and I got off stage and started to slow dance together. I was happy and he was happy. We both were happy. "I guess you can say I love you too."

So Ally chose Rory, I guess you might have guessed. Didn't exactly come out perfect, but hey, I think it's good wrap up to the whole love triangle storyline :) Next chapter is Regionals.

Songs: One More Night (Maroon 5), Voodoo Doll (5 Seconds Of Summer), Not Alone (Red), Robot (Miley Cyrus), & Don't Let Go (Lea Michele).

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