Hey folks! I am early this time :P I thought instead of irregular long updates I would do as regular as I can small updates. So this one won't be that big but I promise to update the next one soon as I can. Cheers!

ANA's POV

I don't think I have been this angry my whole life, seeing Leila with Christian brought back all those bitter memories of José' cheating with her. If I used to hate her before I don't even know what to name the emotion I am feeling right now. I had just woken up from my nap and was walking towards the gym to find Christian. Reaching the door I was stopped on my track seeing Christian doing bench presses , it was manly and wild and I don't know why it turned me the hell on.

I was going to walk to him when I saw Leila getting down and standing next to him. I heard the whole exchange and I felt proud , happy and hurt at the same while. Christian fought back on her seduction because he was committed to the word he gave me when José' my boyfriend jumped into the bed with her when he got a chance. For the First time in all these years I started wondering why he did so, instead of blaming myself.

I took a deep breath and opened the door, Leila suddenly stopped her stride to Christian and looked at me in shock. She knew I heard her conversation with Christian.

"Is it so Leila, so you wanted to do a good deed because you think Christian is unsatisfied or is it because you want to repeat the history by fucking my boyfriend again"

Christian turned back suddenly , and he looked shocked. I guess he would be probably wondering if I thought he was cheating on me.

"Ana, baby…" he starts

"Shush! Christian." I walk towards him and suddenly I see her lipstick spread on his lips. How dare she kiss him.

Without thinking I wipe it of using my hands and kiss him hard. He was caught off guard but he catches up and kiss me back holding me close to him. It is nowhere near the sweet seductive kisses we usually have, this one is raw and hard and primal. I break away from it soon and pull his face up by tugging his hair, he hisses in pain.

"You are mine." I say and peck him once more. I turn back and see Leila trying to scurry away.

"Stop there" I say loudly. She stops and turn around looking embarrassed.

I walk slowly towards her, and when we are face to face, I think nothing but muster all my energy and slap her on the face. A resounding slap echoes in the room, and Leila looks at me stunned.

"I owed you this one when you slept with José' when we were in a relationship, I should have faced you then itself instead of blaming myself" I slap her again, "and this one is for touching Christian, forget touching him breath the air around him once more and that is it Leila you are finished. DON'T FUCKING TOUCH MY GUY ".

She seemed to taken aback by my reaction. I take Christians hand and pull him to my room.

"Woowww Ana that was…phew wowww" he says once we reach my room.

I was getting down of my adrenaline rush, and I fall down on the ground.

"Shit Ana..Baby" Christian picks me up and lays me down on the bed. I just take long breaths, and lie there while he rubs my arms in a comforting way. After a while I feel better and I open my eyes to be met with stormy grey ones. I smile at him and earn back a small grin.

"Don't get on my bed without showering..U stink Christian" I joke

"Ha-ha..I was going to shower but u keep on fainting and falling over me. A guy can't catch a break" he winks.

I giggle and ruffle his coppery mess of a hair, "go shower and come" I say softly.

He smiles and kisses my forehead and goes to shower. I get up and change to my tank top and shorts and get under the bed. In a few minutes Christian joins me in the bed with damp hair wearing a shorts and t-shirt.

He gets under the cover behind me and pulls me close to him. I know I shouldn't be liking this, I know I shouldn't be pressing myself back or link my arms with his. But with him I felt safe, complete and loved. It is puzzling and scary, I don't know anything about this guy but as each minute pass I am falling for him more and more. His little way of caring for me, protecting me is making it hard to put some distance between us.

"Christian…" I call him softly,

"Yes Ana.."

"What is happening between us..?" I ask him while I move a little more closer to him.

He takes a deep breath, and stays silent for a moment, "I don't know Ana, what I feel for you is not something I have felt before. You take all the clarity away from my thoughts, u just stumbled upon my perfectly planned life now I am lost. I don't want to take a step without you but I don't know if I am worthy enough to have you with me. I am fucked up Anastasia in levels you won't know. But with all that I wish I could have you with me. Whatever happens in the future, I will never hurt you Ana, never promise you that baby, and as long as I am alive I won't allow anyone to hurt you too. You are special beyond words Ana, a guy would be blessed to have, and I don't know if I am that guy but I wish I am "

Hearing his words, All the tears that I was holding at bay came crashing down like a big wave, and in that night in the arms of someone who I didn't even know a few days ago I let go all my hurt, I wept for the little girl who lost her mommy, who felt unwanted, who was harassed, for the young women who saw her love cheat on her, who felt lost, who was led to believe she was nothing but a waste of space.

Christian just held to me and stroked my arms, whispering sweet things into my ear. Even when I was falling into the land of dreams I could hear a faint whisper saying,

"You are loved, you are wanted, and you are mine. I got you baby.."

Like a prayer I held on to it.

I know some may feel like Ana is needy or you know stupid to be still hung up on the José' issue. But trust me, I know how it feels. It's a part of my life's story. In college I was a nerd, fat geeky kid whom no one wanted to be friends with. I had a boyfriend, he treated me like shit but some stupid part of me felt like this is what I deserved, that I was lucky to have someone to be with. Imagine my surprise when I came back after college to see him banging my supposedly best friend. It tore my heart, but in some way it helped me too. I started pushing myself out, I started working out, I became in shape, I fell in love with an awesome guy, I married him and I am happy with my 2 kids. Today he is bartender in a local bar while I am operating my own business and leading a happy life. But when I was with my husband only I realized, it wasn't my fault, I shouldn't have been treated that way and I didn't as hell deserve it.

Sorry for the rant, but I felt I needed to explain it. My Ana isn't meek but she has gone through years with people telling her she isn't enough, she isn't worthwhile. It will take time to build her confidence back up.

Love Hugs

Rachael XOXOX