Notes:
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Chapter Twenty Five
Dave still had a stack of boxes left to take home with him, and Blaine sidestepped them as he filled up his own boxes. He'd already packed a few in his car, but he would probably need a couple of trips before he could actually get all of it back to his mom's.
He finished putting his books in one box and taped it up, then he walked back to his room which was already mostly packed up. He remembered being in Rachel's old room and watching everything slowly get put in boxes and he found that he didn't feel sad about his stuff going back into boxes. This had only been temporary and it was time that he get his life back on track and it meant that he didn't need to be in a relationship for a while.
Blaine had no idea what he was going to do with the bed. He already had his old one back at home and that mattress despite being on the older side was far more comfortable.
He would have to ask his mom if she had any use for it.
Blaine picked up a few more odds and ends to add to one of the almost full boxes before he taped it up. He carried it out to hall and set it next to the other boxes when loud knocking distracted him.
"Who could that be," he muttered.
He walked to the door and was surprised to find Kurt, looking just a bit winded.
"Kurt," he said, "what are you – what are you doing here?"
Kurt took a few breaths and he leaned against the door frame.
"Come in," Blaine said, "I'll get you a drink. Did you run here?"
Kurt followed him and Blaine grabbed a glass out of the cupboard, glad that he hadn't gotten around to packing that stuff up yet. He filled it with water and handed it to Kurt and then stood awkwardly as Kurt drank the water.
"What happened?" Blaine asked.
The last time he and Kurt were in a room together, they were screaming at each other, and he didn't know if Kurt was there to apologize or to scream at him some more.
"We need to talk," Kurt said, "and I should say I'm sorry about everything I said about Karofksy."
"You keep calling him that," Blaine said, "and I guess I didn't notice it before how you never said his first name."
Kurt shrugged his shoulders. "He'll never be my friend," Kurt said, "because mostly I remember him as my bully and it doesn't matter if he redeemed himself. But, that isn't why I'm here."
"I'm sorry about Sebastian," Blaine said, "I mean, what I said. I know he's been a good friend to you. I've seen it. I was just – I never thought you and him would ever be friends let alone date. It surprised me."
Kurt nodded. He set down the empty cup.
"Come on," Blaine said and led him to the couch which Dave would be taking with him when he picked up the rest of his boxes in a few days.
Kurt sat down and Blaine joined him a moment later and he watched Kurt as his eyes looked around the room.
"You're moving," he said.
Blaine smiled. "Yeah, back home."
"Right," Kurt said, "you could have asked us for help."
Blaine shook his head. "No. I know everyone's busy with the wedding and stuff. There wasn't a lot anyway. Why are you here, Kurt?"
He didn't want to let himself hope. He didn't want to believe that Kurt had come to get him back, but there was that tiny part of him that was definitely hoping.
"I, um, I came to talk to you," Kurt said and he looked like he was trying to figure out what to say.
Kurt shifted, crossing his legs.
"Talk about what?" Blaine asked.
Kurt took a deep breath. "Us," he said at last.
"Us," Blaine repeated.
Kurt nodded. "We, um, we haven't talked about any of it," Kurt said and Blaine could tell that he was having a hard time of it, "I came back here to get you back. I had this plan to talk all of it out and just figure out if we could work and then I said all of that to you and the first thing you had to say was that you had a boyfriend. And as it turned out it was Karofksy."
Blaine remembered that night. He'd thought about it often and it was hard to think about how hard it must have been for Kurt. After all, he had seen the way Kurt's face fell, and how the conversation had just switched from that moment on. He wondered if things would have gone differently if Dave hadn't shown up.
"I'm sorry," he said, "I think a part of me made sure he was there and made sure I could tell you I had a boyfriend because I was still hurting about the break up."
"Yeah," Kurt said, "but we've become friends again since then and we haven't talked about any of it. I, um, I want to get over this so that we can be friends."
Blaine felt his heart plummet. "Just friends?" he asked and he thought about Sebastian.
Kurt hadn't said if that was over.
"I'm not…Blaine, I care about you. I care about you a lot, but I don't think either of us is ready for anything more than friendship. Not now."
Kurt stood up and he stared at Blaine for a while before he started pacing. "I'm not…I don't know what I –"
"Is this to do with Sebastian?" Blaine asked.
Kurt stopped in the middle of the room and Blaine could just tell, even though he didn't say anything, that it was.
"Right," Blaine said, "of course it does."
"Don't say it like that," Kurt said, "Blaine, what did you think would happen? You were dating someone else. You can't be mad at me for moving on. For doing what you did."
Blaine couldn't help it. He knew logically that it wasn't something he should be angry about, but he just couldn't help himself. He couldn't help the frustration or the disappointment.
"Are you still with him?" Blaine asked
Kurt didn't say anything.
"So, then, why are you here? If it wasn't to…"
Kurt walked towards him and he sat down again, closer than before. "You mean the world to me, Blaine, and I love you. I do, I love you, but I don't know if that's enough. I don't know that jumping back in is what we need, but it's something that needs to be said."
Blaine stared at him for a while and then he nodded. "Okay," he said, "and I should add that I love you too."
Sebastian felt restless. Even though Elliott had told him to call, Sebastian hadn't. Instead, he was wrapped up in his favorite blanket in his living room with a bottle of wine. He wondered if he had made a mistake, but there was no taking it back. He'd sent Kurt on his way back to Blaine's arms and Kurt hadn't tried to deny that it was something he wanted.
After sitting in his car at The Lima Bean for what felt like an hour just trying to get himself back together, he'd driven home and he'd felt weird ever since, like he was missing some essential part of himself.
His phone rang from where Sebastian had dropped it on his coffee table and he considered for a moment, just letting it go to voice mail, but he first checked to see who could be calling him.
Elliott.
Sebastian hesitated, but then he answered.
"Hey," he said.
"You didn't call me," Elliott said, "what, um, what happened?"
Sebastian leaned back on the couch. "Well, he went to see Blaine. It didn't really take that much convincing. So, it's over. It was always just a matter of time. I just didn't think I would, god, I've never felt like this before."
"It's because you really cared about him," Elliott said.
"I love him," Sebastian said.
It was the first time that he said it out loud, but the feeling had been there for a while it felt like.
"I know," Elliott said.
Sebastian coughed and he tried to reign in his emotions. "I had to let him go, though. He wouldn't have left me. But I could tell. Blaine kissed him the other night and I could just tell it was something that changed things."
"That sounds nothing like you," Elliott said, "I've known you for a little while now and even I know that you're not selfless. I guess when it comes to Kurt though…"
It was strange how easily Kurt had just become so important to him and yet Sebastian couldn't regret it. He couldn't regret how Kurt made him feel or how being with him had felt because it had been more than Sebastian had ever allowed himself to feel for anyone else.
"So, what are you going to do?" Elliott asked when Sebastian didn't say anything.
"I don't know. Maybe go back to New York. I just don't know if I really want to stay in Ohio now."
It was at that moment that his doorbell rang repeatedly, and then came the knocking.
"Someone's at the door," he said to Elliott, "I'll call you back in a bit."
"Yeah, alright," Elliott said, "don't wallow too much."
When he opened the door, Sebastian didn't expect for Kurt to be there. Or for him to just throw his arms around Sebastian without saying a word.
Sebastian instinctively wrapped his arms around him, pulling him as close as possible and breathing him in because for the past few hours he'd been convincing himself to not miss Kurt's smell or the feel of him against him. It didn't stop him from being confused.
"You're an idiot," Kurt muttered.
"I've been told that before."
Kurt laughed and then he pulled back.
"You are going to that wedding with me," Kurt said.
Sebastian turned to close the door and when he turned back, Kurt had picked up the bottle of wine and folded the blanket and he stared pointedly at Sebastian.
"Were you sitting here feeling bad about yourself?" Kurt asked.
"You could say that," Sebastian said and he stepped towards him.
Kurt set down the wine and the blanket.
"What happened?" Sebastian asked, "you wouldn't be here unless something went wrong with Blaine. So, what, did he turn you down?"
Kurt shook his head and he sat down where Sebastian had been sitting earlier. "It's like this," Kurt said, looking up at him, "I can't just go and see Blaine and get back together with him just as much as I can't just walk away from you. It's not that simple. It's not that easy."
Sebastian sat down next to him, slowly. "So," he said, "what happened with Blaine?"
"He wanted more," Kurt said, "and there's a part of me that does too. But he just broke up with Karofksy and I'm just so afraid about how easily it all turned on its head last time."
"Well," Sebastian said, "that's the risk isn't it? That it won't work out. Hell, the two of us were as unlikely as anything and I knew from the very beginning that this moment would come."
Kurt nodded slowly and then he leaned against Sebastian's side, head falling onto Sebastian's shoulder.
"So you have to make a choice," Sebastian said and he took a deep breath. It had been hard to let Kurt go earlier and it was harder still, "and no matter what it doesn't change that we're friends."
Kurt arrived at the wedding with Sebastian at his side. They had both agreed that it wasn't a date. They were lingering over the whole thing, and it had been Kurt's idea, mostly because he knew how hurt Sebastian had already gotten and he didn't want to hurt him even more.
"There you are," his dad said when he spotted them, "your friends have been looking for you, kiddo. Hey, Sebastian."
Kurt rolled his eyes. "I'm not the wedding planner," he said.
"Go help your friends," Sebastian said, "I'll keep your dad company."
Kurt sighed, but he walked towards where he knew he'd find Brittany and Santana.
"You're finally here," Santana said, "I need help with my dress. It has a rip and I don't trust anyone else."
Kurt should have known it was wardrobe related. He followed her to where the dress was laid out on a table and it was lucky that she or someone else had brought a sewing kit with them. He sat down in front of the table and opened the kit.
"Brittany is with the others," Santana said, "she doesn't want to see me until we're walking down the aisle which I think is crazy. I mean, does it matter?"
Kurt threaded the needle and he looked up at her. He could tell that Santana was not nervous at all. She was so sure and so ready and he couldn't help but wonder if he would have been able to be so sure if he and Blaine had actually gotten to their point of getting married. Somehow he doubted it.
"It doesn't," he said, "but she clearly believes all that stuff."
Santana groaned. "I know," she said, "and maybe I'll go talk to her. I just – I want to see her, Kurt, I just want to be around her all the time and it's finally happening. We're getting married."
It was strange to see Santana so happy, and so overjoyed.
"What about you?" Santana asked.
He started sewing. "What about me?"
"You and Blaine," Santana said.
Kurt knew that he couldn't talk about it with Santana. He shrugged his shoulders. "Nothing."
She tutted at him. "That's a lie."
"Yeah, well, I'm not talking about it. Done. You should be fine, try not to rip it again."
He left her without another word and Santana didn't make an attempt to talk to him. More and more guests had arrived in his absence and Kurt walked out of the barn and immediately spotted Blaine, walking with his mom on his arm.
Kurt was surprised. He couldn't remember the last time he'd seen Blaine's mom, and when Blaine saw him, he actually waved at him so Kurt walked towards them.
"Kurt," Mrs. Anderson said, "it's good to see you."
She hugged him gingerly, kissed his cheek and then motioned to Blaine that she was leaving them alone.
"You brought your mom," Kurt said.
Blaine smiled and shrugged. "She insisted. She, um, she loves weddings and knew I didn't have a date. So, here we are."
"Right," Kurt said, "here we are."
Blaine shoved his hands in his pockets. "So this is really happening then."
Kurt nodded. "There's already been some drama with Brittany apparently."
"Of course," Blaine said.
"Picture time!"
Kurt turned and found Sugar standing in front of them with a phone pointed at them.
"Uh, sure," Blaine said awkwardly.
Kurt looked around to see if there was anyone else around to pull into the picture, instead he found a pitch fork.
"Wait," he said, "I'll be right back."
They posed as American Gothic, and Blaine laughed after they were done and Sugar wandered off to take other pictures elsewhere.
"I always liked her," Blaine said, "but she can't carry a tune to save her life."
"That's for sure," Kurt said and grinned at him, "I'm gonna go find my dad. See you later."
"Yeah, see you," Blaine said.
He went back inside the barn and found Sebastian standing on his own, just out of the way of the entrance.
"Fix everything up?" he asked.
"Yeah. Santana had dress issues. Frankly, I don't want to be involved with any of that stuff. I think I heard Brittany telling the girls to go find her random things for good luck."
Sebastian rolled his eyes. Kurt led him towards the stairs, hoping that if they went up there they wouldn't be found or bothered.
"The last wedding I went to," Sebastian said, "was probably when I was still in France. One of my aunts got married and I did not enjoy myself even a little bit."
"Why not?"
Sebastian shrugged his shoulders. "I thought I had better things to do. I did end up sucking off one of the groomsmen so that part was fun."
Kurt hit him on the shoulder and Sebastian yelped.
"What was that for?"
"Weddings are magical. They're so special. Just the idea that two people can just put it all out there, you know, and share everything they feel for their partner. It's wonderful."
Sebastian stared at him and Kurt smiled a little before he reached over and grabbed Sebastian's hand. Sebastian squeezed his hand.
"I, um, I lost sight of that with Blaine. All I saw were decisions and choices and fights. Not what it meant. I always wanted to get married though."
"Of course you would," Sebastian said.
They leaned against the banister and looked down at the barn. It did look beautiful in a rustic sort of way with the white chairs and the lights that had taken forever to hang. It was not the kind of wedding that Kurt would have ever planned for himself and he didn't really think that it was fitting of Santana and Brittany either.
"What, do you not want that?" Kurt asked.
"Never really thought about it," Sebastian admitted.
They walked back down and everyone was already starting to get to their seats and Kurt spotted his dad with Carole and Kurt could tell that his dad had already had something to drink.
"That's going to be fun to deal with," he told Sebastian who only laughed.
"Is he going to be alright to marry them?"
"He'll be fine," Kurt said.
They walked up to them and his dad immediately jumped into a conversation about weddings and love and how short life was and Kurt felt like it was his dad urging him to make a choice. Then, his dad left and Carole laughed and chased after him.
"I really love your dad," Sebastian said.
"Everyone does," Kurt said, "but he is pretty great."
"My dad would never agree to marry a couple of my friends," Sebastian added.
They moved back towards the back of the barn out of the way of people sitting down. They silently watched and Blaine walked past them with his mom who he led to a seat before he returned.
"Oh," he said when he saw Sebastian, "hi."
"Hello," Sebastian said.
Kurt looked between them but he didn't get to say anything because Sue showed up and looked at all three of them before addressing just him and Blaine and asking them to go with her.
"We're not going to fall for an elevator in a barn trick," Kurt said quickly not sure if he could put anything like that past her.
Sue scoffed. "It's not like it worked and that wasn't even me."
"Lies," Sebastian said.
"Allegedly me, fine," Sue said, "but you have no proof. Now, come on, I swear on Will Shuester's future grave that this is a legitimate pretend wedding emergency."
Blaine sighed. "Alright, fine," he said.
Kurt glanced at Sebastian. "Better safe than sorry, you're coming with."
Author's Note: Okay, so this is it. This is the point where story goes into two directions and I want to address a couple of things:
1. I am not writing the double wedding in both endings.
2. To the Klaine fans: Yes a lot of this fic is leaning more towards Kurtbastian than Klaine…but that is because a lot of the Kurtbastian stuff has already been resolved whereas the Klaine (due to canon mostly) has not been yet.
3. Both endings will span a number of chapters – at least 5.
4. Both endings will incorporate the rest of season 6 but will also be slightly different from it as well as from each other.
I will be posting the Kurtbastian ending first. Mostly because that's the one I'm close to finishing writing. I think I'm on the last chapter of it now.
I did write the first chapter of the Klaine ending as well as started on the second chapter and hopefully I'll get to continue working on it within the next few days as soon as I've finished the Kurtbastian one. I hope you've enjoyed the story up until here.
