I really don't have anything to say...ha
I don't own KH...
Once I was back in the states I started getting myself settled. Mom and I went apartment hunting and found a nice little one bedroom about a block from the down town area. Cloud, Leon, Demyx and Zexion all volunteered to help move me in and it took a few days to do.
I was avoiding Axel like the plague for the time being. I still wasn't sure what to do about the company or our relationship so I was just ignoring it till I was settled a little more. A few days after we got everything situated in the apartment Demyx, Zexion and I were all sitting around my living room eating take out.
"You know you should throw a house warming party!" Demyx said as he bounced happily in his spot on the floor. I rolled my eyes as I shoved a fork full of broccoli and beef into my mouth.
"And who would I invite?" I asked as I chewed.
"Everyone!" Demyx said, his voice getting loud with his excitement. "Me and Zexy of course. And Cloud and Leon, Vincent, Riku, Sora, Axel, Xigbar, Xaldin, Kiari and anyone else you want!"
"Or," Zexion said as he took a sip of his water. "We could just all go out." I stared at him for a moment, shocked. The antisocial was suggesting a night out...
"Wow, Zex, I didn't know you like going out." I said as I took another bite. The book worm shrugged as he stared out the balcony door.
"I just figured it would be better then making a mess at your place." he said, his voice its usual monotone drone. I nodded my head.
"Yeah I like going out better." I said and Demyx pouted.
"Fine! Then lets go out tonight!" he said, jumping up. "There is this awesome new dance club a few blocks away that has a bad ass dance floor and its a huge gay hangout." I chuckled at his enthusiasm.
"Fine Dem, we'll go out but can we finish eating first?" I asked, holding up a fork full of food.
"You can finish eating, Zexy and I will go home and change." he said, grabbing his boyfriends arm and pulling him to his feet. Zexion just sighed and followed his over enthusiastic boyfriend to the door. "Meet you back here in an hour." Demyx shot over his shoulder before the door closed behind them. I chuckled a little as I stood up and started picking up the takeout boxes and carrying them to the kitchen.
I was a little worried about going out...what if Axel found out I went out before I even contacted him? He really has done a lot for me lately...maybe I should call...I picked up my cell and stared at the screen for a moment before I finally just bit the proverbial bullet and called him. As soon as the first ring started I wanted to hang up but...
"Hello Roxas." came his smooth silky voice. I shivered.
"Hey Axel." I said as I placed the three take out boxes into the refrigerator.
"How is the new apartment coming along?" I pulled myself up onto the kitchen counter and stared out into my living room.
"Pretty good. Its a nice little one bedroom." I said. I couldn't believe we were having a normal conversation. "Got a little balcony off the living room that overlooks the front of the building."
"Sounds nice. I'll have to come see it sometime." I shivered again at the obvious implications there. I wanted so badly to ask him to come now...but..
"Feel free to stop by whenever." I said, keeping my voice even. "Tonight I'm going out though." This was greeted by silence and I knew I had just shot our nice conversation to hell.
"Are you now? And with who?" His voice was surprising calm but I didn't miss the undertone of anger that leaked through.
"Demyx and Zexion. Demyx mentioned a new club a few blocks away." I said, keeping my voice nonchalant. Just then I heard the distinct sound of a female voice on his side of the line.
"I'm on the phone Larxene, give me a moment." Axel said and I bit the inside of my cheek to keep from growling.
"Well I'll talk to you later Axel. Got a hot date with a night club full of gay men." I said my voice on the acidic side now. Just knowing that the bitch was with him made my blood boil.
"That should be fun. Be sure to let me know how that goes. Tell Demyx and Zexion I'll be seeing them bright and early as previously discussed." I ground my teeth together at his double meaning.
"Whatever bye." I said before I hung up. Fuck him, I was just going out to have a good time but now I was going out to get laid. I jumped down from the counter and went back to my room. I tossed my cell onto the bed and pulled open my closet. I found my tight whit jeans and a black v-neck t-shirt and changed out of my blue jeans and band shirt. I examined myself in the mirror and gave it a thumbs up. The pants emphasized my ass nicely and the v-neck let everyone know there was muscle on this skinny ass man. I pulled on my studded belt and a leather necklace that hugged my neck and deemed myself ready. I grabbed my black chucks and phone before going back out to the living room.
I had just finished putting on my shoes when the door flew open to reveal a fully done up Demyx. He was wearing turquoise skinny jeans and knee high converse. His shirt...or shirts? Were just multiple layers of ripped shirts that flashed different parts of his body as he moved. He had glitter at the corner of each eye and heavy eyeliner.
"Damn Dem you look good." I said as I stood up from the couch. Demyx looked me up and down and nodded his approval.
"So do you Roxy dear." He said with a wink. He came into the apartment followed by his boyfriend. Zexion was wearing black pants that clung to his legs and a black vast over a bare chest. Black army boots completely his look.
"You both look good enough to eat." I said with a huge smile.
"Lets hit the town!" Demyx said as he grabbed my arm and dragged me out the door. I managed to pull away long enough to lock the door before Zexion and I were both dragged down the stairs.
"Dem! Slow down its only 10!" I said as we stumbled out onto the street. Demyx turned toward me his face devastated.
"Its already 10! That only leaves us like 4 hours~" He said. I burst out laughing and clutched my stomach.
"I think 4 hours is plenty of time to get messed up." I said after I finally got a hold of myself. Demyx still pouted a little but perked up and most importantly stopped trying to drag us down the sidewalk.
It took us about ten minutes to get to the club and another five to get through the line at the front, but it was so worth it. The wall of lights and sounds that hit me as we got into the building was like a burst of life. I felt a huge smile stretch over my face as I looked around at all the withering bodies on the dance floors and stages positioned around the club.
Demyx grabbed us and pulled us over to the closet bar. He got the bartenders attention and order three drinks and three shots. He handed us one of each and then held up the shot glass and Zexion and I followed suit.
"To the return of our Roxy bear and good things to come!" he shouted over the music. I smiled and we toasted before throwing back the strange concoction and was pleasantry surprised to find it sweet and not bitter like I was expecting. I took a sip of the drink to find it was run and coke, my favorite. I was soon dragged to a tall table beside the dance floor where we were joined by a few other people that the two lovers seemed to know.
We had a few more shots before, eventually I made it out to the dance floor with Demyx and Zexion where I let everything go and let the beat take control.
"When the dark
Of the night comes around.
That's the time,
That the animal comes alive.
Looking for
Something wild..."
I was sandwiched between Demyx and Zexion, their bodies grinding against mine, when I first noticed that someone was watching us. I turned around to face Zexion and pressed my lips to his ear.
"That man directly behind me, leaning against the wall is watching us." I said...well yelled really. Zexion wrapped his arms around my waist as our hips ground together, Demyx leaned over me and kissed my neck before pressing his lips to my ear.
"And now we lookin' like pimps
In my gold Trans-Am.
Got a water bottle full of whiskey
In my handbag.
Got my drunk text on
I'll regret it in the mornin'
But tonight
I don't give a
I don't give a
I don't give a"
"Its Vincent." he said and I laughed. Of course Axel would send someone to watch me.
"I guess I better give him something to watch." I said and gave Zexion a wink before I slid out from between them and made my way back to the bar.
"There's a place downtown,
Where the freaks all come around.
It's a hole in the wall.
It's a dirty free for all.
And they turn me on.
When they Take It Off.
When they Take It Off.
Everybody Take It Off.
I got another rum and coke before turning back to the dance floor and just watched for a moment. I needed a target, I needed a poor fool to play with..hmm. Suddenly a flash of red caught my eye and my heart dropped and speed up all at the same time. I slipped into the crowd and started making my way across the room.
Lose your mind.
Lose it now.
Lose your clothes
In the crowd.
We're delirious.
Tear it down
'Til the sun comes back around.-1-
I was fighting pumping bodies and had my ass grabbed at least five times as I made my way across the dance floor. I finally found my way out of the bulk of the crowd and caught the flash of red again. He was sitting on a bar stool at the bar on this side of the club, drinking a beer. I downed my rum and coke and set it on a table then went and slid onto the stool next to his. I waved down the bartender and got another rum and coke before I turned to the man sitting next to me. I opened my mouth ready to be angry but found myself staring into blue eyes instead of green.
"Reno?" I said, stunned. This was greeted by a huge shit eating grin.
"Hey Roxy baby!" he said as he pulled me into a rough hug. "Its been a long time! You look fucking good!" I felt his eyes travel up and down my body and I felt a huge shit eating grin of my own take over.
"How long have you been in town?" I asked as I took a drink. He waved the bartender down and ordered a round of shots.
"A few days. Won't be staying long. I'd hate for my little brother to catch word that I'm here." he said and I felt a wave a guilt as I glanced over my shoulder. Sure enough, Vincent had followed me and was now seated at a booth a little ways over. Reno handed me a shot glass and I smiled as he held his up. "To old friends." He said.
"And new memories." I said with a wink making him laugh. We threw back the shots and ordered another round of drinks.
"So how long have you been here? Last I heard you had tucked tail and run when Axe tried to make you his bitch." he said and I flinched, Reno had never been tactful.
"I've been back a few weeks. My dad died and I decided to move home." I said and he frowned at me.
"Sorry to hear about that. You seeing Axel?" he asked. I rolled my eyes and downed the last of my rum and coke. Lady Gaga's Just Dance started up and I smiled.
"No, I'm not. He's married remember? Wanna dance?" I asked. He laughed but downed his beer and then grabbed my hand and led me out onto the dance floor.
I've had a little bit too much, much
All of the people start to rush, start to rush by
How does he twist the dance? Cant find my drink, oh man
Where are my keys? I lost my phone, phone
I stopped and he puled me back into his body as my body pulsed to the beat. His hands went to my waist as I swung my hips and threw my hands above my hand.
What's going on on the floor?
I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore
Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?
I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright
I dropped down and came back up, making sure my ass was pressed into his crotch. His lips found my neck and my hands found his and slid them back down to my waist.
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
My body had taken on a life of its own as the music took me. All that matter was my body on his and his on mine.
Wish I could shut my playboy mouth, oh oh oh-oh
How'd I turn my shirt inside out? Inside outright
Control your poison babe, roses have thorns they say
And we're all getting hosed tonight, oh oh oh-oh
He spun me around and pressed our bodies together as we continued to writhe together. I glanced over his shoulder to find Vincent standing just on the edge of the dance floor, his eyes glued to mine. I blew him a kiss before I turned around and continued to grind on the red head behind me.
When I come through on the dance floor checkin' out that catalog
Can't believe my eyes, so many women without a flaw
And I ain't gon' give it up, steady tryin' to pick it up like a car
I'ma hit it, I'ma hit it and flex and do it until tomorr' yeah
Shawty I can see that you got so much energy
The way you're twirlin' up them hips 'round and 'round-2-
Reno pressed his lips to my ear.
"Lets get out of here." he said, his voice a shout but actually sounded like a whisper. I smiled just as I caught sight of Demyx dancing a few feet away. I turned to Reno and pulled him down by his shirt and pressed my lips to his ear as his hands went to my ass.
"Meet me at the door, gotta tell my friends I'm leaving." I yelled. He pulled away and flashed me a grin and squeezed my ass before he disappeared into the crowd. I turned and went over to Demyx and slipped in between him and some huge dude who was trying to crop a feel.
"Dem, I'm outta here!" I yelled and he gave me a thumbs up and a wink. I laughed and made my way toward the door. I stopped at the bar and got another shot before I continued to the front entrance. Reno was talking to one of the bouncers when I walked up. He immediately turned to me and wrapped his arm around my waist.
We got outside and I was laughing but I couldn't tell you why. Reno said something but it felt like I had cotton in my ears from the pounding music of the club.
"What?" I asked, still laughing and stumbling a little. He pulled me into his side and pressed his lips to my ear.
"I said, which way to your place?" he asked, his voice like rough silk. Nothing like Axels really. I giggled and placed my hand over my mouth.
"Hello brother." Now that sounded more like it! Then my brain caught up with me and I froze. Reno turned around, taking me with him because I was still pressed to his side.
"Axel! What are you doing out? Don't you have a wife or something along those lines?" the red head I was attached to asked. I giggled a little but realized it was the alcohol making me laugh because the situation sure as hell wasn't amusing. Axel's face was proof enough of that.
"I do but when Vincent called and said my dearest brother was in town I just had to come and say hello. And what I pleasant surprise to find you in the company of Roxas." His voice didn't sound as if it was a pleasant surprise at all and I caught his eyes flicking over to Vincent who was standing just outside the door of the club.
"Guess he forgot to mention it." Reno said as he let me go but took my hand instead. I gave Axel a little wave. "Now if you will excuse us we were just about to retreat to Roxy's place." Reno turned around and brought me with him, only to find Vincent blocking our path.
"Roxas, come here." came Axel's voice from behind us and I froze as the anger in his voice broke through my buzzed mind. I let go of Reno's hand and turned to face the other red head.
"Damn it Axel! Why couldn't you just stay at home with your god damn wife and let me have some damn fun!" I said, stomping my foot and crossing my arms.
"Why? So you can let my brother screw you and rip my family apart more then it already is? What makes you think for even a second, that I would allow you to sleep with my brother?" He said, his voice raising slightly. Reno was frozen next to me.
"I thought you said you weren't with him?" Reno asked me, his eyes looking a little hurt but more angry. I threw my hands in the air in exasperation.
"I am not with him! He's fucking married!" I said pointing a finger at Axel. Axel took the opportunity to grab my wrist and pull me to him. I stumbled and ended up pressed to his chest.
"Reno I forgive you. You did not know, but my claim on Roxas is not any less then it was last we met." he said as he stared down at me, his green eyes burning into mine. I looked away and let myself rest against him for a moment.
"Alright then. I'll just be on my way then." the other red head said.
"Be sure to make a stop in at the manor before you leave town." Axel said and I listened to his voice rumble through his chest. I'm sure Reno made some sort of reply but I didn't hear it. Suddenly I was pulled away from Axel's chest by his hand on my wrist.
"Axel!" I said as a sharp pain shot up my wrist from his grip on me but he ignored me and opened the back door of a limo.
"Get in." he said as he stood to the side. I looked up ready to argue but the words died in my mouth at the pure anger that was directly and solely pointed at me. So I did what I was told, I got in. I slid in and Axel followed and the door closed. I was surprised to find Leon sitting on the opposite seat from me and I gave him a little smile which he didn't return.
"Leon, give the driver the address please." Axel said, his voice still filled with his anger. Leon turned to the parting window and knocked. The window rolled down just a little and Leon gave the driver an address which I realized was mine. I set back into the seat and kept silent, not wanting to direct Axel's attention to me at the moment.
It didn't take long to get to my apartment but long enough for that last shot to rear its ugly head. I stumbled when I got out of the limo, making Axel catch me by the arm. He jerked me back to my feet and leaned into the limo and said something to Leon before he closed the door.
The stairs proved to be trying for the both of us. Me, because my feet didn't seem to want to move high enough up to make the step and Axel because he had to catch me every time I fell. Eventually Axel got fed up with my stumbling and threw me over his shoulder, knocking my breath out for a moment.
"I can walk Axel!" I yelled as I flailed my legs but he ignored me and continued up the last flight of stairs. He dropped me to my feet, causing me to stumble back into the wall next to the door. He held out his hand. "What?" I snapped.
"The key Roxas, the key. Before I decide to have this argument right here." he seethed. I dug around in my pockets until I found my keys. I dropped them in his hand and tried to push away from the wall but stumbled again. Axel grabbed my wrist once the door was opened and yanked me inside.
"God damn it Axel! Stop man handling me like I'm some cheap bitch!" I yelled as I stumbled into the living room area. I turned around as soon as I gained my balance.
"Maybe you should stop acting like one then." He snapped as he started toward me. Suddenly I didn't want him to touch me, my heart was racing as I started to back up.
"I'm not acting like one but you sure as hell are acting like a possessive ass hat." I seethed as the argument Sora and I had had before I left for London flashed through my alcohol addled mind.
"How long before you do something that really pisses him off?" I gulped as my back came into contact with a wall and Axle's fist slammed into either side of my head. His face was inches from mine, his green eyes burning with his anger.
"How could you think that taking my brother home was okay?" he hissed. I gulped but shoved him away from me. He stumbled back a little and a took a step forward.
"I wasn't actually going to sleep with him Axel!" I said as I shoved him again "I wouldn't do that!" He got his balance back and grabbed my wrist as I went to push him again. Before I could stop him he slammed me back into the wall, my head hitting this time. I whimpered.
"Liar!" He hissed as I saw stars. His other hand not holding my wrist was holding my chin still as he glared down at me. "I saw him all over you. There is no way in hell you would have come back here and refused him." I had tears in my eyes now, I didn't want to cry but he was hurting my wrist. He leaned down, putting more pressure on my wrist. "Tell me Roxas, would you have closed your eyes and pretended it was me? Hmm?" he asked, his lips on my ear, gentle but his hands on my wrist sent waves of pain down my arms.
"Axel!" I gasp, shocked that he was actually hurting me.
"That's right. Me, always me. If it this was brother instead of me, If you had made it back here and he had touched you, I would have killed him." he hissed in my ear and then let go of me. I slid down the wall, my hands going to the back of my head to feel for a lump but found none.
"Your a bastard you know that." I growled as I got to my feet, a little shaky but faced him. He was standing a few steps from me and I was tempted to tackle him to the floor.
"Watch your mouth Roxas." He said, his eyes going into slits as he glared at me.
"I'm not going to just lay around and take your shit like your bitch ass wife. You want to hit me and throw me against walls, fine. But be ready to get hit back god damn it." I said as I rubbed my wrist. He took a step toward me and I took a step toward him.
"You don't want to do this Roxas." he said his voice soft. We were glaring at each other, just a breath away from one another and I be damn if I backed down first.
"I was not going to sleep with Reno." I said keeping my glare steady but I was not fooling either of us. There was no telling what would have happened had Reno and I made it back here.
"You can count on Vincent being around every time you leave your house." he said as he took a step back from me. I clenched my fist and shoved past him, going toward my bathroom.
"Possessive ass hat." I grumbled as I pushed past but he grabbed me and spun me around. As I came around I raised my fist and swung but he moved and the momentum kept me going and I ended up on the floor at his feet. "Fucking shit Axel!" I seethed as I glared up at him and rubbed my back were I hit the ground.
"I told you to watch your mouth." he said and turned his back on me and started to walk toward the balcony and something inside me snapped. I got to my feet and charged toward him, he turned slightly but not fast enough. I tackled him and we tumbled back onto the floor, his head hitting this time. My hands were buried in the soft fabric of his shirt as I glared down at him, straddling his chest.
"STOP talking to me like you're better then I am!" I hissed in his face while he was sill dazed. He grabbed onto my wrist but still didn't pull me away. "I am NOT your bitch. I am NOT your property." I said, shaking him ruffly with each 'not' as he glared at me. "And you WILL treat me like an equal. I don't care who you think you are or who you have to be around other people..." I let go of his shirt and let my head hang down as emotions came pouring in. I felt him shift under me and I pushed myself to my feet but wouldn't look at him as he stood as well. I turned around and headed for the restroom, this time without any resistant.
I closed the door behind me and leaned against the sink, staring at myself in the mirror. I looked ragged. My hair was all over the place from being thrown around, my eyes were red rimmed from the alcohol and unshed tears. I looked down to my throbbing wrists but saw no visible damage...yet. I turned on the sink and splashed water onto my face, trying to drive away the last of my buzz. Nothing like being thrown around to kill your buzz.
"Fucking ass hole." I growled as I dried my face off on a towel and sighed. I dropped my head back and stared at the ceiling for a moment before going back to the door. I came back out to the living room to find Axel standing by the door to the balcony, his arms crossed over his chest. I made my way over to him and leaned against the wall beside the door so I could see his face.
"The view from here is nice." he said, his voice neutral as he glanced at me. I grunted and crossed my arms over my chest.
I don't mind it, I don't mind at all
"Yeah, it was a big plus for me when we were looking around town for an apartment." I said as I studied his profile while he continued to stare out the glass door. He turned to me and our eyes locked and I had just enough time to brace myself before I was pressed up against a wall once again. This time, however, my heart was racing for an entirely different reason.
It's like you're the swing set, and I'm the kid that falls
His lips were on mine, his body pressing mine into the wall. I wrapped my arms around his neck, my tongue battling with his. I tangled my fingers in his hair and wrapped my legs around his waist when he lifted me up. I jerked his head back exposing his neck and let my lips and teeth have at the sensitive area. He groaned, his hands still gripping my ass as he held me up.
"The room?" He asked as he hoisted me higher, making me squeak...a little. He chuckled and kissed me again. I pulled away and gasped as he found my neck.
It's like the way we fight, the times I've cried
"Only we can go from trying to kill each other to wanting to screw each others lights out." I said as I pulled his head away from my neck. He growled and nipped my neck with his teeth.
"Room Roxas, where is the room?" He growled. I threw back my head and laughed.
We come to blows and every night
"Down the hall, door on the right." I managed to say threw my giggles. Suddenly I was thrown over his shoulder in one fluid motion making me scream. "Axel!" I said, still laughing hysterically. "Put me down!" He kicked the door opened and tossed me onto the bed. I landed with a bounce and continued to laugh while he stood and looked around the room.
"Oh this won't do." he said as he eyed my bed...well what passed for my bed. It was just a box spring on the floor with a mattress on top and only a twin size at that. I set up and pulled my shirt off and then got to my knees and unzipped my pants.
The passion's there, so it's got to be right...right?
"Really?" I asked, my eyebrow arched. "That's too bad." I slipped my pants off my hips. "I was really looking forward to breaking it in with you." His eyes were glued to my exposed hips before he slipped his shirt off.
"Tell you what, we'll break this one in and then I'll buy you a new one and we can break that one in too." He said. I rolled my eyes and made the 'come hither' motion. He complied by pinning me to the mattress and attacking me with his lips and teeth.
At some point in the past few days I had convinced myself that the passion I had felt with Axel that night after my Dad's funeral had just been built up tension from five years apart. I had fooled myself.
Every touch, kiss, lick, suck, and thrust was filled with the same passion of that night. I was completely and utterly consumed by the fire that was Axel.
I don't mind it, I still don't mind at all
It's like one of those bad dreams when you can't wake up
Looks like you've given up, you've had enough
But I want more, no, I wont' stop '
Cause I just know you'll come around...right? -3-
-1- Take it of by Ke$ha
-2- Just Dance by Lady Gaga
-3- I Don't Believe You by P!nk: A little note on these lyrics. The song isn't actually playing in the scene its just to help emphazies the mood for you, my lovely readers.
I had a lot of fun writing this chapter..
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