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Chapter Twenty Two
Kurt was struck still. His hand lifted up to touch his lips and he gasped. Blaine was nowhere to be seen, and Kurt looked towards the door of Rachel's house and then to where Blaine had been standing, and then he ran in the direction Blaine had gone.
He spotted him, standing by his car, fumbling with the keys and he ran faster.
"Blaine!" he called when he saw him open the door.
Blaine lifted his head, but he made to get into the car.
Kurt grabbed his arm and Blaine turned to look at him, but then his eyes fell to the ground.
"Just let me go, Kurt," he said and pulled his arm away.
"No," Kurt said and he had no idea what he was doing, "what – what was that back there? You can't do that, Blaine! You have a boyfriend and…"
"I know!" Blaine snapped and he stepped away from his car slamming the door closed.
Kurt watched him. He didn't know what was happening. They had been having a pleasant conversation and Kurt wouldn't deny to himself that they had been flirting.
"I have…I'm dating Dave. I know. I know," Blaine said, "but it's like you said how you couldn't kiss me after we sang together the first time and I wanted to now. Tonight. I – I needed to, Kurt, and…"
Kurt could still feel it, how Blaine's lips had pressed against his. He could still feel his hands on his waist, and the slight taste of alcohol laced punch. He wanted more.
"Tell me it didn't feel like more?" Blaine asked suddenly and he stared straight at Kurt, "being on the stage and singing and…and everything?"
Blaine's hands found Kurt's face and Kurt felt a thrill at the slightly callused fingers that touched his face before Blaine was kissing him again. Hard. It wasn't the almost hesitant kiss from earlier, it was all want and need and the kiss of someone that didn't know if they would ever get another taste and Kurt dived right into it, giving as good as he got and parting the seam of Blaine's lips to slip in his tongue to really taste him.
He was clouded by Blaine, and it was only a need for air that made him pull away and once he could think again, he pushed Blaine away.
"You have a boyfriend!" he yelled, and he didn't know if he was yelling at Blaine or himself because it was true for both of them.
Blaine let out a sob and he leaned against the car, "does it matter?" he asked.
It did. At least, it did for him. Kurt really knew nothing about the relationship that Blaine had with Karofksy, but he knew about his own and he knew that what was blossoming between him and Sebastian was no longer just a fun fling. Kissing other people didn't fit in with that, and especially not kissing Blaine and Kurt felt guilt settle on his shoulders.
"Yes," Kurt whispered and he brought his hands up to rub at his face.
Blaine lifted his head to stare at him, surprised and then he let out a hollow laugh before he crowded Kurt again.
"Does it really?" he asked before he kissed Kurt again.
Kurt didn't let himself get lost to the kiss, pulling away. "I have to go," he whispered, "and…and you have to get home to your boyfriend."
He turned to leave, but Blaine's words stopped him.
"I'll break up with him. If that changes things…it's practically already over. I can't—"
Kurt wanted to simultaneously break down into tears and jump for joy. Had it been just a week earlier, he might have been able to be overjoyed, but all he felt was pain and confusion so he shook his head.
"No," he whispered, "it changes nothing."
He didn't wait for Blaine to respond, and walked back to the house and he could feel tears running down his cheeks as he walked and it felt like his heart was breaking all over again.
"Kurt?"
Kurt jumped.
"Oh, god, Kurt, are you alright?"
Sebastian's arms engulfed him and Kurt fell into them, letting his warmth wrap around him. He sobbed into his shoulder, burying his face against Sebastian's neck and breathing him in. It felt right. Right in the way that kissing Blaine had also felt right. It just made him cry harder.
"You don't have to tell me right now, sweetheart," Sebastian said, "but if Anderson did anything to hurt you, I don't care what I have to do to make this right."
Kurt shook his head.
Sebastian pressed a kiss on his head and Kurt cried more. Sebastian moved them closer to Rachel's house and he sat down, bringing Kurt down with him onto the step and he hummed something low as Kurt tried to slow his crying. When he finally managed, he pulled back from Sebastian and he took a few deep breaths.
"Do you want to go?" Sebastian asked.
"Yeah."
Sebastian nodded and he dug his keys out of his pocket. "I'll get our stuff, just go to the car, alright."
He helped Kurt stand and before he let Kurt go, he pecked him quickly on the lips.
Kurt felt like crying all over again. He walked to Sebastian's car and tried not to think about the mess that he'd caused. Blaine had all but told him they should get back together, and it was everything that Kurt wanted but things had changed. Kurt had Sebastian now and he couldn't deny even to himself that he had grown to really care about the other boy.
"Rachel and Sam totally had sex," Sebastian said when he got back into the car and Kurt couldn't help but let out a laugh.
"Where are we going?" Sebastian asked.
"Home," Kurt said.
Sebastian nodded and after he pulled out of the spot, he reached over and grabbed Kurt's hand.
They didn't talk the entire way there and once there, Kurt knew that he couldn't be alone.
"Come inside," he whispered.
"Okay."
Sebastian had no idea what happened, but he knew that it had something to do with Blaine and that whatever it was had definitely shaken Kurt up. It was lucky that his dad and stepmom hadn't been around to see them when they got in or there would have been questions, but Sebastian still felt like there had to be some questions.
He waited while Kurt went to the bathroom to get changed and he didn't ask when Kurt returned looking lost. Instead, he opened his arms again and after Kurt fit himself there, he led them both to Kurt's bed, untangling from each other only long enough to be able to crawl into bed.
"I need you to be my best friend," Kurt whispered after a while, "and not my boyfriend."
Sebastian didn't miss a beat, despite his confusion, "okay," he said.
"We're not – that isn't me breaking up with you."
Sebastian nodded.
"Blaine kissed me," Kurt said.
Sebastian felt his heart drop and he didn't know what he was supposed to do with the way his chest tightened.
"He ran off and I stupidly went after him," Kurt continued and he took a deep breath.
"You don't have to tell me," Sebastian said and he didn't know he was saying it for his benefit or Kurt's.
Kurt reached for his hand and grasped it hard. "I know," he said and he closed his eyes, "but you're my best friend and I need to tell you."
Sebastian nodded. "Go on."
"He kissed me again. He said he would break up with Karofksy."
Sebastian didn't want to understand the feeling of unsettlement that fell over him.
"What does that mean?" he asked cautiously.
"I don't know," Kurt said, "I really don't know."
Sebastian swallowed and he pulled Kurt closer to him. "That's okay," he said, "you'll figure it out."
Kurt sat up and Sebastian watched him, but he didn't go far and he was surprised when Kurt just stared at him, chewing on his bottom lip and despite the red rimmed eyes and the glassy eyes, looking gorgeous.
"I don't deserve you," Kurt whispered.
"I'm your best friend, remember," Sebastian said, "and for right now I don't have to be anything else."
Kurt rolled his eyes and Sebastian was only a little surprised when Kurt kissed him. It was quick and gentle and Sebastian was sure that best friends could probably share kisses like those.
"Thank you," Kurt mumbled and he laid back down, resting his head on Sebastian's chest, one arm thrown around him.
They didn't say anything for a long time and Sebastian let his thoughts wonder. Kurt had been kissed by Blaine twice, and Blaine had even gone as far as to tell him that he would break up with his boyfriend and somehow Kurt was still lying in his arms. He shifted, so he could look at Kurt and Kurt's eyes met his.
"Just stay with me," Kurt said, "my dad won't mind."
"Okay."
Kurt smiled and he pulled away. "I'll get you something to change into."
After he'd gotten changed into Kurt's clothes, they got back into Kurt's bed and Kurt pressed himself against Sebastian's side.
The next morning, Sebastian woke up first and Kurt's head was still resting on his shoulder. It was getting to be familiar, sleeping with Kurt, and Sebastian was surprised at how much he enjoyed sleeping next to someone. Maybe it had something to do with it being Kurt, he wasn't sure, but there were many things that Kurt had changed for him.
Kurt woke up slowly, eyes fluttering and his mouth opening up in a small yawn and Sebastian just kept his eyes on him.
"Hello," he said when Kurt finally noticed him.
Kurt smiled. "You're still here."
"Where else would I be?" Sebastian asked.
"I thought maybe you would have left because of my dad," Kurt said, "but I'm glad you're still here."
They stayed in bed a while longer and it wasn't hard to just lay together and cuddle. It felt to Sebastian like the best way to avoid everything, and they had a lot to avoid.
So, when Kurt's phone rang, a part of him almost told Kurt to not bother answering.
Kurt pulled away and Sebastian watched him as he frowned before answering the phone. "Yes, we'll be there in a couple of hours. I didn't forget."
Sebastian sat up and he crowded into Kurt, wrapping his arms around his waist. He could listen in to the phone call, but he was more interested in kissing Kurt's neck.
"I know we left early, and I'm sorry, but we'll be there. Yes, me and Sebastian. Why would you think I meant me and Blaine."
"He'll be here too," Sebastian heard Rachel say.
Kurt sighed. "I know. Okay. We'll see you later."
He hung up and he fell back into Sebastian, tipping his head on his shoulder. "I promised her I'd help her pack and I guess she invited everyone else too."
"And I'm coming?" Sebastian asked.
Kurt stood up and turned, looking down at Sebastian. "You don't have to," he said quickly, "but I don't – I can't be around Blaine not after last night and you're the only one that will keep him away from me. I need to think and…"
Sebastian surged up and pulled Kurt's face towards him, silencing him with a quick kiss.
"Of course I'll come."
Blaine couldn't wipe his thoughts about the kisses he and Kurt shared the night before. It was different that the last kiss in the elevator partially because that kiss had served the purpose of getting them out of the elevator and also because they had both agreed that it didn't actually mean anything. Everything leading up to the kisses from the night before had been suggestive right from their duet to the bantering they kept going as they walked out of Rachel's house and Blaine had been overcome with the need to kiss him.
Then, after Kurt chased after him, he had needed to do it again because Kurt was standing right in front of him and there was nothing else to do but to kiss Kurt.
He and Dave got back from Dave's game early and Blaine excused himself as soon as they had stepped inside, locking himself in the bathroom. He splashed water on his face, willing it to wake him up and pull him away from thoughts about Kurt and the thoughts about breaking up with Dave.
When he left the bathroom, he found Dave in the kitchen.
"Did you have plans today?" Dave asked.
Blaine did. He had promised Rachel that he would help her with her packing, but he wasn't sure if he really felt up to going and seeing all of them and in particular seeing Kurt who would surely be there. On the other hand, he didn't know if he could stay with Dave and pretend that his mind wasn't elsewhere.
"Helping Rachel move out," he said.
"Oh," Dave said, "I can come with you, if you want. I could lift boxes."
Blaine shook his head. "It's more than just that, all of her students offered to come and she even said no to Kitty…she's having a hard time with it."
Dave nodded. "You're a good friend."
He hung out with Dave for a while longer, but once he saw that Rachel and Sam both texted him asking if he were going to be there to help, he got up. Dave kissed him goodbye and Blaine left feeling only a little bit guilty.
The others were all already there and Blaine tried to not act too surprised when he saw that Sebastian was there as well. Kurt didn't do more than nod at him when he arrived, and Blaine noticed that he stayed close to Sebastian or Rachel for most of the day and for the brief moment when they both happened to be in Rachel's room together, he quickly left.
The big board of pictures that Rachel had collected over the years they took down one by one, picking out the ones that they wanted to keep for themselves and putting others into a photo album that Sam had gotten Rachel.
Rachel burst into tears no less than four times as more and more of her things were taken out of her room in closed up cardboard boxes. Blaine remembered moving out of his own room. First it was when he went to New York, and then afterwards it was when he was moving out to the apartment he shared with Dave.
A lot of his things were still left there, and Blaine knew that it would be hard if he ever really had to say goodbye to that house and to that room. He didn't have the connection that Rachel seemed to have to her house, but Blaine couldn't understand why it was so hard to let go.
He hugged her tightly before he left, and tried to catch Kurt's eye and see if he wanted to talk, but Kurt was too involved in a conversation with Artie, Sebastian, and Mercedes and he knew that there really would be no talking to Kurt.
As he left, he wondered if Kurt was still thinking about it. If he was, he certainly knew how to hide it.
He went back to his parent's house instead of to the apartment and when he let himself in, he almost didn't expect for anyone to be home. Instead, he found his mom in the kitchen.
"Blaine," she said surprised, "what are you doing here?"
"Just felt like visiting," he said.
She was in the middle of cleaning, wearing sweats and rubber gloves and her hair tied back into a bun.
"Well, you could have called," she said, "not that I mind you around, Blainey, where's that boyfriend of yours?"
Blaine knew that his mom liked Dave. Mostly it had to do with how he had helped Blaine get back to being himself and Blaine was glad for everything that Dave had done for him too. If Blaine could have willed himself to really love Dave he would have, but it seemed that escaping the love he felt for Kurt just wasn't possible.
"Back at the apartment, I guess," Blaine said.
She took off her gloves and dropped them on the counter. "What's going on Blaine?"
"I think I need to break up with Dave," he said, "I don't love him. I care for him, but as a friend and Kurt came back. He's been back for a while now and I don't think I'm over him."
Blaine could never be too sure about how his mom felt about Kurt mostly because she and his dad had not been entirely thrilled when he started dating Kurt and then later when they got engaged their reactions hadn't been too inspiring.
"Of course you're not," she said and turned away, "when you came home you were so devastated, sweetheart, and it's not something that you get over fully in just a few months. I just want you to be sure that being with him is what you want and that it's what he wants."
Kurt had wanted to get back together with him when he first arrived at Lima, but Blaine only had the kisses from the night before to go on. Kurt had kissed him back, and his biggest concern had been the fact that Blaine had a boyfriend. Of course there had also been that moment when Blaine told him he would break up with Dave and Kurt hadn't responded the way he expected him to.
"Can we not talk about this anymore," he whispered.
"Of course," she said and she smiled at him, "do you want to help me clean?"
Blaine rolled his eyes. "Not really."
Author's Note: So, that happened. I hope you guys all enjoyed it and I wrote a whole thing on things I wanted to say about this chapter but my computer ate it so...I'll keep it short and just say that I hope you are all having a really good last week of Glee. And thank you for reading. I will probably post the next chapter tomorrow? Otherwise Thursday.