Hey awesome people of the world...I am back. I could say I am sorry for not updating but truly I am not. I was enjoying one of the most blessed moments of my life, I would love you all to meet my little man, 'Christopher Andre' Garcia'. He is beyond perfect with his black hair, chubby toes and green eyes with a flick of grey and I was too focused on him to write. He got here on June 30 a day before his daddy's birthday saving me a trip to buy a present :D and time wasn't something I had since that. Anyway I have updated now, and I think I will be updating as often as I can.

This is short, thank you for your reviews and follows, they make my day bright. On another note I had a good guest review saying me to stop using Gosh as Christian doesn't use them. Well glad that you know him personally, hope you can pass my regards to him and tell him to use Gosh at times too Ciao.

Chapter 18

ANA's POV

I open my eyes hearing the buzz of my Mobile. I get up trying not to disturb Christian who is hugging me close, luckily he just grunts and turns to the other side and continue sleeping. I smile seeing how cute he looks and gets up to see who is calling. I sneak a glance at the clock to find it's almost 10 at night. When I check my phone I see its Annette calling me

"Hi Annette, I am so sorry I slept off."I whisper.

"It's ok Annie. You both need your rest. Christian told me that you aren't feeling well and that you will be late. He also asked to prepare your favorite soup for you. I called to know if I should bring it up to you before I turn in."

I smile and sneak a look at Christian, " no Annette , I will come down in few minutes. I will get it from you. Where is daddy?"

"Ray has a conference in Portland baby girl. He will be coming only tomorrow."

I am pretty sad that I wouldn't be able to tell dad about José today. I hang up the phone telling Annette that I will be there in a few. I tie up my hair in a ponytail and search for something to wear over my t-shirt. I find Christians shirt lying there, I take it smell it. It smells so much of him it's so intoxicating, I should really bottle it up. 'Seriously Steele' I smile and put it on and go down to collect our food.

I pass the library on my way and I hear hushed voices from there. My curiosity to find who is there at this late hour gets better of me and I slowly slip into the parlor next to the library where dad stores his drinks for guests. It's near the library and I can hear the conversation clearly. To my surprise it is Leila and Elena. I hold my breath and listen to them speak softly.

"Are you entirely sure about this Leila" Elena asks seriously.

"Yes mom. I took the test 3 times, I also did a test in a lab under disguise. I am sure I am pregnant" Leila replies confidently.

Pregnant! She is carrying José's child. How? 'Oh how do you think Ana' my subconscious snide at me. I just don't get it, the José I knew is very strict about all this and I don't think making her pregnant wouldn't be in his cards anytime soon. I shake off my thoughts and listen to them.

"Perfect baby, perfect. How far along are you?" Elena says gleefully.

"I guess 3-4 weeks mom. I guess I will be 6 weeks at the time of marriage it's been a good timing." Leila replies.

"Great. Now we have our own insurance policy in a way. In case he divorces you according to the Prenup you both have signed, if you are pregnant you will get 50% of his assets. Moreover if he cheats on you and get caught, u will get 75% of his assets. Ray maybe useless in many ways but it's his quick thinking of adding this clause gave us a loophole." Elena says sitting on the couch looking triumphant.

"I know mum, why do you think I pushed him into my life even though I hate that creep. What all didn't I do to make him fall for me, after that I had to have sex with him. You know how bad he is with his dick, it's pathetic. Thank god I have Ralph to take care of me or else I would have died. It was such a pain to make him believe I took a shot, he was careful that I didn't become pregnant. I had to ask the doctor to give me a shot filled with water just to make him believe. Now all our efforts have paid off, I just have to wait till the wedding" Leila says sitting down next to Elena.

"I know baby, but think of the good things you will get after the marriage. I can finally divorce ray and be independent. I had enough of this sick shit , he hasn't touched me in years. No wonder Carla cheated on him, that guy is so old. The only thing he gives a shit about is his pathetic Ana. You should see his eyes sparkle when he talks about her. I don't know what I would have done if I didn't go to see Stephen once in a while. Now that is how men should be, no wonder Carla the bitch cheated on him with Stephan." Elena says while Leila joins laughing.

"I know mom, you are wicked. If I am right you trapped ray using a fake pregnancy itself right."

"Don't remind me about that Leila, Ray came around when your dad had died to settle some legal stuff. I seduced him and by some luck that guy was desperate for attention. We had sex once a week but nothing more than that, he never took me out for his office functions, or parties. I was some kind of friends with benefits, after a while he said some moral shit like how he was treating me wrong and how he won't come again. I saw the danger as he was the only way I could guarantee us a good living. I waited for two weeks and then I went to his office and told him I am pregnant with his child. I acted like an angel and said that I won't trouble him and I will raise the baby myself. He didn't say anything I almost thought I lost my game. Next day he came over and took me to Cartier and asked me to pick a ring, he said he wants to marry me as it is the right thing to do for the child and for me but it will happen only if his brat agrees and like me. Well you know what happened, we got married and in 2 weeks I made a show of slipping from the stairs and with the help of a doctor I made him believe I lost the baby."

Leila and Elena start laughing when I stand their shocked. The walls are closing in on me again, as my head tries to grasp all that I have heard now. That manipulative bitch, she has been cheating my dad for years, anger seethes in me like fire. I always why dad married her now I know he just did the right thing to do. I was going to come out of my hiding when they start talking again.

"Jokes apart Leila, you should not become attached to this baby at all. You know it is just an insurance for us right. Even if somehow the marriage gets cancelled the first step is to remove the baby that is why I told you to try in the last weeks. We will get a window of 12 weeks to get rid of it." Elena says seriously.

"I know mum. I am not attached to the kid, I actually wonder whose it is José's or Ralphs" she says and laughs. "Don't worry even if we pass the mark we can give it up or something. No way I am gonna waste my life on it."

"Good girl. I am proud of you baby. Well let me turn in for the night, we have a busy day tomorrow" Elena says and get up and goes after kissing Leila on the head. Soon after she follows suit while I stand there without moving. My mind is all over the place, I walk mechanically downstairs to the kitchen.

" Annie, here is the food. Are you ok to carry them or should I?" Annette asks smiling at me while I just stands there staring blankly at her. Her face turns concerned and she shakes me calling my name. I wake up from the stupor.

"Huh! It's ok" I say and I take the dish from her and walk back up not even hearing Annette saying something behind me. I walk like a Robot to my room and open it, I keep the dishes on the table and stand by the window staring out while I remember my childhood.

I hate coming back home from school. School is so much better, I can be with Kate I can spend time in the library and read a lot. I can also see José' which immediately brings a smile to my face, he looks so cute. Kate doesn't like him and she says I have a crush on him, I just think he looks cute. I walk home through the garden looking at the work done by Antonio our Gardner. He is a good guy as he gives me a flower saying something in Spanish like 'Para que la princesa' . Dad told me it means, for you princess I think it's sweet.

I walk up to the room only to be greeted by Leila. I don't like her at all, she is mean to me and she pushes me around. I don't tell dad anything as he may throw her out and she will have to live in the streets. I am not that bad girl. Thankfully she is on her phone with someone so I slip past her and go to daddy's office to greet him.

As I open the door, I see Elena getting out crying. I look at her puzzled and she just smiles at me and walks away. I go inside and find dad on the chair leaning back with his eyes closed. I get up and sit on his lap and curl up to him and hug him. He just hugs me back and we sit there for a while, I don't know what happened but dad looked sad and I don't like to see him sad.

I look up to him and see that his eyes are filled with tears, "what happened Dada" I ask stroking his cheeks. He just takes my hand in his and kisses it and smiles. "Nothing baby, daddy is just sad. Dad thought he is doing something right but he is not sure now. Grown up stuff " he says kissing me fingers. I snuggle closer to him and lie there

"Can I do something dada" I ask after a while. He chuckles, "I wish baby, but you can't. But can I get the patented Ana Steele special kiss and hug today" he asks pouting. I laugh and kiss him in his cheeks and nose and eyes all slopping wet kisses and hug him tight, he laughs and carries me out to the library.

I am crying while I replay that day, now I know why my dad was sad. He thought he was doing the right thing, he even expected a new child but he thought he lost it. In truth he was being cheated on, lied to and betrayed every day. I was fuming with anger while thinking about it while one part of me was grieving for my dad. I cry out for him and for me for all we have suffered these years.

CHRISTIAN'S POV

I wake up hearing to someone sob hardly, thinking it is a dream I try snuggling close to Ana only to find her spot empty. I wake up dazed and find Ana leaning on to the window and standing. She looked breathtaking the moon shining on her skin and her hair flowing around in the wind. I sneak and take a pic on my phone. I put it down and get up and stand next to her only to know she is crying.

"Shit baby..What's wrong" I ask her holding her close. She hugs me and starts to cry more, she is sobbing and my t-shirt is getting wet by her tears. I slowly carry her to the bed and sit down with her in my lap and rock her back and forth while trying to make her control her tears. In between her sobs and hiccups he tells me the whole story of what she heard in the library between Elena and Leila.

Those bitches, I knew Ray wouldn't have married Elena in good knowledge and Leila well she is the perfect daughter of her mom. She deserves José to be truthful as both are scum. I soothe Ana and make her drink some water, it pains me to see her like this. Her lips are swollen and eyes are puffy from crying, her hair is all over the place yet she looks beautiful.

"You need to tell Ray Ana..He needs to know" I say holding her close.

"I know Christian. Trust me I want to scream it from the tallest building in the world but I can't." She says looking defeated.

"What do you mean you can't baby" I asked puzzled.

"If I tell all these to dad, he will blow it all up. In a minute everything will be cancelled, the wedding won't happen. Elena and Leila will be kicked out before I can count to all this if I tell him that José' hurt me today he will react the same way. His first step is to pull of the wedding." She says thinking

"But isn't that what you want babe" I am still not getting why she is not going to tell.

She turns and looks me with defeated eyes, the pain and helplessness I see is palpable. "She will kill the baby Christian..If this doesn't go as planned she will kill the child. I won't be responsible for the death of that little one Christian. I won't be." She says starting to tear up.

I am in awe of this woman, Leila and José' and even Elena has only hurt her in her whole life, yet for the sake of Leila's unborn child she puts her own wishes on hold. "Baby I.."

"I know Christian, it is dumb. I am being emotional but I can't do it I want to give it a chance to live. I won't have the death of that innocent kid on my hands. I will tell dad after the baby is born." She says decided.

I take her face in my hand and look her in the eye, "Anastasia Steele, you are out of this world. I am in awe of you baby. They have only hurt you and yet you..I don't know what to say. I…I love you Ana. I love you a lot, I love that you can think like this, I love that you are so trusting and forgiving, I love that you always put others before you. I really do love you baby more than anything, it may sound dumb as we know each other only for days but this is the truth. You took my breath away the moment I saw you and now my heart is your too."

Well I guess I made it up for my lack of updates :P so now you know why Ray married Elena. Well I love drama what can I say, I hope you will love what I have planned. See you next time, its chow time for my lil teddy bear.

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Rachael